Give Me Love
By: H.M. White
Chapter 1- Hayley
"Another one" I said as I sat alone at Charlie's, again.
I being, Hayley Williams, a shy, quiet girl who just moved to Seattle from Boston. I moved into my mother's old house. The next morning I would be starting as a surgical intern at Kindred Hospital. I am nervous but luckily the tequila is helping take the edge off. I was high in my class at Boston University but I had to work very hard to get where I am. I basically raised myself after my father left me with my mother, leaving me with the obvious daddy issues. Who is my mother? Jenny Williams, a famous surgeon who only had time for work. I never understood my mother or why she never accepted me. And now I have to keep my mother's secret, she has an inoperable brain tumor that is slowly making her lose herself. She won't let me tell anyone and I am the only one she will see. She is such a piece of...
"A scotch on the rocks" a (very handsome) man asked as he leaned on the counter next to me and interrupted my train of thought.
I can't help but to glance at him out of the corner of my eye. God is he attractive. He had hair that looked as if God got up every morning and styled it for him. He was muscular, but not to muscular and looked cute in the blue shirt he was wearing. I couldn't hold back the girlish grin that escaped onto my face and I'm pretty sure he saw it.
"Forgive me, but I have seemed to have forgotten my manners, allow me to introduce myself. I am Elijah." he said outreaching his hand to shake it with mine. He had just enough of a British accent to make any girl weak at the knees.
"Hi" I said as I was giggling softly "I'm Haley."
"Do you mind if I sit?"
"Go for it."
"What is a pretty girl like you doing here all by herself" he asked with an inquisitive smile.
"Well...umm. I start my new job tomorrow and I needed a little something to take the edge off."
"Oh I see. Well maybe I can help with that" he said with the most adorable boyish smile.
And with that I couldn't resist. I knew right then and there I wanted to take him home. I smiled and played it cool. I didn't want to seem too desperate, I hardly knew him but for some reason I could just feel he could turn into something special. I wanted to gently caress his hair and then maybe he would lean in and kiss me. Or maybe I should just kiss him, fight then and there. This was all going through my mind at the speed of light when I realized I was just sitting there with a stupid smile on my face. I looked back over at him and he gently set his hand on my leg.
I let out a soft sigh as I said "mmm...don't do that" and playfully pushed his hand away. As I was just about ready to put my hand back in my lap he reached out and grabbed it, interlocking our fingers. I literally thought I was going to die. After that everything seemed to go in slow motion. He gently leaned in a grabbed my face. When our lips touched it was like electricity. He was soft and tender but firm. He cradled my face just enough. His lips were the perfect moisture and tasted amazing. He gently pulled on my hair as we kissed, pushing it behind my ears. I knew what I wanted. I wanted him.
"Let's go back to my place" I suggested.
"Ok" he said with a slight giggle. God he was so sexy.
He followed me back to my house and jumped out his car before I had even fully parked. He rushed and opened my door for me. Not only had I managed to get a sex god back to my house but he was a gentleman too. As soon as I was out of the car his lips were back on mine. We walked leg and leg, waist and waist, lip and lip up to the door. As I fumbled with the keys in the lock, Elijah focused his attention to my neck. He blew cold air against my neck which sent a shiver down my spine. He kissed my jaw line and down into my neck and shoulder. To say it was perfect is an understatement.
As we busted through the door he was already taking my coat off. The feel of his lips on mine was amazing. He was wonderful, possibly the best I have ever had. We didn't even make it upstairs to my bedroom. The couch was far enough. He took his time. Slowly undressing me, kissing every inch of my body. Lightly pulling my hair, kissing me passionately again and again. When we were finished he kissed me more and spooned me until we fell asleep on the couch together.
The sound of my alarm is blaring in my ear. I open my eyes, knowing that all I want to do is fall back asleep. But when I look at the time all I can think is Crap...I'm freaking late. My first day of work and I'm slightly hung-over and late, which is not what you want to be on the first day of work. And not to mention there is a naked man lying on the floor, inside of my house. But again, here I am butt-naked laying on the couch. As I pull the blanket off his back to cover myself up, I drop a pillow on his backside. This ultimately woke him up.
"I believe this is yours..." He said with a grin of contempt.
"And this is so embarrassing."
"Well why don't you come down here and we can pick up where we left off."
I knew that was exactly what I wanted to do, but the words that came out of my mouth were the complete opposite.
"I can't. I'm late for work and that is not what you want to be on your first day. So I'm going to go upstairs and take a shower and when I get back you will be gone."
