Those damn, damn crystal blue eyes. I couldn't even focus on finishing my English assignment because of those damn eyes. It wasn't like I had a crush on her or anything because I just couldn't because, well, you know, it's not fair to her. And she doesn't make me happy. I mean, those eyes, well, I can't help but smile whenever I think about them. Wait. I don't smile. Ever. This crazy, Jesus-loving, blue-eyed girl makes me squirm. I couldn't figure her out. She wasn't just some girl. She was the girl.I sighed as I drove in Degrassi's parking lot, knowing I'd be seeing those eyes again. But to tell you the truth, it wasn't just her eyes that made me swoon. Swoon. She made my insides turn numb with every move she made. Whenever she would walk, her auburn curls would bounce back and forth, and her lips, well, they were so plump and pink. Wait. I wasn't actually staring at her lips, but whenever she talks, my eyes just seem to travel to her lips. There were a lot of other places I could be looking... I rested my head on Morty's steering wheel and let out a long sigh. I was in deep trouble. When I looked up from the wheel the blue-eyed beauty was passing by. She smiled and turned towards the car, auburn curls bouncing along the way. Uh-oh. I found myself trying to regain my composure before she could tell that I was nervous. She wasn't supposed to make me nervous. I was supposed to be the gothic freak who intimidated everyone, even though, whether you I wanted to admit it or not, I was hardly intimidating.

I opened the door to Morty as Clare stopped in front of him. She began to giggle.

"Spit it out, Edwards. What's your deal?" She brought those big blue eyes to mine. I looked away, trying not to get lost in them, but I turned back. She always seemed to pull me back to reality.

"I just still cannot believe that you drive a hearse." She continued giggling. I squinted my eyes at her, making her feel small.

"He has a name, you know. Morty. His name's Morty." She continued to giggle. I couldn't help but realize how cute she looked as she giggled. Auburn curls shaking in the wind and her bright blues eyes wide and open, she was just asking for me to kiss her. Wait. I didn't actually think about kissing her, right? I slowly began to massage my temples and forgot that the blue-eyed beauty was still standing next to Morty. She probably thought I was a freak who had named his car.

"Oh, I'm sorry, Morty, but Eli, c'mon we have to get into school before we're late. I don't need to get a detention right now…" She began to mumble towards the end, but I could only make out a few words about how her life was already in shambles. Her eyes saddened as she mumbled, and I couldn't help but feel sorry for Clare. No one deserved to be sad, especially Clare.

I sighed as I shut Morty's door and followed the beauty towards to doors of Degrassi. I remember the first time I had seen Degrassi when my parents brought me here trying to get me away from my past. I was not even slightly thrilled at the sight of the community school, but then something had changed my mind. Well, someone had changed my mind.

From the moment I heard the glass crunch under Morty's tires, my life had taken a complete 360. I had sworn off becoming friends with anyone since the accident, but she had changed everything.

As soon as I opened the door, I figured I'd be scaring off some kid who had thrown something at Morty, but I was completely wrong. I picked up the pair of broken glasses under Morty's wheel and turned, finding myself standing in front of two girls. One being a dark-skinned and dark-haired girl with a lot of makeup, and the other being the complete opposite. She was a conservative girl wearing a cross with the prettiest blue eyes I had ever seen. I made a flirtatious comment while she could barely put a sentence together.

I couldn't help but laugh as I stepped back into Morty before driving out of the parking lot and heading back home. I had made an impression on the cross-wearing, conservative girl with the biggest and prettiest blue eyes. Little did I know that I would eventually become extremely close friends with her.

We parted ways as the two of us entered Degrassi. Clare going towards her homeroom, and me heading off to find Adam before going to our homeroom. I found Adam sitting in front of my locker reading a comic book. I kicked his leg, and he slid out of the way, before standing up to give me a fist bump.

"Where have you been? I've been waiting for you for like twenty minutes." I smiled to myself as I grabbed a book from my locker and shoved my backpack inside. Damn these new rules.

"Sorry, man, I got a little sidetracked." He began to laugh. "What's up with you?"

"Meaning you have been talking with Clare all morning. Face it, dude. You like her." He poked my shoulder. I shook him off. A puzzled look came across his face.

"No, I don't, Adam. You're insane." He shook his head. I sighed realizing that what he had said was true.

"Whatever, dude. When you realize I'm right, and you're wrong, come talk with me. I don't want to be put in the middle of this." In the middle of this? What the hell was he talking about? At that moment, I realized I had to tell Adam. It wasn't fair that he didn't know my situation. He wouldn't understand my position if I did not tell him soon.

"Adam, I need to tell you something. Like, in private." He looked confused and widened his eyes. "No, not like that. It's just something. There's a reason for me not being able to be with Clare." His eyes widened even more, if that was possible, as I said Clare. "What're you talking about, Eli?" Damn it. I sighed turning around to face Clare.

"Umm, you know, I was just talking to Adam about-" Adam had cut me off. "Oh, Clare, he was just talking about the project for English, you know? It's boys with boys and girls with girls." She glanced towards the floor, and I could feel myself sink. Did Clare like me? She nodded, smiled, and walked away towards homeroom.

I slammed myself against the lockers and sighed as I sank to the floor. Adam sat down next to me seeing as we had about 5 minutes until homeroom.

"I owe you, Adam. Thank you, man." He sighed, and I looked at my best friend.

"No problem, Eli, but what do you need to tell me? We can talk about it after school if you want." I nodded and smiled at him.

"Sounds good, Adam, but seriously, I owe you. Anytime you need something, just ask, okay?" He smiled and then smirked at me.

"Good to know… I'll keep that in mind, Eli." I rolled my eyes, regretting my proposition to him, but he was my best friend. Even though I didn't deserve him, I realized if I couldn't tell him, then there was no way I could tell Clare.

I sighed walking into homeroom. Today was going to be an extremely long day.