Twas the night after Kili had been healed, and the dragon had been slain, the brothers and the other dwarves had returned home. They had been given a rewarding greeting from their uncle after my dear brother tried to get us to turn around and leave. My fighting mentor however had seen the glimmer that I had caught from just behind my kin, and raced past him, the rest of us in tow.
Before us was piles upon piles of gold and gems all strewn together throughout this great hall, a warm glimmer reflecting upon the shiny sea from the torches lit around the cavernous room. I was in shock, for never in my short life had I ever seen so much wealth in one location. My first thought upon the sight was how they could open the largest trading system in the world here! I silently scoffed and chuckled at the thought before Thorin came into view.
That was when I saw my mentor and beloved, though no one would know it for none would agree with it, truly smile in front of everyone with pride.
"Gold," Echoed around us, "Gold beyond measure, beyond sorrow and grief." The owner of the voice was dressed rather warmly, in a black fur coat, and a lostness in his voice is what drew my eyes from my mentor to him.
"Behold, the great treasure horde, of Thror." Thorin proclaimed, looking down mesmerized, before returning his gaze to us and with a great heave, barreled something shiny straight for my mentor. He caught it right as it was reaching his face, and showed us that it was in fact a giant ruby, about half the size of my face. In awe I turned my gaze of disbelief back to Thorin.
"Welcome, my sister's sons, to the kingdom, of Erebor." With a loving gaze to the gold at his feet, Thorin swept his arms open wide barely uttering a loud whisper and it echoed as though he had shouted it.
We then were led to what I would call the mess hall for the greatest relief of a reunion, and Bilbo and I could finally rejoice in being in one another's safety and company.
"Bilbo, the dragon." I whispered in glee.
"I know, he was terrifying." He breathed as his eyes held a darkness and root of fear. I then saw just a hint of worry and knowledge in those eyes that I had seen on his face many times in our younger years. I gave him my own questioning glance and he offered to show me back at the opening to get some sunlight before I lost my mind in the dark.
We were back at the entrance and Bilbo led me up a set of stairs along the side of the opening. The cold breeze was refreshing from the somewhat stale air that was in some of the deeper halls. I turned to my twin brother and gave him my demanding look that he always gave into.
"You need to swear to me that no matter what, you give me your word of silence." Was how Bilbo started, startling me in his courage and demanding manner.
"On mother's grave." I swore to him, recognizing the acknowledgment in his eyes.
"I found it." Bilbo told me as he reached in and pulled out the stone this adventure was bent on finding. The stone itself emanated with a glow that literally was a mist coming off of it. The body of it was looking into the sky on the clearest nights when the sun would illuminate the millions of lights and burst out with colours beyond what I could describe.
I quickly covered my mouth to suppress my gasp, my mind immediately going to my mentor and his father like uncle that took kindness on me and my brother. Once we earned it of course. My brother had earned his worth from saving Thorin's life against Ozark. I earned it originally from my cooking and then when I had proven my worth, after some nights of silent training, when we were in the goblin's clutches.
Together my brother and I were able to help the dwarves escape from the elves clutches and helped fight our way through the onslaught of orcs that penetrated the elven fortress of a castle. Tonight though, tonight was going to be the night that I would confess my feelings for I feel tonight would be the last night I would get this opportunity.
So I snuck away from my shared room with Bilbo later that night and down the great hallways, using every bit of sneaking skill that I had and minding the loose gold pieces on the floor, making my way down twelve levels of tunnels. I felt a small chill leave pricklings on my skin as the cool of the mountain seeped into me through my thin canvas long shirt and brown canvas trouser, never since a very young age having worn a skirt out of rebellion. I was in total darkness, thankful for the lack of weapons to clank and clatter against one another as my hand guided me along the walls until I found a flickering light at the end of the hall.
That was when he stepped into the entryway, casting a shadow upon his face as he undoubtedly searched for my arrival. I took another few silent steps forwards before clearing my throat, not but three feet from him. I had never seen him jump or start before right then, and I had to admit, it was adorable the way he reached for his chest, and I allowed a small giggle to softly pass my lips.
