Author: Ashley
Title: We're Having a Baby
Rating: T (two chapters will be M)
Part: 1/7
Pairing: Mon-El and Kara Danvers (Zor-El)
Word Count (Part One): 1,970
Summary: "She ran her hand over her abdomen. Her flat abdomen. You'd never know. Nobody had noticed. Nobody had commented. Nobody had asked. Nobody could know the truth unless she had told them; unless she brought it up herself, but she couldn't. She was freaking out. She was terrified. She was pregnant." - Kara is pregnant, and not on purpose. A set of chapters that follow Kara and Mon-El BEFORE the baby is born.
Disclaimer: I don't own Supergirl, DC Comics or anything related to such things. The ideas, dialogue and plot points here were inspired by the show, but they are my own. Plagiarism isn't nice. Please don't steal my ideas.
A/N: Hi everyone! It's been a while!
What's coming up is another multi-chap fic that I've been working with on and off for a while. I know a few of you were asking about me writing a baby fic. This is sorta that?
It's not your traditional "baby fic"...at least it's not what I would think of when I think baby fic. It's more about the journey up to the baby's arrival. Don't worry, no angst this time (?). Maybe in the first couple of chapters, but otherwise its fluff, fluff, fluff and a pregnant Kara. Obviously, I know nothing about pregnant Kryptonians, Daxamites, or alien reproduction whatsoever. If you don't believe Kara can get pregnant, I don't wanna hear about it LOL. Just go with me and the things I made up along the way.
This is sort of AU/Canon Divergent I guess, being that I'm ignoring everything related to Mon-El's parents arriving. Really I'm ignoring the entire existence of his parents as they're not even mentioned in this fic. Basically all that's important is that Kara and Mon-El are together and he's been on Earth just under a couple years.
This one is completed with 7 chapters, but I may write another set of chapters picking up where chapter 7 ends. I'm busy working on my new Red KaraMel fic, so I didn't want this one to sit around too long while I decided on possible further chapters. I love you guys too much to leave you hanging around with no fic for too long.
Also sorry to disappoint (some of you), but I'm rating this Mature basically for 1 or 2 chapters. The rest is Teen rated. But I lose track of my swearing and mature themes, so I rated it Mature just to be safe. Don't wanna corrupt any of you kiddies out there (those of whom I haven't already corrupted that is...).
Anyways, enough of my super TOO long author notes and on to the fic!
***I'm dedicating this chapter to Maddy (itsametrash on Twitter) because it's her birthday today (HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADDY!) and I knew you'd appreciate the subconscious angst that is this first chapter of this fluff fic.
Chapter One: Eight Weeks
It was nearly 2:00am.
She couldn't sleep. She couldn't concentrate on anything really. She just sat there on the sofa in her apartment, cross-legged and staring off into the distance. Sitting in silence as she waited. Waited for Mon-El to finish his late night shift at the bar and come home to her.
The lights were dimmed; the only light really being that of the stars and the nearly full moon up in the sky that was shining through her windows.
She ran her hand over her abdomen. Her flat abdomen. You'd never know. Nobody had noticed. Nobody had commented. Nobody had asked. Nobody could know the truth unless she had told them; unless she brought it up herself, but she couldn't.
She was freaking out.
She was terrified.
She was pregnant.
She was twelve when she'd had her first period. It was barely there and it had scared her the second she'd noticed. She'd run to her mother and fallen into her arms. She had explained to Kara what was happening to her; what it all meant; how babies were created and formed and carried. All things she had already known, but had given very little, if any, thought to up until that exact moment.
Then she was sent to Earth and she had become an alien, and even with all the added benefits of the yellow sun, her body still largely functioned as that of a human. She continued to have her period. She still went through puberty. She still had all the working parts of the female anatomy, but a baby? Up until now, she didn't even know if she was able to have a baby on this planet; to conceive, to carry, to give birth. At least not with the help of anyone here on Earth.
Then again, Mon-El…he wasn't just anyone.
