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I couldn't believe that Stefan was drinking human blood again and Damon just let him. I just shook my head disappointed as Matt handed me a cup of coffee, then took a seat next to me. "I just don't get it, your thing with them."

I took a deep breathe and took a sip of my coffee before I answered Matt. "I know it doesn't make sense, but in the beginning after my parents died there was something about being with Stefan that just... I felt safe."

Matt looked a little angry as I said that, but his tone of voice didn't show that as he spoke in a rather calm tone. "Safe? Elena he's a vampire."

"I know believe me just saying it out loud sounds crazy, but the second I knew he could never stop loving me... like he would never..." I answered him not sure of how to find the right word to explain how I felt about Stefan because the reason seems so lame if I were to say it out loud.

"What?"

"die... like he would never die." I let the words spit out of my mouth as I felt ashamed for being with Stefan for such a stupid reason like that. It wasn't a good reason to be with someone, but I just couldn't help myself to be with him. I was lonely and miserable, I needed someone to fill my void and Stefan was just the only one who I thought could fill that void. I was wrong though and I regret using Stefan like that, but it's to late to change that now.

"Like your parents did? And Damon?"

I nodded my head yes and sighed. "Damon just sort of snuck up on me. He got under my skin and no matter what I do I just can't shake him."

He nodded his head and sighed. "Once you fall in love with someone... I don't know if you can ever shake it."

I thought about that for a while since Matt did make sense. Could I really be in love with Damon? I mean he has done a lot to hurt, but so has Stefan. They both had their flaws when it comes to that, but now Stefan is the ripper again. Although now that I think about it Damon never meant to hurt me on purpose except for when he has sex with other girls to get back at me. I deserve that though since I push him away for always doing selfless acts for his brother and risks his happiness like that. It's amazing how he still loves me after how I hurt him, but I wonder why he acts like such a manwhore when I break his heart it isn't right. I should just be glad and look on the positive things Damon does for me.

Since the beginning of our friendship Damon never kept anything from me. Stefan kept the biggest part of our relationship a lie. Stefan was still in love with Katherine and he knew me before I got to know him. When I found out about Katherine and left, Damon was right there for me. He's always been there for me, just like when Stefan broke my heart, he stayed by my side. Although I can't remember what he said to me when he got my necklace back after I thought I had lost it forever. The only thing I remember was him telling me that it was that he said it would be the most unselfish thing he's ever said before. Why couldn't I remember anything said after that? Did he compel to forget? I shook my head, I know Damon wouldn't do that to me. Would he? I sighed and looked back over to Matt. It must be weird for him to hear me talking about Stefan and Damon around him since we used to date. "Look I'm sorry if this is weird... talking about them with you."

Matt smiled a little as he shook his head. "No, not really. I think I helped you realize that your really in love with Damon and not Stefan like you thought you were."

I smiled a little because in a way it sort of could be true. "I guess so, but I don't really know if I could be in love with Damon. I think Damon compelled me to forget something and I hardly know Damon. He just pushes me away so he doesn't get hurt."

"Well maybe you should talk to Damon and see how it all works out. If it's truely meant to be then Damon will tell you the truth about what you want to know."

I nodded my head. Matt had a good point and now I just have to approach Damon hoping for the best. "Thanks Matt, you helped me out a lot. I'll go talk to Damon then and tell you how it went. Your a good friend Matt." I stood up from my seat and left as I went to go to the boarding house to see Damon.

When I got to the boarding house I knocked on the door as I started to bite my bottom lip. What if appoarching Damon is a mistake? Would he really tell me why he made me forget what he said if he really did make me forget? Do I really want to rush into a relationship with Damon if this goes well? I shook my head and sighed. It's to late to turn back Elena, your already here so you might as well face it and get this put behind you. After all if I turn back now I might regret it later. I started to reach for the doorbell to ring, but a hand stopped me. I looked over at the door and saw Damon standing right there. "Well hello there Elena. What do I owe this pleasure?"

