Let Me Go and Don't try to Fix Me
"Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken, Hello, I am the lie living for you so you can hide"
Chapter One: Where Will You Go?
"But where will you go
With no one left to save you from yourself?"
On Air Temple Island:
When Korra awoke, the sunlight of the new day was blinding. Her head pounded, and she ached all over. She rubbed her eyes to somehow add clarity to her fuzzy vision. She noticed she was naked and then, in the wrong room and in the wrong bed. Then it dawned on her. This was Mako's room she was in Mako's bed, he was naked and sleeping right next to her, Korra nearly jumped off the bed. "I just slept with Mako while drunk! ... Stupid, Stupid, Stupid! Ugh, What was I thinking? Why did this happen" She thought. The events of the previous were hazy, and blurred together, she could barely recall anything and, if it was like that for her, "Mako wouldn't remember anything either!" She realized. She pulled on her clothes off of the floor of the room (that she had let Mako stay in on Air Temple Island) and thought about the recent events. They (Korra, Asami, Mako, and Bolin) had just defeated Amon and to celebrate, they (Bolin suggested) went to a bar called Lithium. After several rounds of "what was it, Cacty Drink-y Stuff? No,... Oh it was Cactus Juice." They were all well in other words, plain wasted, Korra didn't even know how they made it back to the Air Temple. ("Thank spirits for that miracle.")She remember Bolin and Asami passing out on the cherry wood of the main hall and her and Mako dragging them to their rooms, placing them in their bed; giggling like idiots the whole time.
Tenzin and his airbending family were at the Hospital because Pema had gone into labor the night after Amon's defeat, one day ago. Korra wished Tenzin was there at the Air Temple Island the night before, and maybe she wouldn't be in this awkward situation. But being the Avatar, she had to deal with her problems and solve them on her own. So Korra had to come up with a solution. Mako shifted beside her, Korra tried to think, but the bright white sunlight and her blistering headache made her head feel as if a nail was being drilled though her right temple.
She only knew one thing: Mako could NEVER know of this night. She would not put herself between him and Asami. She would never do that because of Mako had to chose between Her and Asami, she knew he would pick Asami. Asami would never fight over childish things as she did, Asami was the right one for Mako, Korra learned that long ago. Korra loved Mako, but if he was happy with another, who was she but to let him be happy? She got up out of Mako's bed and scoured the room for his garments, which laid discarded on the wooden floor. She picked them up and began to dress the unconscious firebender in his clothes. She put his worn, threadbare, dusk red scarf on a ebony wood nightstand. After-wards, she was making her way tip-toeing to her room, when her head pain increased and bile started to creep up her throat. She hurried over to the bathroom and just barely made it. After retching up her stomach's contents, she wiped her mouth and swished water through it to rid her mouth of the awful taste. "I swear to the spirits that I will never drink again." Korra thought bitterly. Korra walked slowly to her room , her eyes half closed. She made it there and collapsed on her bad, fast asleep.
His hands left a trail of burning flesh on her skin, his lips were pressed to her's. They both keep trying to get closer to the other. All their clothes were removed, save for their under-bindings. He slowly removed her breast bindings with his pale hands that stood out brightly against her dark copper skin. Their bare chests rubbed together as he flipped them both over. Him atop her. She let out a moan,as he parted her legs, rubbing their groins together. Her eyes opened to reveal a pair of startling cerulean eyes– Mako's eyes flew open, he rubbed his eyes. His head pounded and he was very confused. "What was with that dream?" he wondered. The events of the previous night was a giant blur of colors. Sighing, Mako rubbed the bridge of his nose. -Did I just dream of Korra?- he asked himself. He couldn't, that was wrong on so many levels. "I have a freakn' girlfriend! This should not be happening" Asami was the perfect girl for him, she didn't fight of petty things and wasn't demanding. Her own mother was killed by a fire bender, and yet she loved him and he was a firebender. But then why was Mako doubting his care and love for her? Was this all some lie that hid his true feelings? "No. What am I thinking this, I have a beautiful girlfriend, an nice place (Thank spirits for Tenzin letting them stay at Air Temple Island) What more could I want?" A small voice in his head reasoned against, but it was soon crushed. Mako swiftly deiced that he would ignore Korra and then the problem would be resolved.
