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Dyson might be OOC so ignore it.
Unexplored Feelings
By: lightfae530
Beta'd by: RockAngel777
Summary: Kenzi is leaving, but she doesn't know that it will spark something in Dyson when she does. Can Dyson forget her? Or does he need her more than ever.
As I was getting ready to go to the Dal, a thought occured to me. I have been in this world with Bo for four years, and I realized that I was tired of fighting. The more I thought about it, the more my mind was made up. I was leaving this behind to find a normal life or as close to one as I could.
In the next few months I did every job I could to save money. When I had enough to keep me comfortable until I found a job I was ready to tell everyone. The day came that I had decided to leave arrived, I had Trick call everybody to the Dal. When I got there they were already there.
"What's up?"
"We don't know Kenzi, you tell us."
"Alright , I have been planning this for months and today is the day."
"What's going on, Kenz?" Dyson asked.
"So this won't hurt so much I decided to tell you and leave. I'm moving to the states, to get away from all the Fae crap and have a normal life."
They all looked at me like I was crazy. "I'm tired of the constant danger and I just need to leave."
Bo was the first to speak. "But Kenzi you can't leave, I'll miss you too much."
Hale said," Who am I going to pick at and do my handshakes with?"
Trick said," Who is going to drink all my liquor?"
Dyson was the only one who stayed quiet. But there was a sadness in his eyes, I didn't understand. He just stood there looking at me.
"Guys, I will come back to visit I just can't live here anymore. I love you all , but I need this. Please understand." As I made my way around to each of them saying goodbye and hugging them I felt tears well up in my eyes.
"Guys, I love you all, but I have to catch my bus." Dyson asked if I needed a ride to the bus station. I said, "Yes, if you don't mind."
He grabbed my bags and with a wave and a blown kiss I left. We didn't talk all the way there, it wasn't until he got my bags out that he finally said something. I looked at him and he said, "Do you really have to go, Kenzi?"
"I mean I know why you want to leave, but will you reconsider?"
"Yes Dyson, I have to go,I have to do this for me. And besides now you all won't have to worry about the weak human."
He looked at me and said, "I kinda like taking care of you."
"That's sweet of you to say, but I know I sometimes get in the way."
"But Kenzi, you're part of our family and we don't want to lose you."
"Dyson you'll never lose me. Maybe when I get a place you guys can come see me so that you know I am okay. Now give me a hug before I go." He pulled me into his arms and I felt cared for and safe. But there was something more, something he wasn't saying. I looked up at him, I could see the pain in his eyes. I asked him if was there anything I could do.
All he said was, "Stay." I hugged him again and turned and boarded the bus. As I sat down I looked out the window, he was looking at me with a sad smile on his face. I kissed my hand and placed it on the window, he did the same. It made my heart skip a beat. And the tears began to fall. As the bus pulled away he stood watching me. Then he was gone. I cried all the way to Los Angeles. I couldn't get the look on his face out of my mind. He looked so hurt, so lost. I had only seen that look a few times before, and I hated I had caused it to happen again.
It took me almost a month to find a job. And two months to find a nice apartment. But now it was six months later and I was doing great. I had kept in touch as I promised, texting everyday. I would call once or twice a week, just to hear Bo's voice.. I called everyone else too. But Dyson hadn't answered when I called him. I just figured he was busy. I didn't think much about it, until one day my phone rang. I didn't think to look at the caller I.D. I just answered it.
"Hello, this is Kenzi it's your fifty, speak."
"Kenzi?" I would recognize that voice anywhere.
"Wolfman, I thought you had forgotten how to talk."
"No, Kenzi, I just didn't know what to say."
"I forgot you're a man of few words. How have you been?"
"Okay, and you? I'm great D-man. So what are you up to these days?"
"Just working and missing a certain little human."
"Aww, do you really?"
"Yes Kenzi, it's too quiet. That makes me feel all warm and fuzzy."
"Smart ass human."
You know it, that's me."
Hey Kenz, would it be okay if Bo, Hale, and I came down for a visit?"
"Wow! That would be great! When are you coming?"
"Wait, let me see when we're all free. I'll call you back."
"Great, I'll be waiting. Okay Kenz, I will talk to you soon."
"Okay D-man , by the way I missed you too." Then I hung up. I was so excited I would get to see my family again. Except for Trick, I would have to go there to see him.
About three days later my phone rang. This time I looked at the I.D. and I couldn't answer fast enough. "D-man when will you be here?"
"How about right now?"
