Disclaimers:I do not own any of the characters in this fic and never will own falling skies (if I did jimmy would never have died) there is strong language, self harm and possessive actions threw out, if any of this displeases you feel free to exit now.

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"Ben you can't just…you can't just come back and try to be apart of my life!" Jimmy turns away, walking back into his assigned room halfheartedly swinging the door shut behind him. Ben puts his foot in the door and steps in the room after him.

"Jimmy I-"

"You WHAT?! Ben?" Jimmy was yelling so loud his voice echoed off of the walls in the small living space. Ben knitted his brows together and stepped back. He'd never seen Jimmy so upset before, so angry. Not that he didn't have a right to be.

"You really fucking think, that after all this time you can just show up and I'll be here waiting for you!? Well guess what Ben I-"

Ben interrupts, "Jimmy if you would just fucking listen!"

Jimmy takes a step towards Ben and looks him in the face, his eyes glassy with oncoming tears. "Oh, so…so now you're ready to speak? It took three months for you to actually WANT to talk Ben? For you to decide you want me as badly as I want-wanted you?"

Ben licked his lips and looked away. It wasn't supposed to happen like this. He had left The Second Mass. He wasn't good for Them. Not good for His Dad, Hal, Matt, Rick, Weaver…shit even Pope. But most of all he wasn't good for Jimmy. Jimmy was too young, they both were,he didn't know what he wanted. Sure he said he wanted Ben; he'd even said he loved Ben. He wasn't speaking with his brain; they where just hormonal teenagers saying whatever they needed to say, to keep what they felt like they needed.

But Ben needed Jimmy. The two Months he stayed away were torture. He couldn't sleep, he was never hungry. He was even more moody than he already knew himself to be. Lashing out at any, and everything around him. He left Jimmy to make things better for him, give him a chance at a semi normal life, but only made things worse for himself. So he came back, he knew Jimmy would be waiting for him.

Apparently he was wrong.

"Ben, I don't want to talk. I cried and I begged you to talk to me…to stay with me. And you made a choice leave. Told me I had to move on because you didn't love me. So…" he looked down and his angry tears fell "I moved on, like you told me Ben".

"In two Months Jimmy? See…" he turned and began walking towards the door "I knew I wasn't what you needed…I was right."

jimmy wiped his red puffy eyes and threw his hands up in the air.

"What Ben? You told me to move on from you. You said…you said, that you didn't love me!" that we'd never be together." His body shook with those last words, the veins in his arm bulging as he flexed his fingers.

"Yeah. And I guess I was right…" Ben opened the door and was going to leave before Jimmy said something that burned him up inside. That made him slam the door and stomp back over to stand in front of the younger man.

"You- you fucking bastard…I- I waited a whole two months for you to comeback." Jimmy's fists balled up at his side and he looked away. "You fucked me. And left. When you didn't comeback-I…I gave up…on everything."

"You did what?" Ben said green eyes burning with anger. Jimmy wouldn't.

"I was broken Ben…you shattered me…into a thousand pieces" Jimmy tried to turn away and Ben grabbed his shoulder pulling him back. "What did you do Jimmy?"

Jimmy rubbed his wrist and shook his head. "Just go Ben…fucking go".

Bens eyes zeroed in on his wrist, he grabbed Jimmy's arm and lifted the sleeve of his shirt up. Jimmy had a wide lengthy scar going across his wrist. It was completely healed and wasn't pigmented. But the skin was risen and would always be that way. Ruined.

Jimmy snatched his arm away and frowned at Ben. "Get the fuck off me!"

"Jimmy, what the hell did you do!" Ben shouted pointing to Jimmy's wrist.

A different voice broke through the bubble Jimmy and Ben had created around themselves.

"What's going on here?"; a tall, short haired, blonde young man who looked to be around the same age as jimmy was standing in the middle of the door holding a gun to his chest. His muscles were bulging slightly at his shirt from holding the gun a little to hard. If anything he would say they where brothers, His dark Green eyes narrowed back and forth between Ben and Jimmy.
'Guess some things never change' Ben seethed Bitterly to himself, Glaring holes into the other boy.

"Nothing, he was just leaving" Jimmy, said sniffling and wiping his eyes. "Goodbye Ben."

Ben wiped his face in frustration and folded his arms. "Is this him Jimmy? What you've moved on to?" he said nodding his head towards the young man who was still standing in the door way. A slight draft blew by and Ben growled deep within his chest. He had smelled something different about jimmy but ignored it seeing as though he'd been gone for two months. But when he caught the same scent, but slightly stronger, coming from the young man, he felt challenged.

"Ben don't" jimmy whispered looking up from under his wet lashes trying to calm Ben down, knowing Ben was much stronger then the other bold if things got ugly.

"Who the fuck are you?" Ben asked the young man who was now placing the gun over his shoulder.

"Whoa, ok. I'm Connor. And who the fuck are you?" Connor retorted folding his arms

"Connor just…Connor could you go to the mess tent or somewhere for awhile?" Jimmy almost whispered, solemnly smiling in his direction.

"No. Who's this guy and why are you crying? Did he hurt you?" Connor walked over to Jimmy and wrapped his arms around his waist, pulling his back into his chest. Bens eyes followed every movement. "Are you ok?" he mumbled in Jimmy ear.

Ben grabbed Jimmy's arm and snatched him out of Connors embrace. Connor stumbled back in shock and Jimmy had clearly had enough snatching his arm away again.

"I'm not yours anymore! Don't you fucking see? I've moved on! You wanted me to and I did it. You can't come back and decide when you want things to change. You had me and you let me go. Please leave!" Jimmy was breathing heavily and Ben could hear his heart beating a mile a minute.

"You really want me to go?" He exhaled looking in Jimmy's furious eyes, still as blue as he remembered even with them stained a slight red. He was no longer holding back his tears; they were streaming down his face as he nodded at Ben.

"Please go"

Ben looked at Connor who was back to holding his Jimmy and kissing the back of his head and glared at him; Connor returned his glare and held his Jimmy close.

"You're still mine" he whispered before turning and walking out the door slamming it behind him.

Fin? Maybe I'm not sure.

Like i said was my first time so go easy please, if you like it so far leave a review to let me know what you think and if you want an update.
So for now see you around I guess:)