They'd never talked about having a baby.
It had never come up. Not once in their relationship. Never. They hadn't really been together long enough for it to become a real topic of discussion.
She had been feeling…off. Just weird. She had missed her period and that had never happened before. Not on Krypton; not on Earth. She hadn't even noticed for a few days and then she wondered if she was actually late. She'd checked her calendar and quickly grew concerned.
She had gone straight to Alex when she'd realized that she couldn't deny it anymore.
"What do you mean you're late?" Alex eyed her curiously.
"My period, Alex," she whispered as they sat in the DEO med bay: Kara on the edge of a bed with her feet dangling down, Alex seated on a stool next to her. "I'm late."
"Well, what's late? I mean, a few days isn't that b-"
"Seven weeks," she stated, her eyes tightly clenched shut.
"Seven weeks!?"
"Shhh, Alex, please," her eyes fluttered open and she looked at her sister. Tears were starting to cloud her vision and Alex's face fell as soon as she noticed.
Her hands reached out and landed on her sister's shoulders. "Why didn't you say anything? Seven weeks? That's a long time, Kara."
Kara shrugged as she shook her head. "I just…I wasn't sure. Then I was in denial. Then…I mean, I just feel different. Something is…different."
"Okay," Alex sighed. "Well, we'll have to do a test. We'll probably have to test your blood or something to find out, right?"
She nodded, "We could just…I know J'onn said he got rid of all the Kryptonite…but I know he's got some hidden here for emergencies. If you just get it in the same room as me, we could use a regular needle and just-"
"Kara, if you're actually pregnant, couldn't that hurt the baby?" she asked softly.
"Maybe, but if I drain my powers so you could take my blood, they could be out for a few days. Weeks even. Who knows? I think that's potentially more dangerous and more suspicious. Alex, I don't want people to know…"
"Kara, if you're pregnant…people will have to know. You're going to have to change your whole lifestyle. Forever. And you can't be running around being Supergirl if you're pregnant. That's way too dangerous."
"Can we please just find out for real before we start making decisions for me…"
"So, what does Mon-El think about this? What does he want to do?"
Kara shrugged at her sister.
"You don't know? He didn't tell you?" She paused as she waited for a response. When she didn't get one, "You have mentioned it, right?" Alex asked, her head dipping low as she tried to catch Kara's eyes. She just stared at her hands in her lap. "Kara! You have to tell him!"
"I will. If I'm pregnant, I will."
"Kara, even if you're not, you need to tell him. Or this could happen all over again a few months from now if you're not careful. You guys use protection, right?"
"I mean, yeah." Alex eyed her suspiciously. "We use condoms…I think every time," her eyes were floating around the room, looking anywhere but at her sister.
"So, you don't really use protection then."
"Alex, they're human made condoms. Who knows if that even works for us? I didn't think I could even get pregnant on Earth."
"Mon-El isn't from Earth, Kara…"
"Yes, Alex, I realize all this stuff now, okay?" Her voice was shaky. "Can we just do the tests please?"
"Okay, okay, but first we're going to do a regular pregnancy test…before we do any of this crazy Kryptonite blood taking you're talking about…"
She had waited on Alex's sofa; waited for her to come back with the test from the drugstore. She went alone into the bathroom to take it, not coming out even after the timer on her phone buzzed loudly. She found herself sitting on the ceramic floor tiles, staring through tear filled eyes at the little smiley face looking up at her from the screen on the stick, wishing Alex would have bought the stupid test with the little lines instead. She had felt her sister sit down on the floor behind her, her arms wrapping around her middle as she whispered in her ear that everything would be okay.
"We'll do the Kryptonite blood thing tomorrow to be sure, but Kara…this is real now. You need to talk to Mon-El."
"He doesn't want a baby, Alex."
Her eyes widened. "He said that?"
"He never said he wanted one."
She sighed, "Did you ever ask him about it?" Kara shook her head. "Then you don't know what he wants."
