Mel Burton. What can I say?
I like her, I like her a lot. She's beautiful, and she's a lot of fun to be around. One of the greatest girls I know. We're not exactly an official couple, but we have fun together.
But most of the time, I have no idea where I stand with her. One minute, she's all over me. The next, we're at each others throats.
She has issues. First of all, there's her drinking problem. Oh I know, she won't admit she has a problem, and I won't deny it, I'm pretty useless at talking to her about it, so I don't. I usually end up getting pissed with her, which is wrong, I know. I should be helping her get off the drink, not encouraging her to do it all the more.
Then there was the traumatic experience she went through, a few months back. Some guy, some bastard, named Andy, drugged her and raped her. I can't even begin to understand the hell she went through, but since she told me about it, I've tried my best to be there for her and support her, when she needs it most.
She was drinking too much a long time before that happened. But ever since the rape, she's been getting pissed almost every single day. She needs help, and I'm trying my best to do what I can. But she needs proper help. The problem is, whenever I do try and bring the subject up, she gets mad at me, denies she has a problem, and gets pissed again, if she wasn't already when I confronted her.
This happened once only a few weeks ago actually. We argued, and the next thing I know, she's hooked up with some guy she only just got speaking to, and dragged him home with her to spend the night with.
I was hurt of course. I know, we're not an item, but I felt jealousy, as well as anger towards myself for not trying harder to stop her. He could have been another Andy for all I knew.
She came to me the next day, apologising, which meant a lot to me. It proved to me that she really does care about me too. We made up, but I don't know where to go from here.
I really care for her, and I know the one thing I should be doing is convincing her to sort her drink problem out. But I know she'll blow up at me again, and I'm scared of losing her friendship. Although, if I don't get her to seek help soon, I could end up losing her altogether, which scares the shit out of me.
What can I do?