Have you ever been so hurt that you would just rather go to sleep and never wake up again? Like it's this aching feeling in your chest that won't ever go away until the person who causes it is the only one who can fix it. I have never in my life felt this betrayed. As much as I'm hurting I feel more stupid and let down then anything. He gave me his word! He never breaks his promises but I guess there is always a first time for everything, right?

I always thought I was good enough for him. He always told me "Babe you're the one that will ever hold my heart. I'll always love you. As long as you have my back I'll have yours." And it just hurts more that he just lied to me. I know he's not perfect but I love him just as he is. And I never wanted a perfect relationship.

I love him with all my heart. He's my other half. I live for those moments when we are together. Even the little ones like waking up to him every morning, hearing him mumble in his sleep about stupid stuff, or the way he clings to me when we sleep at night.

I always here those stories of men cheating on their girls and I was always relieved in knowing that would never happen to me. I was so grateful I had a faithful boyfriend. I would thank God everyday for sending me the love of my life.

I love Troy with all my heart. I want to marry him, have his babies, and grow old with him. I was his Brie and he was my TB. People would always say we were the perfect couple.

Well we did meet in college. We both graduated at DukeUniversity. I was that petite, smart, and country girl from Virginia that had big dreams of being a big shot lawyer. He was the superstar basketball player that could have anyone he wanted. But he wasn't a player or a big party person like you would expect. He barely drinks alcohol and that's only on special occasions and he has never done drugs nor did he have the desire to. He's a momma's boy from New Mexico that went to church whenever he could. We met because he needed someone to tutor him in literature. Me being the Einstein that I am I offered tutoring session to students in English courses.

I'll never forget the first time we met. He was so nice and humble. I mean seriously, how many guys could you name that was like that especially an athlete? He was hard worker and he would always give me a compliment. We would have three tutoring sessions a week and some days I would bring him my famous brownies. He called them the devil because he would have to be in the gym working them off the next day for eating the whole pan in less than thirty minutes. I would always get a thrill of watching him eat my brownies. He would moan loudly every time he ate one with a big ole smile on his face. I didn't know if I wanted to jump his bones or pinch his cheeks.

I miss those days when we didn't have to deal with the groupies, the money, jealousy, or temptation. I remember the times when troy would never ever think about another woman. I was his world and he was mine.

Back then he always did the cutest things ever. He's such the romantic. If he had the time he would walk me to class holding my books for me, he would randomly send me roses, and would send me little love notes. He was cornball too but he was my corndog.

The day he was drafted into the NBA, I was there with my little sundress on and some killer heels to support my baby. I was so excited when they called out his name and he went to go get his jersey for the Miami Heat number fourteen. I was so proud of him for working so hard and staying focused on making it to the pros. I hadn't told him that I had just got my letter of acceptance to Harvard law school with a full ride scholarship in the mail this morning. It didn't really matter because I was going to attend the University Of Miami School Of Law in September. Yeah I know I was stupid but I loved that boy so much I would have followed him to Africa. Man was I dumb!

But I remember just looking up at that stage and seeing the most beautiful smile I have ever seen on his face and I just knew what I was doing was the best decision I'll ever make. Seeing him up there and then just thinking about all the things we've been through to make to where we are I just get amazed and teary-eyed.

It's always been my parents' dream for me to attend Harvard. They so don't know I'm going to a law school in Miami with Troy and they really don't know I have and acceptance letter to Harvard. I knew as soon as I got it that letter my parents were going to be disappointed in my decision. And when I did tell them my relationship with my parents was never the same after that day. We had a long conversation about how I was crazy to move in with a professional ballplayer. They kept telling me I was giving up a once in a life time opportunity for some boy. "It's not that we don't like the boy it's just you're not even thinking this through all the way. Ella, sweetie you're not being rational. No one in their right mind would give up an acceptance to Harvard WITH a full ride scholarship." After I told them it was my final decision they told me if something goes wrong with our relationship they were not gonna back me up. I'm still have good relationship with my parents they just feel that I made a stupid mistake and now that he cheated on me I'm starting to second guess myself.

When we moved out to Miami Troy told me he was gonna support me through everything. He was the one paying my tuition for law school, all the bills for the house, and everything. We got small townhouse with two bedrooms, one for us and one for my study room. I was so happy with us finally having our own space. We were this little happy couple now.

I loved our life living together. We'd both wake up at the same time. I would go downstairs and make breakfast for the both of us while he took a shower and got ready for practice. After he was done I would go get ready for class. Before we went our separate ways, we would have a ten minute make out session leaving us both longing for more but not having the time. Troy would always make it home before me, therefore him always cooking dinner. I loved coming home to him everyday. It's what I always wanted when I was little. I wanted to be this bad ass lawyer who had it all. I wanted a husband that adored me and beautiful little babies. It's what every girl wanted. I thought I was gonna get that with Troy but I guess I was wrong.

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