"Alex, sometimes…sometimes he's like a child himself. He's been here less than two years. He's still learning about Earth. How is he going to raise a child here?"
"Kara, you're way overreacting right now. Let's test your blood. Then when we know one hundred percent, you tell him and have a real discussion with him about this. This is going to happen and whatever he says, whatever he wants, I don't care. I'm here for you."
"What am I going to say?"
"That's up to you, Kara. But he needs to know. You can't lie about this. You can't keep this secret anymore."
That was nearly a week ago and she still hadn't said anything. Her hand continued to stroke across her barely there belly as she debated what she was going to tell him when he arrived home.
She had been feeling things she hadn't felt much before (if at all): tiredness, soreness, pain. Not excruciating pain, which was what she was used to. She really had to be in pain to actually feel pain. But this pain was strange. Maybe discomfort was a better word? She just didn't feel like herself anymore. She didn't like feeling this way. She swiped at a tear that rolled down her cheek.
And she couldn't stop crying.
She had always heard that mood swings were a part of pregnancy, but all this time growing up on Earth, she'd never expected herself to be pregnant, so she hadn't really worried about it. Sitting here in the dark at two in the morning probably wasn't helping her mood, but she was just so anxious about her secret, so worried about what Mon-El would say and just so uncomfortable. So she continued to sit in silence, her mind spinning as she stared off at nothing in particular.
It was nearly 2:30am before she heard his key sliding slowly into the lock. His gestures were quiet and subtle, obviously trying not to wake her up upon his entrance to their apartment at such a late hour. He opened the door smoothly, the keys on his keyring barely jingling as he took them into his palm and closed the door behind him. She heard him inhale sharply; she assumed that she had surprised him.
"I thought you'd be asleep by now," he said and she could practically hear him smiling at her. "You've been waiting up for me?" he asked as she heard him move toward her.
She nodded slightly, so slight that she wasn't sure if it even counted as a nod.
He plopped onto the sofa next to her, one arm sliding around her shoulders, the hand of his other sliding across her belly and she almost flinched; afraid that he'd notice, afraid that he'd figure it out. He kissed her cheek softly before trailing his lips down to her neck.
"Mmm, I know it's late," he whispered against her skin, his hand moving down her stomach, fingers sliding along the edge of her sweatpants. "But maybe…" he trailed off, his lips falling down to the skin of her shoulder peeking out from her t-shirt.
"Can we just go to bed?" she asked suddenly, her voice cracking slightly as her eyes looked in his direction, but her head stayed still and facing forward. "To sleep, I mean," she clarified.
He furrowed his eyebrows, his gaze moving up to her face quickly at the sound of her voice. He nodded, "Yeah. Yeah, we can go to bed. No problem."
She exhaled heavily as she abruptly moved to stand. Chickened out again.
He got up and followed closely behind her. She looked maybe…dizzy? "Kara, are you okay?" he asked concerned, his hands falling to her hips as she walked in front of him.
"I'm fine. I'm just tired," she said, her voice nearly at a whisper.
"Tired? Are you…are you sick? Did something happen?" he asked as he stepped around her, getting in front of her and stopping her from moving any further away. "What's going on?"
"I just need to sleep," she whispered. She just needed her brain to shut down for a little while. She was feeling so overwhelmed.
His hand came up and pushed some of her hair behind her ear. He thought he saw tears in her eyes, but they might have just been glassy with tiredness. He kissed her forehead before pulling her into his chest in a tight hug. She sighed against his shirt and he heard her sniffle before pulling away. She quickly turned her back to him as she started to change into her pajamas, so he did as well. When she crawled into bed, he followed suit. Her back was to him and he pulled her against him, close enough that she could feel him exhaling against the back of her neck, but far away enough that his hand could sneak between them, the backs of his fingers stroking against her spine. His left arm wrapped around her, his hand splaying across her abdomen, her own hand resting on top of his.
"I love you," he whispered in the darkness.
She nodded slightly, "Me too."
She'd tell him tomorrow.
She just needed a little more time.
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