That was when he put one finger to his lips and I fell silent, and followed when he motioned me into the room. Once I was in he had shut the door, and I took in the rather decently sized room, the tables being pushed to the walls and fur rugs had been laid piled upon each other in the center of the floor.
"Are you ready?" He asked softly, his darkened light hair stirring softly as he gazed at my rather lightly clothed body, despite the mountains cold.
"Yes." I told him assuredly, though my heart was racing as I tried to decide to tell him then or wait til after the lesson.
"Aoede, aren't you cold?" He asked me, his furrowing brows and worried tone, genuine.
"Only slightly, but what is a little cold during practice that won't disappear once we start?" I offered in a kind answer, a gentle shrug calming my fears as I decided to wait until the lesson was done to tell him.
"Well, if you insist. Now, to the center of the furs if you will." He returned, a look to his eyes that I did not recognize that well. They were proud, yet they were gentle and caring, though you could almost see his thoughts racing behind those misty blue eyes of his. But I followed his instructions and walked over to the furs, relishing in the warmth under my feet. I let my gaze linger on him as I awaited further instructions. He removed his coat and undid the buttons on his jerkin, allowing it to flow freely around him.
"Now, I want you to came at me as if you were attacking me." He ordered, facing me.
"What?" Came my not to smart reply as I took in his words. He smiled and then he charged me, hands raised to grab me, and I barely ducked out of his grasp with a duck to the left. I spun to find him charging me again, only this time I bent my right knee and shoved forward, lowering my head to ram my shoulder into his chest as I avoided his hands.
He stumbled backwards with a cough and gave me a startled yet proud smile, reaching his eyes and alleviating my pain slightly as I took pride and joy in that look. He nodded before he came at me again, I was ready for the same attack again only this time he was faster and I wasn't able to get my weight behind me again, so he was able to catch me mid-lunge.
I felt my cheeks flush as I felt his strong arms around my shoulders and back, holding me close to his chest, but I still struggled despite my body begging me to do differently. I then took my fingers and shoved them in between his ribs on the inside of his jerkin. He cried out in pain and let me go, looking hurt towards me as I gave him a proud smile. That quickly faded as I saw the deeper hurt in his eyes, and I took a step towards him again, a soft apology passing my lips as I hugged him.
"Please forgive me." I pleaded in a whisper into his chest.
"Yes, of course." He told me, returning my hug firmly and pulled me into his chest slightly more than friendly.
"There's something I've been meaning to tell you." I heard him mutter into my hair, gently pushing my shoulders back so that I would look him in the eyes.
"I have also needed to say something to you." I rushed, meeting his gaze as I felt my fear creep into my heart and quickly into my eyes.
My mentor gently placed his hand on my left cheek, softly rubbing his thumb across it, the callous of the appendage comforting in its' rough manner. I gazed into his eyes, finally understanding the emotion I saw in his eyes earlier as they now matched my own. I didn't register that either of us had moved, I only reacted as my eyes fluttered shut as our lips touched.
I registered the gentleness of his kiss as he was worried of my reaction, and I could feel the slight chap in them as I melded mine to his, my heart racing and soaring high into the skies. I moved my arms around his neck and deepened the kiss as I stood on the balls of my feet so he wasn't leaning so much. He tightened his grasp around my waist and held my body to his that caused my cheeks to flush ever deeper. There was only one thing for me to say when we had parted for air.
"Fili, I have enough feelings for you to dare say that I love you." I whispered, barely above a breaths breath, my heart pounding even harder out of fear of rejection.
"I have just as strong enough feelings for you to say the same. I had planned after this evening to ask your brother for your hand, you are one of the rarest kinds of person's I have met on my travels." He answered louder, almost at his normal speaking voice, and gazed longingly into my eyes.
