(Author's Note:) Greetings fans and supporters of shadow21. My sincerest apologies for deleting my story. After seeing where it was leading I knew it was time to make a few revisions and major changes in it, which starting with this chapter you will see, I hope that you can bear with me at this time especially with my work schedule changing every now and again. That's the curse of the U.S. Army, but it's the life I chose, but that's another story. Anyway I'm reloading and revision as we speak and will have all chapters that have been read and aformentioned hopefully improved...without further adeieu on to the first chapter!

Disclaimer: iCarly belongs to Dan Schnieder, and The music belongs to all respective musical artists.

Chapter 1: iCan't Stay

(Freddie's POV)

I couldn't believe it. I couldn't believe that one of my many dreams of working at the Pear Store was destroyed by her again! It doesn't make any sense how she

always and continues to torment me. It was bad enough that she's back to causing me physical and mental pain again, but now she's been damaging my heart. It

really is sad. I thought. Sad but true, no matter how much she's hurt me, I still stick around. Why? Why do I continue to stick around a person who clearly doesn't

care for me. I mean I can defend the actions of her. I mean aside from her being naturally vicious as we all know. It's amazing, though, when we were together, this

side of her was gone. But its like now that we're not she's been hitting me harder than ever. Is there a reason why? Does she...no way! I can confirm the fact that

Samantha Joy Puckett hates me with a passion now. So why do I still stick around? Why do I continue this facade? Because no matter how she feels about me, I still

love her. It dosen't matter though. Because it obviously means that she dosen't feel the same way for me. Hell if she did, then why would she have been all over that

dude from One Direction? Or why did she ignore me cries for help when Nora pretty much tried to eat my face? And if she ever did, I guess love in her has an

expiration date. But what is it, love or a jug of milk? Guess I'll never know. I haven't slept since that day because everytime I try to I end up dreaming that day over

again.

(Flashback)
(Sam and Freddie walk into the elevator from the iCarly Studio. Sam Presses the Emergency Stop Button.)
Sam: So...
Freddie:(Turns to look at Sam) She wasn't talking about us.
Sam: I know...but...do you think maybe...you and I...are taking some connection we have...
Freddie: And trying to force it into a boyfriend-girlfriend thing?
Sam: Yeah.
Freddie: Well, I mean...(sighs) I don't know...(chuckles) it's like, after all the years, of us being at each other's throats...and you...kissing me...that night at school...it was pretty...intense...
Sam:(Scoffs) Hey, you put me in a mental hospital. So the kiss was...just...intense?
Freddie:(Looks at sam and nods her head at her) And fun.
Sam:(Smiles) Yeah, I just...(leans back agaainst elevator wall) I don't know if you and me really click that way.
Freddie: Yeah...(shrugs and smiles) but, you know, maybe one day if...you get a little more normal...
Sam: Or you get a little more abnormal (Freddie and Sam look confused) so did we just break up?
Freddie:(Sighs) Feels like it...but...it was...mutual...right?
Sam: Yeah...(Grins) but I'm still gonna tell people that I dumped your butt and broke your nerdly little heart.
Freddie:(Smiles) Fair enough.
Sam:(Shrugs) Oh well(Pushes the button again and the elevator begins to go down to the living room floor. The door opens, and Sam starts to walk out)
Freddie:(Walks up behind Sam) I love you.(Sam stops walking)
Sam:(Turns around and smiles) I love you, too.(Walks up to Freddie and kisses him sweetly)
(End Flashback)

The thoughts continued to play back inside my mind. It didn't matter that it happened months back, but no matter what I knew my feelings for her still lasted. I

walked up to my Galaxy Wars poster, pulled it down pressed a red button that I had hidden behind it and my tech desk turned into my own private music studio. I

grabbed my acoustic guitar plugged it into my amp, strummed a few notes and started to sing.

(Just Wanna Be With You By: Enrique Iglesias)
Monday night and I feel so low
I Count the hours but they go so slow
I know the sound of your voice
Can save my soul

City lights, streets of gold
Look out my window to the world below
Moves so fast and it feels so cold
And I'm all alone

Don't let me die
I'm losing my mind
Baby just give me a sign

And now that you're gone
I just wanna be with you
And I can't go on
I wanna be with you

Wanna be with you

I can't sleep I'm up all night
Through these tears I try to smile
I know the touch of your hand
Can save my life

Don't let me down
Come to me now
I got to be with you somehow

And now that you're gone
I just wanna be with you
And I can't go on
I wanna be with you

Wanna be with you

Don't let me down
Come to me now

I've got to be with you somehow
And now that you're gone
Who am I without you now
I can't go one
I JUST WANNA BE WITH YOU

And now that you're gone
I just wanna be with you
And I can't go one
I wanna be with you

Wanna be with you

Just wanna be with you
And I can't go on
I wanna be with you OH!

Just wanna be with you
Just wanna be with you
Just wanna be with you
Just wanna be with you
(Song ends)

It's sad though, how I still love and want to be with her. But I knew I had to face reality. My abrasive meat-loving girlfriend is gone. And if she's gone, maybe I should

be too...

(Author's Note): So this is the Re-re beginning of my Seddie rendition in progress. As I said please bear with me, until then read and review. But no Flames! I hope you will keep supporting shadow21...