It all started when I helped an old lady across the street when I was on my way home from my martial arts class it and the rest of the way back to her home carrying her shopping for her.

She smiled gratefully at me as I placed the bags inside and said "Thank you child. That was kind of you." She took out a leather necklace with a tiny wolf sculpture on it from around her neck and said "I don't have much I can pay you with I hope you will accept this."

I shook my head at her and said "Oh that's alright. There is no need for you to worry about that. I am happy to help. I used to do this for my grandmother all the time it's no big deal really."

She smiled at me and said "I know I don't need to child, you did not ask for anything after all but please indulge an old woman. There are not many people who would go out of their way to help like you did. They are all too busy these days. No time for the elderly, they just place us in care homes and forget about us. I was lucky my granddaughter made sure I would be able to stay in my own home."

Her face turned sad as she looked at a picture on one of the side tables of a beautiful girl with long dark hair beautiful heart shaped face and she looked like she might be half Native American. She was not very tall, her tiny size making her look pixie like next to the woman she was standing next to, a woman she now recognised as the old lady she was standing next to.

"She died a year ago." My attention was called back to the present at the sound of her voice. She was caressing the necklace with her thumb lovingly and I realised the necklace was probably something that belonged to her granddaughter. I could not refuse to take it without hurting her feelings.

It was not as if it was ugly, it was a beautiful piece. I supposed I could always sell it later. So I smiled and accepted it. Her face beamed when I agreed. She insisted on placing it around my neck so I let her. Eventually I left the house after helping her put her shopping away and went home. My mind drifted to my job which I had just left. I was moving away I needed a fresh start after my recent heart break. The place I lived had too many memories of the man who left me for another woman especially as I saw him around every where I went.

I went to take a shower after dinner then went to bed. I did not notice I was still wearing the necklace. In fact I had forgotten it was there so when I woke up and found myself hovering above my body which looked cold and stiff I freaked out. A familiar voice spoke in my ear. "Your wish to start over is what drew you to me today. The wolf will help not just you but your counterpart. She needs you if she is to survive. I'm afraid you will be unable to talk about your life here after this. I have given you a gift that will help protect your secret. You will find out soon enough what it is. Thank you for your kindness. Enjoy it child. Not everyone gets a chance like this."

Everything turned dark after that before memories played in my head. I watched the birth of a little girl, she was raised by her mother. They lived just the two of them for years. Her mother explained who her father was and that she left him before he knew she was pregnant with his child. Apparently she had a half brother.

The girl grew older and was about fourteen when I felt a pull towards her. I felt horror and tried to scream but couldn't. It was eerie as I felt myself merge with the girl somehow. Her memories were mine and mine were hers. A mixture of the both of us.

I learned something that had been left out of the memories. The girl was dying, she was not strong enough to survive the illness that plagued her. None of the doctors knew what was wrong with her so her mother had decided to take her home and look after her herself. As soon as the merge happened I felt her body get stronger as my older and stronger soul healed hers. The weakness plaguing her slowly dispersed. This all happened overnight so when her mother came into the room in the morning it was over.

My eyes opened to the sound of my mother's voice. I could feel a balance between the two lives I had lived. The pain of my break up was not so bad now. I could look past living without him now. That made me sigh in relief. Perhaps there as a silver lining to this.

I turned to see the woman who was my mother but not. She worked as a designer and was actually doing quite well. She was saving up to buy a house for both of us so we could move to a much nicer neighbourhood. She was pretty with shoulder length red hair green eyes and a petit body. My new self had long dark hair with hints of red. I realised I now looked exactly like the picture I saw in the old woman's house.

She smiled and said "Oh good you are awake. You are going to have to make your own way to school today. I have a client who lives two hours away and if I'm going to make it on time I need to leave now. I have left money for lunch and dinner in case I'm not back in time." She kissed my forehead and said "I'll see you later sweetie."

I got out of bed after she left and made my way to the shower. Once I was done showering I began to pack my stuff and get ready to go to school. I frowned at that. Despite a part of me not having finished school another part had and was reluctant to go. I gritted my teeth and left the apartment to school.