"Well okay then. You live here? It's nice kind of dusty and old but nice."
"I just moved here from Boston and it was my mother's house."
"I'm sorry"
"For what?"
"Your mom and for this." he said as he jumped over the back of the couch and closed the distance between us. Then he kissed me again, more passionately then before. I melted but I couldn't I had to go to work.
"Why are you sorry for my mom?"
"You said was…"
"Oh no she isn't dead, she is just, well it's complicated."
"Oh my bad."
"Okay, well it was nice to meet you... Elijah" I said with a grin ear to ear on my face.
"You to Hayley"
I couldn't help myself I knew if I stood there any longer I would be even later for work. I ran upstairs to hop in the shower saying "Bye Elijah" as I made my way upstairs.
I took the fastest shower I think I have ever taken in my life. Quickly got dressed and ran into the kitchen to find a fresh pot of coffee had just finished brewing. And there was a note that said I had fun last night. Thanks. Elijah. I couldn't help the smile that grew across my face. Like I said he is a gentleman. I poured the coffee into my mug and jumped into my car. Off to be a surgeon, I guess.
"This is your arena, your playing field, here you will be fighting against each other to become the best surgeons the world has ever seen. These will be the best and the worst seven years of your life. Some of you will quit, two of you will be asked to leave, some will switch to easier professions and the rest will be surgeons. Now how well you play…that is up to you."
These wise words were spoken by Dr. Joel Grey, the chief of surgery. He was an older man, whose hair was just starting to gray. He had been working here for his entire career and was on the verge of medical breakthrough. He knew my mom, they were residents here together, I had so many questions for him but at the same time I didn't want the answers.
We were escorted to our locker room where we put on our first pair of scrubs. My first out of thousands that I will wear every day at work. God am I nervous. What if I fail? What if I am one of the ones asked to leave. We had to wait in this room until of surgical resident came and got us, no pressure right. I had Dr. Mia Hann, some called her the dictator. I was paired or grouped or whatever with Aaron Carpenter, a practical nobody who barely got into the program, Caroline Davis, who was top of her class at Stanford, Mason Gillies, the guy who is a complete ass and we have no idea how he even got here and Jessie Brookes, who put herself through med school by modeling in her underwear. These are the interns I will be with the entire year. The people I am competing against. And I'm screwed.
"Can you believe there are only five women here out of twenty?" Caroline asked.
"No and did you hear one of them is a model. Like that is going to help with the respect thing. Your Caroline right? I'm Hayley."
"Nice to meet you? I have Hann, who do you have?"
"The dictator, I have her too."
"Hann I have her too. Hi I'm Aaron. We met the other night at the mixer, you had on a long, black dress with a slit up the side and bright red heels. Oh god, and now you think I'm gay. I'm not gay"
"Okay." I said wondering what other word vomit was going out come out of his mouth.
"Davis, Williams, Carpenter, Brookes, and Gillies" the administrator called.
Here it goes, no turning back now. I'm going to be a surgeon. And like I said, I'm screwed. I can see her down the hall and I'm shocked. How can people call her the dictator, she looked so harmless. She was a small, a little big but not too much, black women. She had short hair and hoops in her ears.
"That's the dictator?" Caroline asked.
"Maybe she is nice, maybe people just call her that out of professional jealousy" Jessie said.
"You must be the model" Caroline laughed as we reached Hann. Jessie shot Caroline a look that could have frozen a normal person in place.
"Hi, I'm Jessica Brookes, but everyone calls me Jessie. It's nice to meet you."
Dr. Hann shot Jessie a look and then said" I have three rules and it is imperative you follow them. Also, don't bother sucking up, I already hate you and that's not going to change. Here are you pagers, manuals and general procedures books. Rule number one: Wherever I go, you go. You are now starting your first 48 hour shift. You are nobodies, bottom of the surgical food chain. You run labs, do scut, and order tests. Get used to it. Which bring me to rule two: no complaining. I don't want to hear about your tired, stressful little lives. I have enough to worry about myself."
"You said three rules, that is only two" I said tentatively.
"That's right" she said as she looked down at her beeping pager. "When there is an emergency you run. You page me, you run and the patient better not be dead when I get there or I would have wasted running for nothing".
After that she took off down the hall. And we followed like a bunch of duckling following their mother. Hann went down a bunch of halls and made a bunch of turns. Somehow we ended up in the ER. In the ER we found Kara Buck, a 16 year old female with seizures. She was seizing as she was being brought in on a back board by the EMTs. My mind froze but my body instantly moved to turn her on her side. We got into the trauma room and I started the IV. We immediately gave her 10 mg diazepam into the IV and her seizure stopped. It was amazing yet terrifying at the same time.
