Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto or anything associated with it. The only thing I own is this plot line.
August 16th
I am a liar. I lie to myself daily. I lie to others daily. I lie to the world. Sometimes I wish someone would be attentive enough to recognize it.
Kakashi probably knows. He can see straight through me. Heh, even without the sharingan. But for some strange reason, he asks no questions, which surprises me. Kakashi always asks questions. It's who he is. Maybe they're more internal. He studies me a lot. As if he's waiting for my next move. Or more likely, waiting for me to finally go insane.
Sai doesn't know, I'm fairly confident of that. The poor boy barely grasps what the word 'happy' truly means. But he also studies as if waiting on my final move, too.
Naruto definitely doesn't know. In fact, he's the one I've lying to the most (and is the easiest to lie to). But he looks at me with sadness in his gaze.
At the moment, my two biggest lies are 1) I love Sasuke and 2) I do not love Sasuke. Strange huh? No, no, it gets better. The latter gets more true every day. Sometimes, I find myself despising him for what he did to us. We were once the people closest to him and he stabbed us in the back. But on the other hand, I know I'll always care for him. I'll never stop looking out for him, as a friend.
At this point, I can't even not care for Sai, bastard that he is. He's almost worse than Sasuke himself in the teme department. Lose a teme, gain a teme. It's like that old saying 'when god closes a door, he opens a window'.