Before I could go to any of my classes I was called into the office. I went in to find my teacher and a social worker in there waiting for me. I was not sure what was going on but I had an inkling. My world tilted in its axis when my fear was confirmed. My mum was gone. She crashed her car and now I was alone. The grown up part of me knew I would be okay, I had lived alone before but the child part of me the one who had grown with the woman felt grief grip her and terror at the thought of being alone. Suffice it to say things had changed.

xxxxx

It was several days later when the social worker assigned to me came to me to talk to me. I was in a foster home now with an elderly couple who took care of two other children who were slightly older than me. It was not so bad. I suppose it could have been worse.

I heard Shirley one of the other kids there shout my name. "Lana! You have a visitor."

I walked downstairs from the room Shirley and I shared and found Amber my social worker standing in the foyer. She smiled at me as she asked how I was coping and if I had any problems.

Once she finished her questions and satisfied that I was fine she sat me down in the living room and showed me a file. She explained that she had found some of my father's family and she wanted to see if I would wish to go to them. They were willing to take me in. She explained they lived on a reservation just outside of a small town named Forks.

I had wondered if I should go and look for my father the day my mother died but I was afraid of what I would find. So far it was easy to deny the similarities of the names. My father's last name was Uley and my half brother's name was Sam. They lived in La Push. My mother never hid that from me so Amber was telling me some of what I already knew.

If I went there would I find it was just a coincidence ? If not I knew I would not be able to deny what was right in front of me. Right now denial was my friend. I needed to get through the death of my mother adjust to a new place before I faced any more surprises. I also knew I could not avoid it forever. I agreed. There was no turning back now.

xxxx

I sat by the beach watching the waves thinking about when I arrived on the Rez. Sam had not been there when I arrived but his fiancé Emily had been there. Any denial I had of where I now was disappeared at the introductions of the people there, the familiar names.

I felt overwhelmed and actually fainted worrying everyone. Amber explained I was grieving and that I was overwhelmed by everything. She stayed to make sure I was alright and that I had a way to contact her if I should need anything.

It had been nearly two weeks, I was beginning to get used to being at the Rez. It helped that it was now the school holidays and I did not have to deal with that on top of everything else. Everyone had been so welcoming, enough that I didn't feel like I was unwanted or trespassing.

Sam actually made an effort to get to know me and made sure to spend time with me enough to make me comfortable around him. Emily was easy to get on with. She was just nice, which was a good thing seeing as I now lived with them.

I heard footsteps behind me and turned around to see my new half brother approaching. He had a blanket in one hand and a look of concern on his face.

"You should not be out here in this weather Lana. It's too cold."

He arrived and placed the blanket over my shoulders and I smiled at him and said "Says the guy wearing shorts. I'm alright Sam, I just wanted some fresh air."

He replied "Fair enough but at least make sure you are bundled up. Emily has finished making dinner you might want to come in now before the boys eat everything."

I was still trying to get over his caring attitude. I had not actually expected that. I had expected him to be angry that his father had an illegitimate daughter. As for the boys I knew they would definitely eat everything in sight. I had witnessed it and had to pick my jaw off the ground when it fell there in shock. They practically inhaled their food. I couldn't even eat a small portion of what they ate.

I replied as I turned around to go back to the house "Okay."

Sam smiled as he picked me up and ran for the house. It was easy for him seeing as I was tiny enough to pass for a twelve year old and he was huge. He ignored my squealing of put me down Sam! Instead he laughed as he ran. I didn't really mind I actually enjoyed it.

We arrived at the house to find Paul and Jared just arriving. I squealed at Sam "Sam run faster before they get in!"

Both boys looked up to see Sam and I approaching the house and began to run as well, racing to see who would get there first. Sam and I got in first earning a shout of victory from both of us. Paul came in next followed by Jared who said "That was an unfair race. You two were closer."

I smiled and said "Hey you didn't have any baggage Sam was carrying me so you have no excuse."

Paul jumped into the conversation "Yeah but you weigh next to nothing so he was not hampered." He demonstrated by picking me up from where Sam had just placed me down.

"Hey! I am not a doll. Put me down!"

Paul earned a small growl from Sam and he could not put me down fast enough. However by the time i looked up at Sam he was smiling again as if the sound had not actually come from him. I shrugged and said "I'm going to see if Emily needs any help."

I was not sure if I should let them know that I knew what they were. I could not just go up to them and say hey I know you are a wolf. They would ask how I knew, I was not ready to be put in an insane asylum thank you very much because they would definitely think I was insane if I told them about my merge. Besides I found I could not speak about the fact that I seemed to have transferred from another world. I figured if I could somehow push Paul knowing his temper he might just phase in front of me.