We checked in on Kara in her room, who was asleep. Dr. Burs entered the room and you could immediately tell he was cocky and self-centered. But according to his reputation he was good at what he does.
"I herd we have a fish out of water."
"Absolutely, Dr. Burs."
Looking at Kara's chart Burs says "Let's shotgun her" and walks out of the room.
"Okay shotgun means to run every test in the book. Caroline labs, Aaron patient work-ups, Mason scut, Hayley get Kara down to CT. She is your responsibility now."
Great I have a responsibility. I don't even know how to get to a bathroom from here and I have to get this girl to a CT machine. Great, I'm screwed.
"What about me?"
"Jessie, oh honey, you are doing rectal exams." Hann said with a mischievous grin on her face.
"You are lost aren't you?" Kara asked as I pushed her helplessly into another elevator.
"No, I know exactly where I am going." I told her with crumbling confidence.
"What are you a nurse? Is this your first day or something?"
""You know what, it is okay? I have no idea where I am going. So please be quiet so I can think about where I am and where I need to go."
"Fine but this is the worst thing ever. This was supposed to be my year. I cheer and I finally got team MVP and this is the most important competition of the season. College scouts will be there. I twisted my ankle when I fell tucking in practice last night, I thought that was the end of the world. And now. Ugh. My life is over."
"Your life is not over. Just postponed. Everything will eventually work its way out."
"Whatever you say, I bet I will never be able to compete again."
I don't have any idea how to reassure this girl that her life isn't over and that we will figure this out and there is no need to worry. Everything will always work itself out and if it doesn't well. I just won't tell her what happens if it doesn't work itself out. Yes! I found it uh UN oh yeah, I found it. I found the CT room!
"Alright we are here. Just let me go check you in and then we will be set to go."
"Kara Buck here for a head CT" I told the clerk with great confidence, after all I just found this room on my own.
After we got her all loaded up into the machine, we started the scan. It took a while but it was very impressive to see how it worked and the image that would eventually show up on the scan. Once the image finally did show up I was confused. There was no tumor, no bleed, no nothing she had a perfectly normal brain. So what was making her have the seizures?
I took Kara back to her room. There I found her parents, worried out of their minds waiting for me. They were going to have questions that I didn't have the answers to. I felt bad but at the same time there was nothing I could do about it.
"Kara is sedated from the CT but she should be waking up soon" was the first thing out of my mouth to the parents.
"Is she okay?"
"What happened? We were driving and then we got a call?"
"Her doctor back home said she may need to have surgery, is that true?"
"Can you tell us anything?"
"I'm sorry" I said as I slowly backed out of the room "I'm not Kara's doctor, I mean I am one but I can't answer these questions. I will umm I will go get the doctor for you."
The look on her parents face was heartbreaking. I knew they needed answers. I found Dr. Hann and asked her what I should do. Should I get Dr. Burs or does she answer the questions? Dr. Hann told me that Dr. Burs was off the case as a cardio anomaly was ruled out as the cause of Kara's seizures. Dr. Hann couldn't answer the questions because she was a resident and didn't know the results of Kara's head CT. She said Dr. Michaelson had now been put on the case and was the lead attending.
So now I was off to go find this Dr. Michaelson. I tried to page him or her (I have never met this doctor so I didn't know what sex this person was) and of course I got no answer. So I had to literally ask each nurse station if they had seen this supposedly amazing neurosurgeon Dr. Michaelson. Of course they all said they hadn't seen him just my luck right? I was terrified to ask Hann if she knew where shim was because I was afraid I would get into trouble. Actually I knew I would get in trouble. I'm so going to be the one fired…
"Excuse me, do you know where Dr. Michaelson is?" I asked the final nurses' station.
"Yeah, he is right over there."
Well that answers that question: Dr. Michaelson is a man. Now I just have to find him. I scanned the room and looked for him. That's when the feeling of guilt, nerves and the feeling to run set in. He hadn't seen me yet, so I had time to get out of there and go find Caroline and ask her to do it for me. But it was too late, he looked up. He actually looked twice, a glance up and then he really looked and saw me. I was embarrassed beyond belief and scared too. If anyone found out that I had slept with him I could be kicked out of the program. Dr. Michaelson was Elijah. My one-night stand from the night before. Like I said, I'm screwed.