I know I know Steffie Dawn has yet another new story, I tried to resist writing it but the idea just kept going round and around in my head driving me absolutely barmy so here it is guys my latest E/O story.

DISCLAIMER: I don't own SVU/L&O or any of its storylines or characters, I do however own this plot, and its original characters.

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Olivia arrived at the 16th precinct earlier than usual. She hadn't had the best night's sleep and had gotten bored of sitting around her apartment moping. It just wasn't like her to do nothing so she'd decided to get washed and dressed and come into work.

Captain Don Cragen was working on some files by his desk, he preferred finishing early and coming in early preferring those three hours before his lead detectives arrived and the day began properly. He saw the lamp on Olivia's desk flick on and he couldn't help but go over to the window of his office and peer at his female detective through the blind. She hadn't been herself lately. Actually she hadn't been herself in weeks and he wasn't the only one to have noticed it but he didn't like getting involved in his staff's privet lives and after she'd snapped at him eight weeks ago when he'd asked he hadn't mentioned it since, he just could hope that whatever it was she'd be able to sort it out soon, he missed the real Olivia Benson.

She typed away steadily hoping that the nauseous feeling in the pit of her stomach would pass soon. She was tired and pissed and she couldn't really concentrate as she took another hearty sip of her coffee hoping it would give her the kick she needed to get on with her day. As she turned back to her computer the nauseated feeling she had turned into a giant wave and she knew she wouldn't make it to the ladies room so she ran over to the sink in the corner by the coffee pot and brought up her entire stomach contents.

Cragen heard the noise and rushed into the bullpen. At first he was stunned into complete silence seeing Olivia bent over the sink a combination of dry heaves and actual vomiting.

"Liv?" He managed to whisper eventually but she didn't hear him as she closed her eyes hoping for this to pass soon.

"Olivia!" He called louder.

"What?" She grumbled trying to stop the heave that eventually came through.

"What are you doing here? You're sick, go home."

"I'm fine Cap, just hold on." She whispered back as she rinsed the sink, the nausea had finally passed and she knew she would just perk up in a few minutes, she'd been the same for the past ten days.

"Olivia, please? You're no good to me when you're sick." Cragen knew she was stubborn but the truth was that he couldn't have her going out in to the field with a stomach bug or whatever it was causing her to be bent in half over the sink.

"Cap, honestly, I'm fine, it's passed now." She explained as she filled her rinsed coffee mug with water and sipped at it slowly.

"Liv, talk to me? Please?" Cragen suggested as she went back to her desk.

"What's there to talk about?" She shrugged not wanting to let on that anything was wrong or different with her.

"You've not been yourself in months Olivia, you and Elliot are fighting a lot more than you used to and these days you seemed to be starting more of them which is unlike you." Cragen explained taking the seat beside her desk and trying to get her to open up to him.

"I know." She whispered trying to blink back the tears that were verging on spilling down her face. "I'm sorry."

"Don't apologise to me Liv, just talk to me, tell me what's going on so I can help you." He replied, she was like a daughter to him, it hurt him to see her looking so hurt, she even looked vulnerable this morning, a word he had never used to describe Detective Olivia Benson.

"There's nothing to talk about." She replied trying desperately to hold back the tears threatening to fall.

"Ok, I trust you'll come to me if there is something to talk about?" Even though it sounded like a question it was more of a demand, he just didn't want to push Olivia.

"You know I will." She whispered taking his hand from his lap and giving it a little squeeze. "Oh my ..."

Olivia managed to make it to the sink just before she vomited again. Cragen sighed, he'd never seen Olivia sick before, she rarely took a day off and it was strange to see her like this, it genuinely made him uncomfortable.

"Olivia please take a personal day and get better." Cragen was almost begging.

"I'm fine, you may not want to listen ..." She had to stop to dry heave and take a deep breath. "you may not want to listen or believe me Cap but this will pass, I'll be fine after ..." Once again she had to stop and it annoyed her that she couldn't even get a simple statement out without her body tensing up and her throat choked. "I'll be fine after this time."

"How do you know that Olivia?" He asked thinking she was just being silly.

"Because this has been going on for days." She replied closing her eyes not wanting to see his reaction.

"Olivia you're taking a personal day and going to see a doctor." He replied firmly.

"I don't need to, please Captain, you said that you trusted me to come talk to you if there was something right?" She didn't look at him as she spoke once again clearing out the mess she'd made in the sink.

"I did."

"Then trust me that I wasn't lying to you when I said I would." She replied. "When I know everything for sure and when I am ready I'll come and talk to you." Olivia explained as she washed her hands and made a glass of water.