I didn't say anything back as I stood tall once more to capture his lips with my own, a warmth growing in the lower part of my stomach as he returned the kiss with an even greater intensity. I dared to entangle my fingers in his long hair as his braided side beards and mustache tickled the smooth skin of my face. I didn't try to hide the smile on my face as I allowed myself to feel the joy that we were sharing in this moment.
That's when I lost my balance and I fell into him, breaking the kiss as he was caught off guard and we fell to the furs. I giggled softly once more as he also allowed soft laughter to pass his own lips. I looked into his eyes once more and our lips were met again, Fili rolling on top of me to press his body to mine. I felt that warmth in my stomach grow as we shared deeper, longer kisses and I once again dared to explore him.
I trailed my hands underneath his shoulders to his chest where I untied his shirt, the warm canvas holding in the heat that he was radiating. I felt him shiver under my fingers as he adventures his kisses down from my lips to my jawline, the skin where his lips left was cool and tingling. I then allowed my mind to just focus on him and forget my brother, forget our races and titles, and just enjoy this friendship that we created into something more. I completely untied his shirt and reached for his hem, the backs of my hands running along my stomach until he lifted his toned stomach from my not so toned one.
With a parting of his lips from my skin he allowed me to raise his shirt up to his chest, then helping me with removing it entirely. His hands then started to roam my body, starting at just the sides but then running his calloused fingers up across my skin under my shirt. A soft gasp escaped my lips as I closed my eyes at his touch and I noticed the hesitant in his hands from the sound. I opened my eyes and I smiled brightly at him in an assuring manner, gently grabbing the back of his neck and lowering his head halfway down to meet mine in a gentle but now needy kiss.
I wanted him. I know that Bilbo will kill me when he finds out and that I will never be wedded at the shire. But I had no intention to ever go back there, to the tea times and regularity of it all, with it's strict rules and requirements of normality. Not when I could stay here, with Fili and live freely and happily, even if I am judged for not being of Durin, and having no facial hair. I simply wanted him and I wanted him now, and forever.
I felt his renewed confidence in his kiss that he returned and his hands continued to travel upwards, until he found my breasts that I had hidden for the good portion of this trip. I felt his soft moan as much as I heard it, and in turn I lifted my chest higher for him as my hips begged to feel his. Fili's hands then traveled once more, his right going under to my back and his left, traveling down to my trousers where he started to untie them. Then he stopped, and he broke our kiss to show me his worry and need for assurance that he was doing the right thing.
"Are you sure that you want me? The same way that I want you?" He asked softly.
"Yes, Fili. I trust you, I know that you won't hurt me." I answered confidently with a smile. He then smiled lovingly at me and proceeded with untying my trousers as I risked a bold move of kissing his neck, softly as first near the base of his throat, then moving upwards, and nipping ever so softly. I had just nibbled on his earlobe when he had finished with my trousers and suddenly stopped moving before pinning me down rather aggressively and kissing me just as passionately.
Fili moved his lips down my throat, an almost animalistic growl was heard near my ear and I felt my legs wrap around his waist out of reflex. He then grinded his hips against mine and I felt my skin set ablaze from the friction his motion was creating.
"Fili," I moaned softly as I dug my nails into his back out of reaction and need. Fili simply continued to kiss down my tender skin, biting on my collar bone hard enough to mark it, but not break the skin. His hips grinding harder as I continued to pant his name until neither of us could bare it any longer.
He pulled away from the burning skin on my chest and slowly started to kiss the exposed skin around my shirt's hem where it was bunched. His calloused fingertips rough on the tender skin of my hips as he hooked them in the waistline of my trousers. Then he slowly moved my trousers down and away from my hips. For once I was actually thankful for my weird habit of clean shaving that region and having had the opportunity to...freshen up, in Laketown.
Fili seemed quite shocked by this discovery but then kissed the slightly stubbled skin and proceeded with fully removing my clothing as I discarded my shirt and he helped himself with his own trousers. I marveled at his size and wondered if he would fit within me, and he caught me staring and smirked proudly. "Bigger than you were expecting?" He asked playfully winking at me.
I blushed deeply at having been caught but then smiled and returned with; "You might be too big to fit." This caused him to laugh and I smiled wider as he returned to me.