Korra felt as if she only slept five minutes when she woke up. Her headache had subsided a bit and Korra was glad for that. She stood up and stretched, she twisted and turned. On top of her dresser, she saw a small slip of paper. It read:
Come visit us at the Hospital at noon. Pema gave birth to a boy, we named him Rohan.
From: Concilman: Tenzin
The Avatar looked at the copper and glass clock, it read 10:05, they had an less than hour to eat and the ferryboat took 45 minutes to the City. So, she reasoned, they were doing well with time. She waterbended some water over herself to rid herself to clean her body, then she slipped on her usual watertribe attire. She opened the door and made her way to the Dinning Room. To her surprise, she found Mako, Bolin and Asami all ready there.
"Hey guys" Korra spoke, her voice unsteady.
"Hey Korra" Bolin and Asami replied. Mako ignored her aloof to the situation, and Korra assumed that his head must be causing him a great deal of pain.
"Ugh, hangovers, am I right?" Korra stated, trying to lighten the mood.
Mako only grunted in response. Korra took the empty seat next to Bolin and whispered
"Looks like someone mastered jerkbending."
Bolin snickered, and then said,
"I think that he mastered it a long time ago."
"Oh no kidding! Really?" Korra said, sarcasm evident in her voice.
"Stop picking on Mako." Asami said with mock-threat, pointing her finger at the earthbender and the Avatar. It was silent for a minute and then they all burst into fits of laughter.
…
On the Ferryboat:
After finishing breakfast, and Korra announcing that they must go to the Hospital to see Pema and her newborn. On the Ferry, Korra approached Mako (who was standing starboard side of the ship, his arms gripping the metal raining tightly.) hesitantly, and asked,
"Hey are you okay? You seemed very distant earlier."
` "I'm fine, so Leave. Me. Alone." Mako replied coldly, his voice dripping with venom.
"You sure?" Korra went on, stunned by Mako coldness toward her.
"Yes," was his simple reply, but then he elaborated, "and if I wasn't, I wouldn't be talking to you about it," he harshly spoke to her, acting aloof to the situation.
"Oh..., Okay... um, I should... go ...errm, I have to go to the bathroom..." Korra stuttered, surprised and hurt at Mako's cruel words. She walked away to the rail of the port, somehow comforted by looking at the clear water splashing up against the ship.
Mako saw the hurt and shock in Korra's cerulean eyes before she walked away. Mako felt as if her should have said sorry or done something different. He didn't want to hurt Asami by liking Korra, so he had to make Korra hate him, so he would stop having feelings for her. "But at what price?"
…
At the Hospital:
They all stood in the small, crowded room. Pema lay in bed holding Rohan, who was wrapped tightly in a blanket. Jinora, Ikki, Meelo, and their father, Tenzin stood around the bed and then moved to one side to let 'Team Avatar' have room.
"Would you like to hold Rohan, Korra?" Pema said, her voice was tired and exhausted, yet she sounded very joyful.
"Who, me? No really, I'm not good with—" Korra protested, but with no avail. Pema passed the child to Tenzin who placed the babe in Korra's arms.
"Just move your arms, yes, put one hand under the head. Yes, like that. You see, there's not much to it" Pema instructed to Korra.
As Korra held Rohan, she could not help but smile at the now sleeping baby. A little patch of black hair crowned his head. Her smile grew as she looked at the child more. A small, pale little button nose. A tiny little chin and a set of long, black lashes made the little boy adorable. Korra felt at peace truly, the first real time after Amon's defeat. (Any remaining Equalists could attack.) Korra held the child closer. And then a feeling of dark foreshadowing came over Korra. An ominous premonition swept up inside her. But Korra brushed it off, for what could happen, what could go wrong when Korra held this bundle of joy in her arms? Everything, absolutely everything.
So, there it is!
I hope that you guys like it!
Chapter Two will be up by next Sunday!
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