"Ok, I trust you Olivia." He replied before turning on his heels and heading to his office wondering what it was that was making Olivia be sick, and appear so vulnerable, it was obvious she knew or suspected at the least.

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After talking to Cragen Olivia had taken some time to herself to get some breakfast and call in to see a friend, she and Elliot had then spent the morning chasing a suspect and bring him into interrogation. They'd tag teamed the perp for three hours before he'd asked for a lawyer and Olivia and Elliot were both steaming with fury.

"You couldn't wait could you?" Elliot hissed marching past her and towards the bullpen.

"What?" Olivia yelled rushing after him. "I couldn't wait for what Elliot?"

"You just had to ask him directly if he'd done it after we'd agreed not to!" He replied the anger etched into his voice.

"Whatever you've got to say to me Elliot say it don't hold back!" She yelled.

"Fine! You're off your game Olivia! You have been for weeks whatever this is that's going on with you, you really need to get over it."

"Whatever's wrong with me? You're the one who's been a complete arrogant ass ever since ..."

"Benson! Stabler!" Cragen called coming out of his office visibly angry with his detectives who were fighting in a crowded squad room for the third time in two days.

"What?" Elliot yelled turning to face his captain.

"Stabler go and cool down, the cribs, the gym anywhere, Olivia Melinda called and told you to call her as soon as you could."

Elliot had marched off so he didn't see Olivia's face drop and turn a sickening shade of white, Cragen saw it though, she couldn't have hidden it from him if she'd tried.

"Use my office Olivia." He whispered and she managed to nod before rushing off in the direction of her superior's office.

Her hand shook as she picked up the office phone and dial the familiar number for the ME's office. She closed her eyes as she listened to the ringing phone and she failed to notice Don Cragen stood in the door way as her back was too him. He didn't like snooping, he was tempted to walk away and not listen in to what would probably be a very personal and privet conversation but he had seriously had enough of his two best detectives being at each other's throats and he knew Olivia wouldn't tell him what was really wrong with her so this was the only way he was going to find out, or he hoped he would.

Melinda answered the phone on the fourth ring and she knew straight away who it was.

"Hey Mel." Olivia's voice was a mere whisper with a violent tremor.

Hey Liv how are you?

"At my wits end, do you have the results?" She didn't want this to be a friendly chat.

I do, do you want to come down.

"No Mel just tell me what it says." Olivia was almost pleading, Don Cragen was surprised to hear that tone of voice from Olivia, she'd never sounded so desperate before. "Was it positive or is there something else seriously wrong with me?"

Cragen listened intently, his heart hammered in his chest and he was now quite sure he knew what Olivia was talking about with her friend who happened to be a doctor.

Liv it was positive, you're pregnant.

"Shit!" Olivia cupped her forehead in her free hand, she knew she was, she'd known for a while and she knew she wouldn't be able to hide it much longer from the people she worked with.

You want to tell me who the father is?

"No not yet Melinda, please don't ask me again." Olivia whispered the tears silently falling down her cheeks.

Just don't keep it from him too long Livia, you don't know how he'll react but he deserves to know.

"I know, I will tell him, soon just need to deal with this myself first Mel."

Don't take this the wrong way Liv but do you even know if you're a hundred percent certain who the father is?

"Yes. I am one hundred percent sure Mel, there is no way possible that it's anyone else's. Just don't tell anyone Mel, don't mention it in front of anyone please not till I've decided what I'm going to do ... shit this is such a mess!"

His heart hammered inside his chest even harder, if he wasn't sure he was right before, he was sure now, his detective was pregnant, Olivia Benson was pregnant yet she hadn't mentioned anything about dating anyone in while and she hadn't had any of the 'in love' symptoms he'd thought she'd have when she would finally fall in love, if anything, she'd been an insufferable hag to work with and now he knew why, she would be having a baby. He'd always expected this news to be a joyous occasion for Olivia, he knew she wanted to be a mother so hearing her being so unhappy about it made him wonder what on earth had Olivia done and why was she in such a mess as she had put it herself.

Olivia you know I would never betray your trust, you're one of my best friends, I'm here if you need me ok my love?

"I know, thanks Mel, for everything." Olivia replied trying not to burst out in sobs.

You're welcome Liv, just go see your OB soon ok? Love you Hon.

"Love you too Mel see you later, bye."

Olivia slammed the phone down and managed to clasp her hands to her face before breaking out into the wracked sobs she'd been so desperate to stop. Cragen couldn't stand it anymore and closed the office door making her jump and try and wipe her tears.

"Liv?" He whispered placing a comforting hand on her shoulder.