"What, where are you?" Just then I heard a knock at the door. I told him to hold on and answered the door. I opened the door and there they were, I jumped into Bo's arms. Then to Hale after a hug and a handshake, I got to Dyson.
"I thought you were going to call me."
"I did." I smacked him on the chest. "Before you came."
"I thought this would be better."
"Actually it is."
He said,"Come here you." I went into his arms and was squeezed hard.
"I can see you weren't lying about missing me."
"Nope, I really have missed you, Kenz."
"Come on in. How long can you stay?"
"We have a week."
"Great, when I go to work tonight I'll ask if I can get some time off."
"You have to work tonight?"
"Yes, I work 5 til 2."
"Where do you work?"
"At a bar as a waitress."
"Well, can we come along?"
"Yes, but Hale and Dyson you have to promise not to interfere with my customers." They agreed but somehow I didn' t believe them.
When we got to the bar, they chose a table away from the main traffic. As the night progressed I would check to see if they needed anything. I had a really difficult customer, but I had dealt with him before, so I knew how to handle him. As I was calling him a cab, he grabbed my ass. I heard the growl , but thankfully no one else did. I looked at Dyson and shook my head letting him know I had this. He sat back down, but he wasn't happy.
I finished my shift and got them to the car. Bo and Hale were a little tipsy, but Dyson was more drunk than I'd ever seen him. I managed to get them back to my place. I put Bo in my room and Dyson and Hale in the spare room.
I needed to relax so I ran a bath. As I was getting out I wrapped a large towel around myself and went to get my pjs. I was looking down to make sure my towel was secure so I didn't see him. I ran straight into Dyson's chest. I accidently dropped my towel as I went to scoop it up he grabbed my wrists. From my position I had to look up to see him. He had a strange look in his eyes that I couldn't read.
"Dyson what are you doing? I thought I was alone."
He said he was going to get some water. I pulled my towel around myself as I stood up. He was still looking at me strangely. "What's going on Dyson? It was an accident."
He said,"I would like to have more of those accidents."
"Come on Dyson , you have Bo."
He looked me in the eyes and said,"We are friends nothing more. That relationship is over."
I was surprised. He hadn't spoken like that since I had gotten his love back. "When did that happen?"
"Sometime before you left."
"Why wait until now to tell me?"
"Can we talk?" He asked.
"Let me get dressed, I will be in the living room in a few." While I was getting dressed my mind was going in a thousand different directions. He was waiting for me when I came out of my room.
"Okay D-man, what do you want to talk to me about?"
"Kenzi, I've been thinking about you a lot since you left."
"And what have you discovered?" He took my hands in his and looked into my eyes. I knew it was hard for him to talk about his feelings, so I put my hand on his face. "Look Dyson, if you can't say it, I totally understand."
He shook his head and then he said, "I have missed you so very much."
"I have missed you too."
"No not like this Kenzi, like this." He leaned over and kissed me, taking me by surprise. When he moved back he searched my eyes for my reation. It took me a minute to register what had just happened. He looked like he had made a mistake. As soon as I could speak I looked at him, he looked so sad.
"Dyson please don't look like that I was just surprised."
"Are you mad?"
I took his face in my hands and did the only thing I could do. I kissed him with all I had. When the kiss ended he was smiling. "I thought I had messed up. But from that kiss I think I'm right."
"Yes Dyson you are, I have wanted to do that forever."
"But why did you wait, Kenzi?"
"Because I thought you still loved Bo, and I was afriad."
"Afraid of what?"
"That you wouldn't feel the same."
"Oh Kenzi, I have wanted you since the day we met."
"Dyson, you've been in my thoughts and dreams almost constantly since we met."
"We have wasted so much time. Can we see where this goes? That's all I want, Kenzi." Then we kissed again a full on tongue in mouth it ended all I could say was wow.
"I second that" said Dyson.
"So what do we do now? We can't really spend any time alone with Bo and Hale here."
"I have a few more days off due. When I get back I will arrange for the time off and be back in about a week."
"But Dyson, I can't get any more time off for at least six months."
"That's okay I can find something to do while you're at work. Is that okay with you or would you rather me wait?"
"No Dyson, I want you to come as soon as you can." He kissed me and we sat together for a couple of hours. Dyson noticed that I was yawning and told me to get some sleep. We kissed goodnight. Bo was sleeping soundly as I slipped into bed.
