Author's Note: This is a collection of the 100 fics I will be writing for my Hikaru/Kaoru claim in the livejournal community fanfic100.
"Cyfateh" is a welsh word (pronounced 'Kai-vah-tay') meaning "double".
This first one is for prompt 051: "Water"
Disclaimer: I do not own Ouran High School Host Club.
Cyfateh
051. Water
"Surfacing"
It was like jumping into cold water.
There was a crash, then you sank, and when you surfaced, the severity of it finally settled in your nerves.
Hikaru remembered the jump perfectly, how his heart dislodged and caught in his throat as Kaoru's lips brushed his cautiously.
As he fell, caution faded away and brushing turned to bruising and fingers roamed and clothing tore and silence was so hard to hold on to in those days of falling.
The crash came two years after the jump, and the sinking followed hot on its heals.
He couldn't get enough of the crash, and as he sank he grabbed at it again and again, reveling in the sweet sin of it all.
Then, one morning, he woke with Kaoru's sweat soaked skin pressed against his own, and Hikaru surfaced.
He gasped for breath and his eyes widened and his body burned as he jumped out of bed, rushed to the bathroom, and retched.
When Kaoru found him, he was pale and shaking and drenched in sweat, amber eyes wild and bruised lips parted in a perpetual gasp.
After you surface, the cold grabs on to your nerves and snaps the tips and logic is unknown as numbness sets in.
As Kaoru brushed hair from his brother's eyes that day, Hikaru lied about being okay, and slowly began to numb.
Numbness is something you become aware of, sooner or later, and then you gather your wits and climb out.
When the girl stepped in, awareness took hold and Hikaru's weeks of numb, sinking routine ended, and she led him to the edge of the water.
When the girl stepped in, Hikaru stepped out, and Kaoru looked up at the surface, and waited.