Because of you Chapter 1: Prelude, a twilight fanfic

I am currently rewriting this story and I will be updating the next chapter by next week. I wrote this story when I was in junior high so the writing was lacking and I have no idea where I was going with this so the plot will be slightly different. Thank you for reading and of course I own nothing but the plot.

The day that would change my life was the day that I heard Because of You by Kelly Clarkson. That song gave me the strength to make the changed that I need and to allow myself to open up to the thought of loving someone else. Before that day I was unable to even think the name Edward let alone say it out loud. It took me two months to open my eyes and stop living like a zombie. During those two months I was lucky enough to have my best friend and partner in crime since we were little, Jacob, my Jake. He was there for me no matter what. He would hold me what I couldn't hold myself and he was patient with me even though most others wouldn't be. He feed my need for danger while still protecting me and I owed everything to him. Jake was my rock, my sun, and on that day I realized he was the love of my life.

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known
Better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life
Because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

I was listening to that song on my way to meet Jake after weeks of not talking and him dodging my calls. I think not having him hurt me more than losing the Cullens. I was hurt that after all that we had gone through together he would leave me. When he finally got back to me I jumped at the chance to see him and hug him and beat the crap out of him for treating me this way. When that song played on my drive to the red brick house I knew that I was going to tell him that I loved him. I knew that what I had with Edward was unhealthy and that I need to stick to humans from now on. It was important that I let Jake know that I loved him and I wanted to give him a chance. When I made it to his house I ignored the other random tall me standing around him and dove straight into his arms and I knew I was home. When I finally looked into his eyes, he had a look of total shock and adoration on his face and I'm pretty sure I did too. What the heck just happened?

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