I took to running in the mornings after realising I had neglected my training and exercise regime after arriving here. My body was nowhere near as fit as it used to be. Majority of the time Sam joined me although I figured he just wanted to keep an eye on me especially when I got lost among the trees the first time I went alone.

If Sam was not available either Paul or Jared joined me. I didn't mind the company, in fact it was beneficial because it meant I had sparring partners and the boys learned how to stretch properly after long bouts of exercise. I knew they were patrolling, it was obvious when they looked exhausted when they got home.

I felt a trickle of terror every time I thought about the fact that there were vampires out there. Vampires that my new brother was going after. I was afraid I would lose him to them. I wanted to tell him what I knew but I couldn't. I couldn't even form the words. I stayed strong when I saw that Emily probably had it worse than I did. She had to watch the love of her life leave the house every day and not know if she would see him again.

When school started up again I went too. Sam made sure I was registered. It was there that I met Jacob, Embry, Quil, Leah and Seth. Although I had been introduced to the elders I stayed close to Sam and Emily and didn't go anywhere much so I still had not met a lot of people.

Leah gave me an evil look when she saw me at first I was shocked at the poisoners stare she was giving me until I remembered Sam and Emily. I realised I was bing hated because of association. I didn't let it get to me instead I was unflinchingly polite to the girl. As for the boys we got along quite well. Despite to my chagrin I was still the smallest.

xxxx

I began to settle well among my peers and made friends. I mostly hung around Jacob, Embry and Quil. It started off slowly, little things like the weight of the bucket I used to carry water to my flower beds that I planted in the back garden feeling less than it should be. Being able to see better and a bit further, my mind working faster than normal, hearing conversations I should not have been be able to hear. Like I said it started off slowly enough that I didn't notice the changes. When I finally did notice I made sure I hid these changes from everyone else. I wanted to know what was going on before I told anyone. I was actually a bit worried about how they would react.

I felt relief when I finally figured out what was happening. The leather necklace that I never remembered was around my neck was glowing. Only this time I remembered more of what the old woman told me. It was like hearing the rest of a conversation that had been cut off.

She explained that due to merging two souls at once my body and mind would be faster and stronger. I would have enhanced senses just like the wolves and I would eventually shift. My heart thudded in response to that wondering what Sam would think about his little sister being usurped once he read it in my mind after shifting.

However the old woman said "You will be a part of the pack but separate. Instead of being just a shape shifter you are a spirit wolf. Your mind will be your own, your spirit wolf will protect your secrets. One more thing my gift that I promised you. When you wake up you will have it. You will have to learn how to meditate if you wish to learn how to control it. Good luck child. You are on your own now."

xxxxx

I insisted on accompanying Emily to Port Angeles to buy a few things when she mentioned going. I needed some new clothes and a few extra bits and pieces for myself. I heard Emily talking to Sam on the phone while I was paying for my purchases. I made sure I added a bunch of shorts and t shirts in the boy's sizes without Emily noticing. I knew at some point the pack would grow and they would need the clothes when they kept ripping theirs. It was not the first lot I had bought either so I was making progress on that front. I had the money for it so why not? I could hear the sound of Sam's voice as if he was right there next to her. I paid for my things before I made my way to Emily.

She was also finished and we went to the car and began the drive home. We chatted while we drove, that was until I felt my stomach give a lurch. I recognised that feeling and cursed myself for eating a hot dog from a questionable vendor while we were shopping. There was no way I would make it home I could feel it. I turned to Emily and said "Em do you mind stopping for a bit? I think I have a bit of diarrhoea and I don't think it can wait till we get home. "

She looked alarmed and said "Okay we will ask someone if you can use their bathroom."

I shook my head "No not a good idea. I would never be able to look them in the eye if I managed to block their toilet. I will go in the trees."

She stopped the car and reached behind her to get a bottle of water and some toilet paper which she passed to me. I gave her a grateful look and left the confines of the car. "I'll be fine Em don't worry. I won't go far."

I turned and ran into the trees asking sure I was in deep enough Emily would not hear me or see me. I was already embarrassed enough. I had just enough time to dig a hole with a pocket knife I kept in my pocket before releasing the contents of my stomach. The relief I felt was enormous once I finished.

