George's Song

If you would've told me before this happened, I probably would've kicked your arse right there. Now here I sit alone. I don't even know what day it is. I've lost track of them, time as well. I wouldn't be surprised if I lost track of my mind too. Maybe I already have. Maybe if you did tell me I wouldn't be alone. Maybe I could've saved you...

I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest who'd have known?
I trace the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone

After all this I thought that I would have him by my side like always. Sometimes when I sleep, at least I think I'm sleeping, I forget you're gone because you are there with me, Freddie. Laughing with me, talking to me, right by my side like always. I can't even look in mirror. I hope you're not disappointed in me.

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

My dreams are the only time I think of you, any other time is just too much. I get this ache in my throat, I'm numb everywhere else. I can't tell if I want to laugh or cry or both. Laugh because this just can't be real or cry because I know it is. I don't think I've really left our room for days or weeks, I'm not too sure. For awhile they would come and sit with me try and get me to eat or drink, anything but I barely noticed. I hardly notice much anymore.

I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault

I think Ginny came in here this morning or was it yesterday, I'm really not sure. She said something to me but all I heard was your name over and over again. I couldn't take it. I broke and screamed for her to leave. Maybe after this she'll forgive me, maybe not. I don't think I care anymore.

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

I can't see anything, it's always so dark. I used to hate you for leaving me but now I hate myself for not trying to join you sooner. The first real thought that makes sense. These dreams turned into nightmares. You're not laughing with anymore. I can't tell them apart from reality, I can hardly tell if my eyes are opened or closed. You're driving me crazy and you're not even here. This isn't right. I wish I hadn't survived either. I wish I was never born. I wish I was with you. I just want to laugh with you, Fred.

I never conquered, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I've survived
I can't wait till I get home
To pass the time in my room alone