Author's Note: WARNING: SONGFIC! Haha, seriously, though, this fic does go with a song. There are many versions of the song 'Hallelujah,' but this one is KD Lang's. The song just inspired me, and I think it fits very well with SasuSaku, or Team Seven. Some of you might agree, some might not, but that's what this fic is. SasuSaku angst and it's also Team Seven angst.
Sasuke-centric, though, I guess. Anyway, I ramble, so, on with the show!
By the way, one of the verses isn't in here because it didn't fit with the one-shot.
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto or 'Hallelujah' sung by KD Lang (And various other artists…)
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I've heard there was a secret chord
That David played and it pleased the Lord,
But you don't really care for music, do ya?
You had never realized it until now. How much it had all meant. Every moment that she had annoyed you (or at least that's what you told yourself) and every moment that he had been an idiot (but really, all these years he had been smarter than you). Now, that was over, even though you thought it had ended long ago.
Well it goes like this,
The fourth, the fifth,
The minor fall, the major lift,
The baffled king composing Hallelujah.
Out of all of them, she had been the weakest. Little, weak (but she wasn't, was she? She had been stronger than you) Sakura Haruno. The girl you left on that cold, hard (It matched your fucking heart) bench that night so long ago, when you cut your bonds with her.
Hallelujah.
Though now, you realized that you hadn't cut the bond as well as you thought, and that's why she always seemed to be in your thoughts, in your dreams, in your soul, annoying you to no end.
Hallelujah.
When you saw her again, she was taller, beautiful, stronger-
Hallelujah.
-And you had envied that. You had also realized that maybe, leaving was a bad thing, and if you had stayed with Team Seven (with her), maybe you could have gotten just as strong.
But none of that mattered now, because you had lost that chance, lost that hope, lost your everything when she died protecting you from the one you had been trying to kill all these years. And really, though you wouldn't say it out loud, (only cursed and cursed and cursed some more, damned that evil bastard to Hell, swore that he would pay for taking her away from you) you… cared for her.
(Love wasn't exactly in your vocabulary anymore-)
Hallelujah.
(-And it never would be again.)
Maybe I've been here before,
I know this room, I've walked this floor.
And then there was Naruto. Stupid, obnoxious, Naruto. Naruto, whom you'd hated (cared for like the brother you once had, before he destroyed you) and envied, but not because of his strength (Even though he was stronger than you as well, and you knew it) but because he could love, he could feel-
I used to live alone before I knew you.
But I've seen your flag on the marble arch,
(He loved everything. He'd loved the sky, the sun, the grass, the missions, the people, you, her-)
Our love is not a victory march,
-And that's why you'd killed him.
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah.
And afterwards, you'd sat in the spot where he died for hours-
Hallelujah
-Screaming,
Hallelujah.
And screaming,
Hallelujah.
And screaming-
Hallelujah.
-And clawing at your eyes because they burned, burned...
Maybe there's a God above,
But all I ever learned from love was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you.
The next time you'd looked at your reflection, your eyes were the color of the blood that they had bled, and in the center, there was a macabre, black (the color of your heart), three-tipped pinwheel.
It's not a cry you can hear at night,
Months later, you had finally achieved what you had wanted to so badly.
It's not someone who's seen the light,
You had killed him-
It's a cold and broken Hallelujah.
-Destroyed him, because he had destroyed you,
Hallelujah,
Destroyed them,
Hallelujah,
Destroyed everything you'd ever had,
Hallelujah,
And ever could've had.
Hallelujah.
So as you sat there, covered in blood (most of it not your own)-
Hallelujah,
You thought about all of your memories,
Hallelujah,
And all your realizations.
Hallelujah,
Sakura, the girl who had loved you, even though you had never deserved it, never asked for it (though you secretly craved it, you knew).
Hallelujah,
Naruto, the boy who had been your best friend, your brother, the one who you had liked, hated, and been jealous of all at the same time (but you still cared).
Hallelujah,
And then, Itachi. Someone who was once your brother (until he killed your family), who once taught you things (and he killed her), whom you once cared for. (And somewhere deep inside of you, you still did.)
All of your thoughts merged together to finally create something you should've fucking realized long, long, long ago.
Hallelujah,
It wasn't worth it.
Hallelujah.
It never has been.
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