I quickly cleaned myself up using the water bottle and tissue then placed dirt over the hole I dug. As soon as I was satisfied that I was done I began to turn around to leave. I stopped short when I realised I had not just run in at normal speed I had ran in at super speed and I was further in than I realised. I was well and truly lost. That problem however was pushed to the back of my mind when I heard something approaching. Whatever it was was huge my eyes widened when the biggest wolf I had ever seen appeared in front of me.

I will admit to nearly shitting myself when I saw the size, i was just glad I had just emptied my bowls. I won't even start on the razor sharp teeth. As I stood there I wondered who the hell was screaming it was rather distracting before I realised I was the one who was screaming in terror. I turned around and ran in the opposite direction of the huge beast behind me.

I had enough sense to actually stop screaming but I ran blindly just thinking I had to get away. It was not long before I heard a shout behind me. A familiar voice that made me slow down and take a look. There was Sam running behind me. I blinked for a second before realising what had just happened. Sam was the huge beast I saw but I panicked before I could remember that.

I was brought back to the present when I felt Sam shaking me to get my attention. "Lana! Lana! Are you alright? Say something!"

I nodded unable to speak. Sam just picked me up and turned around running in the opposite direction I had been going. I realised he wouldn't know about Em waiting for me and he might just be taking me home. I took out my phone and found Emily's number before giving it to him. He frowned at first but took the phone and spoke to her. He told her to head home and that he was bringing me with him.

I was lulled by the rocking made by his running enough to fall asleep. The fright I had initially felt left me and the shaking had stopped as well. I realised that knowing about something and actually seeing it were two completely different things. I realised it would take some getting used to before I was comfortable with his other form. I blame my fear of dogs in my former life.

When I woke up the next day I realised instead of waking me up Sam and Emily let me sleep. I was in my own bed in my room. I went to wash before getting dressed in some warm clothes knowing Sam and Emily would fuss if I tried to leave the house in anything less. I then made my way to the beach. It was still rather early so I knew they would both still be in bed.

I didn't want to disturb them. I sat on a log and watched as the waves hit the shore. It occurred to me that I had once considered pissing Paul off to make him shift in front of me. I shuddered at the thought now. If I had done that I would have had a stroke or a heart attack right there and then. I would have to tell Sam I knew. I could not keep up the pretence of ignorance anymore. I hated lying to him. It was already bad enough that I was keeping a secret from him.

My vision suddenly changed my eyes shut of their own accord and I Sam shifting, I realised I was having a vision of the past if the panicking and freaking out I saw was any indication. I could see it was the first time he shifted. The vision changed to when he was with Emily and he got angry causing him to shift unfortunately Emily was standing too close, the vision changed to him guiding Paul when he shifted, then Jared the last one I saw myself talking to Sam.

I was telling him I knew about the wolves. This last one had not happened yet. I realised why I was having it. I was explaining how I knew to him. It was what had held me back before. How was I going to explain my knowledge?

I returned to the house to find Sam and Emily both up and about. "Morning" instead of replying Sam asked "Are you okay?"

I smiled to reassure him "I'm fine don't worry. Thanks for bringing me home last night and Emily I'm sorry, I actually went in further than I thought and got lost. I didn't know which direction went back to the road. Instead I ended up going further in"

"No kidding, you were nearly three miles from the road when I found you."

We sat down at the kitchen table, Sam and Emily across from me. I broke the silence "Sam I know that was you in wolf form last night." I watched as he stiffened at my words but I continued anyway. I only realised it when I saw you appear out of nowhere and the wolf was gone."

"How did you come to that conclusion?"

I looked at him and said "It's complicated."

His eyes narrowed and I said "What I mean is I didn't find out because of anything you or the guys did. I found out through a gift of my own. It's one thing to see something in your mind's eye it's another to actually see it right in front of you."

I sighed when all he did was raise an eyebrow. So I said "I have visions, okay."

He looked a bit sceptical so I figured I needed to make a believer out of him "Look I know when you first shifted you were alone and confused and had no clue what was happening. You had to learn the ropes on your own with very little guidance from the elders. I also know how Emily got her scars, I know you have guided the other boys so they don't have to go through the terror you had to go through, I know you have been patrolling and keeping us safe from vampires."

The lack of reaction frightened me making me wish I had not said anything. I hurried to say "I'm Sorry, I shouldn't have said anything, I should have just kept it to myself."

I got up and dashed out of the door and just ran not caring where I went as long as it was away. I didn't want to face their rejection. My vision had only shown me explaining things. It did not occur to me at the time that I did not see the reaction to my confessions.