"Then we will just have to go slowly so that I don't hurt you." He whispered endearingly, his voice hinting with genuine concern underneath the joking and I simply met his gaze.
"I'm sure you will be plenty for me, besides, I can handle a little rough handling." I winked back at him as he knelt down in front of me and crawled his way over my body.
"Oh, that, I am well aware of." Fili smiled as he lowered his body to mine, his bare skin igniting mine on contact as he caught my lips with his just in time. I moaned as softly as I could manage but my mind was growing fuzzy again as my need for him returned with a vengeance. I opened my legs for him and with how tall he stood, he didn't need my help or his to guide his manhood to my entrance.
With one more reassurance from me and an exchange of "I love you's" he slowly inserted himself and the pain and pressure caught me off guard. I gasped from it and he gently kissed me, an apology whispered against my lips as he stayed still and allowed me to adjust to his size. I nodded a few seconds later and waited for him to go further and the pain expanded with my walls but at the same time, the pain was pleasing, and it made me crave him more.
"Fili…" I begged breathlessly, the want and the need echoing across the spacious room and pushing him to go further inside, and then to slowly pull out. Then before he could fully remove himself he was pushing back inside, and pulling back out, keeping a steady rhythmic pace. I could feel my body warm up near the lower part of my stomach again and I kept my moans of pleasure soft so as not to draw attention to ourselves, hopefully.
Then Fili started to pick up his pace and even went as far as to pick my chest up towards him and then lift me up entirely to place me just on the edge of the nearby table, never letting me go as he continued to fill me with himself. I was shocked by the cold metal under my hot skin and it caused me to tighten out of reflex and that earned me a moan that Fili gave out of shock and ecstasy. My legs tightened around his waist, pulling him in deeper as that warm in my lower region grew to an insane pressure that was readily growing with every thrust.
Fili moaned my name softly as he kissed my neck, causing me to lean my head back to give him more of my skin, and he continued to roughly kiss me leading down to my now perky breasts. One hand moved from my shoulders that he had been working in tandem with mine on his, to one of my breasts while he roughly bit and sucked on the skin around my nipple on the other breast.
I gave a gasp of shock from the roughness, but it only drove me to winding my left hand in his long hair and pulling gently on it as my hips started to grind against his in time with his thrusts. That was enough to cause Fili to leave my breasts forgotten as his lips found mine once more and he moved us back down to the furs without ever having to pull from me to move.
I was losing my mind from the pressure in my lower section and I could feel it reaching it's limit.
"Aoede, I can't hold back much longer." Fili panted as he picked up his speed.
"Neither can I." I confessed as my voice raised an octave as my head swam with feeling in him in me, controlling me, and becoming one with me even if for just this moment. Fili suddenly stopped in his speed and was twitching and jerking slightly right as I felt the release of the pressure within me and the tightness of my own body.
My head was light as Fili, panting almost in time with me, rested his forehead on mine. I wanted nothing more than to lay there in his arms, wrapped up in these furs. Lay there we did, even well beyond catching our breaths, we allowed our hearts to sync with one another and revel in the company of each other.
"I don't know what will happen, when my uncle finds out, or your brother. I'm sure of whom I fear more." Fili told me softly as he played with my dark coloured hair.
"I do." I answered him, tilting my gaze to meet his eyes.
"Oh, and what will happen then?" He asked, a playful tone to his voice.
"I will continue to love you, and admire you no matter what anyone says, you are and will always be, my first love. I will stand by your side in battle on the field or in the court, for when you need me, I will be there." I promised, a sincerity to my voice that no one would ever be able to deny, not even the Orcs who hate us so.
I watched with love in my eyes as Fili searched mine for whatever it was he was looking for, and when he found it, he kissed me deeply and lovingly.
"You are the greatest queen I could ever ask to stand by my side." Fili sweetly murmured against my lips.
We spent the rest of that night in one another's company until the first hammer fell and we were forced to dress and I was to sneak away first.