Smiling. Laughing. Joking. It's all a mask that I wear.
Screaming. Crying. Dying. This is who I really am.
"Who are you?" That damn question caused all of this.
"Oh. Hi… Are alright?" No I'm fucking dying everyday.
"Y-yeah… I-I'm f-fine….." Grow a pair self. Tell them what the hell is going on!
"Ok… umm…Who ARE you?" There's the damned question again.
"I-I'm M-Madelyn" You know the person that made 3 great inventions that YOU use every damn day.
"Oh I'm sooo sorry." Yeah sure you are.
"Oh look at the time. I have to go and ..do ..stuff…Yeah Go do stuff. …hehe"
I've heard enough to know that my own damn sister doesn't want me here.
"Okay. Drive safe Amelia. Buh-bye" Smiling that gaggingly sweet smile I smile everyday. But never feel.
With that said I'm all alone… again.
Might as well go to bed…
I start the bath tub while I take my Zoloft. After staring at my vampire pale skin that has bones sticking out, I figured out I forgot something…..in the kitchen.
I came back into the bathroom and smile a weak smile that's true and submerged myself in the warm waters. I take the special treat that I brought from the kitchen. I hold it up to my wrists and slice. I slice over and over again till I lost enough blood to faint.
Goodbye everyone. If you re…mem..ber.. m..e