My eyes met his blue eyes as I tried to figure out a response and I pulled my hand away. "May I come inside first Damon? I think it be best to sit down and talk to you first."

Damon nodded and led me inside as he shut the door. I went over to the couch and sat down as he sat down next to me on the left, placing his right arm around me as he poured himself a glass bourbon. Damon took a sip of the bourbon and then looked at me. "So what is it you need Elena?"

I looked into his blue eyes and searched for the words I wanted to say to him as I began to speak slowly. "Well I kind of came here to ask you what did you say to me when you had the chance to compel me to forget what you said. All I remember is you told me that it was probably the most unselfish thing you ever said in your lifetime. I have to know and I have to know if you really did compel me to forget what you said. I have a right to know."

Damon raised his eyebrows as his eyes were focused looking straight into mine as if he was compelling me. Although I was on vervain so he wouldn't have been able to compel me. "Is that the only reason you came here to see me Elena?"

I shook my head no. "It isn't the only reason Damon, but I want to know. I have to know why and I have to know the honest truth if I really want to give you a chance at a relationship with me."

Damon looked at me as if he was surprised by my response, but his shock quickly faded away as he set down his bourbon on the table next to him. "Your right you deserve to know and if I don't tell you now if Stefan wanted to make you a vampire or someone else would, well you would know what I said. It be better that you heard it from me, but are you sure you want to be in a relationship with me?"

I nodded my head yes. "If I wasn't sure about a relationship with us then I wouldn't have come here to find out the truth. Sure a relationship with you will be hard, but at least it won't be boring like with Matt or Stefan. Being with you is a mystery and I kind of like that, even though it can be bad sometimes."

He shookd his head and looked away from me. "Very well then Elena if you must know the truth... what I told you... what I had made you forget when you lost your necklace and I had that chance... I told you that 'I loved you Elena and that because I love you, I can't be selfish with you. I don't deserve you, but my brother does.' That's what I had to tell you Elena and that's what I made you forget what I said, but it wasn't anything important for you to remember."

Not anything important for me to remember? I know he loved me, but that he said his brother deserved me than him? It seemed pretty important to me that I should have remembered that. "Why wouldn't you let me remember that or at least gave me a choice if I wanted to remember what you said?"

Damon shrugged like he never realized that could have been important for me to know. "I guess I cared more about my Stefan's happiness than my own and that's why I took that memory away from you."

I shook my head disappointed in him. "You had no right to do that and if you hadn't done that maybe I would have left Stefan for you sooner. Things could have been different between us." I turned my head to look away from him. I just couldn't believe that he did that and made me forget how he felt towards me. The tears started to fill my eyes and flow down my cheeks as I began to wipe them away.

He looked over at me and put his hand under my chin, lifting it up and pulling it so that I looked up at him. He wiped away my tears. "Elena I'm sorry, I had no right to do that to you. It should have been your choice to pick if you wanted to keep that memory, but I never compelled you other than that. Besides things still can be different between us now that Stefan is the ripper again. Stefan will probably go back to serving Klaus again and then I can be here for you again. We can conquer the world together. We'll survive where ever life takes us, we always survive Elena."

I smiled a little as Damon said that, but I don't know if things could ever be different between us again. Not in that way at least. "I don't think things will be different between us Damon, not in that way at least."

Damon sighed as his blue eyes looked into mine. "Do you love me Elena?"

I shook my head a little, but felt unsure. "I think I might be in love with you Damon."

He smiled and took that as a good sign. "Well we can take it from there and see how our relationship goes from there. I've waited this long for you and if you think it is possible for us to make a relationship work, then it's worth a shot."

I pulled his hand away from my chin and nodded my head yes. "Your right Damon, it is worth a shot. I'm willing to give us a shot for you." I leaned in to kiss Damon and wrapped my arms around his neck as he ran his hands through my hair. The kiss felt right and giving our relationship a shot felt right, just like the pieces had fit into place. It was truely incredible and indescrible.