"I'm fine." She replied trying to dry her tears.

"Livia, I was ..."

"I know." She replied, he didn't really think she was dumb enough not to notice him eavesdropping on her conversation.

"Sit down." He sighed showing her to one of the empty chairs in front of the desk before going and taking his own opposite her.

"I'm sorry." She whispered as she wiped away the silent tears she just couldn't stop dripping down her cheeks.

"Don't apologise but you should start talking." He replied.

"What are you expecting me to say Cap'n?" She asked not in the mood to get into an argument with him but at the moment she couldn't tell him the truth, yet she couldn't bear to lie to him either.

"Who's the father Liv?"

"That doesn't concern you." Olivia snapped, she couldn't lie to him but she knew she would have to if he continued to ask.

"How far along are you?" He continued to question her almost as if he was interrogating her.

"I don't know exactly but my guess is fourteen weeks." She sighed and closed her eyes so she wouldn't see the look of disappointment in Cragen's eyes, he was like a father to her and she didn't want to see him look at her in that way.

"Jesus Livia? Fourteen weeks?"

"You'd be surprised what a good sweater can hide." She replied placing her hand on her tiny bump which as Cragen looked became suddenly obvious.

"Why did it take you this long to find out for certain?" He asked his voice changing a little.

"I knew for certain! I just didn't, I couldn't face it." She explained the anger returning. "I knew weeks ago Captain it was fairly obvious and when the morning sickness hit and the bump appeared I knew I had been right all along but I just wanted to make sure that I wasn't having some nightmare and imagining all the symptoms and that's why I asked Melinda to run the pregnancy test."

"Who's the father Olivia?"

"Jesus Christ! I thought you had a little more respect for me than that!" Olivia yelled getting to her feet and Cragen jumped to his. "I don't know why you think it's ok to interrogate me but here's a news flash for you Cap, I'm a cop not a perp, those tactics won't work on me!"

She turned on her heels and went to march for the door but as soon as her hand grasped the handle Cragen's voice stopped her in her tracks.

"Sit back down. Now!" He yelled shocking Olivia to freeze.

It took her a moment to see if he was serious and when she realised he was she made her way back to the seat she'd been occupying and sat down, suddenly feeling a ten year old who'd been sent to the principal's office.

"Now, you're suspended, three days paid so I don't have to mark it in your jacket ..."

"What? Why? For not telling you I might have been pregnant?" Olivia gasped in complete and utter shock.

"No for that argument with Elliot." He replied.

Olivia's jaw clamped shut, she wanted to continue yelling, telling him that he was only suspending her to try and get her to tell him who the father of her unborn child was but it wasn't going to work, she wasn't going to give in to his threats.

"Then you're on desk duty until you return from Maternity."

"No way!" She yelled making Cragen's eyes widen in surprise. "NYPD Guidelines specifically state that a cop can stay on active field duty until 7 months and then one month behind a desk."

"Unless the detective in question's pregnancy is deemed high risk." Cragen replied clasping his hands on the desk.

"High risk? High fucking risk? Captain I'm probably fourteen weeks pregnant, I'm already out of the first trimester, and in the past fourteen weeks I've been shot at, punched, kicked and almost stabbed and you're deciding that my pregnancy is high risk." She stood up and leant on the desk her eyes showing how furious she was. "When did you gain a medical degree?"

"Don't you dare..."

"You know talk to me in three days, I'm suspended." And with that she walked out into the bustling bullpen leaving her superior in complete and utter shock at her behaviour, he'd never seen her like this and this Olivia Benson scared the living shit out of him.

"Liv?" Elliot asked seeing her grabbing her coat and draping it over her arm.

"Baby Girl where ya going?" Fin asked as she proceeded to grab some files.

"Ask him!" She spat nodding her head towards Cragen who'd emerged from his office and watched Olivia march away.

"Cap?" Elliot asked turning to his superior the shock written all over his face.

"Detective Benson is suspended." Cragen replied before turning to go back to his office only to be stopped by Elliot.

"What? Why?" He asked.

"For the little show the two of you created." Cragen replied shrugging.

"Wait you can't suspend her without suspending me too, that argument was as much my fault as it was hers." Elliot replied in surprise, it was normally his ass that got canned.

Cragen sighed, he hadn't thought of that when he decided to suspend Olivia and there was only one thing he could do to mend it.

"I know, I was about to ask you to step into my office." Cragen replied trying to hide how defeated he felt.

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So what do you think? I've kinda got the urge to carry this on right now so that's what I'm gonna do will upload as soon as it's done k because this is the story going through my mind right now, I will update the others as soon as an idea pops into my head about what to write for them!