The week went by too fast. When then the time came I was sad to see them go. We said our goodbyes and hugged each other and they got in the car. Dyson said he had forgotten something. He came back in and grabbed me and kissed me and said he would see me in a week or so. I could tell he didn't want to go, I told him to call me as soon as they got home. He assured me he would. After a final kiss he left. I could not believe it, I was going to get my chance with Dyson. When my phone rang a few hours later, it was Dyson.
"You can't be home yet."
"No , but I wanted to hear your voice, I miss you already."
"Dyson I missed you the moment you walked out the door."
"I don't know if I can wait a week Kenzi."
I know, but it will go by fast. You can call me everyday."
"I probably will call you several times a day." I laughed at him. He asked if I didn't want him to call.
"No Dyson, call me as much as you want to, I love hearing your voice."
"Good because you are going to hear it alot." Once again I laughed at him, "You're like a teenager. But I love it, can't wait to see you."
I hung up. About fifteen minutes later my phone rang , all I heard was miss you then he hung up. I shook my head putting my phone away. I was just stepping out of the shower, my phone was ringing. It was Dyson again, he wasn't kidding about calling me alot.
"Yes Dyson?"
"I just wanted to hear your voice."
"It was kinda sweet. I'm getting ready for work. I won't be able to talk to you at work."
"Then I will text you."
"Okay, I'll talk to you tomorrow."
"What time do you get off work?"
"At one a.m."
"Okay talk to you later."
All night at work I kept getting texts every thirty minutes. I couldn't believe he was being like this, he was like a love-sick kid. As I got into the car to go home, my phone rang. I didn't answer it I wanted to see what he would do. I got text and then another call. I picked up the phone and told him goodnight. He said goodnight and said that he would talk to me before work tomorrow. The calls and texts continued for the next week. I couldn't wait to see him, so the calls would stop for a while.
Finally the day arrived. I was so nervous and I didn't know why. Then he was there at my door, all rockin' body and wolfish grin. I feel like little red riding hood. I thought to myself.
He grabbed me in a bone crushing hug and kissed me long and slow. I was lost in him. He pulled back and I had to shake my head to clear my mind. "God Kenz, I've missed you so much."
"I've missed you too Dyson. Come on in." He got his bag and headed to the extra bedroom. That kinda made me sad. I thought we would be sharing my bed. I guess he wasn't sure, so to be safe. When he came out I was looking at him and then it hit me. I was in love with him, totally head over heels in love.
As I stumbled back to the couch he came to me, "Are you okay Kenz?"
"Yes, Dyson, I'm fine, just realized something and it hit me like a ton of bricks."
"What was that?"
"I'll tell ya later. What do you want to do? I'm off tonight. Let's go get some food and then we can watch a movie and cuddle."
"I can do that." After we finished eating we were sitting on the couch and he held out his arms and said, "Come here I've been thinking about this since I left."
"I've been dreaming about this every night." I settled into his arms and I felt like I was finally where I belonged.
It was getting late so I decided to go to bed. Dyson I am tired I am going to bed.
He said, "Goodnight Kenz." We kissed and went to our seperate rooms. I didn't want him in there, I wanted him with me, but he had to want it too. So I took myself to bed and laid there staring at the ceiling. I wondered if he was thinking about me too? After two sleepless hours I gave up and got out of bed. I was going to have a drink to see if it would make me sleepy. As I was pouring a drink Dyson came walking in. He walked up to me and put his arms around me. I turned around and kissed him. I hoped in that kiss he would know what I wanted. When he pulled back there was a question in his eyes. I was finding it hard to tell him what I wanted. But thank God he asked me.
"Kenzi, what do you want?"
"Dyson, I want you in my bed, naked."
He let out a deep breath and said,"Gods, you don't know how much I wanted to be with you, but I didn't know I how you felt." I took his hand and led him to my bed. It was going to be a good night.
We started to strip as soon as we reached the bedroom. Neither one of us could wait to explore each others bodies. As he laid me down on the bed and he kissed me . His hands touching every part of me and I him. I remembered Bo telling me about a certain spot just above his hip.I took my nails and scratched over it. That got me a very passion filled look from him. He was killing me with kisses and little bites all over he spread my legs and started to stroke my clit . I was going wild. He slipped two fingers inside me and I could feel myself tightening around them.
"Dyson, I'm going to cum."
"It's okay Kenzi go ahead." So I did and it was like I had never done that before.
"There you go that's it. Now we'll make love." He positioned himself over me. In that moment before he entered me I could see all of the passion, the want, and the desire he held for me. I told him as he entered me that I had wanted this since the first time I'd seen him. When he started to move inside me I felt the most wonderful feeling i had ever expeirienced. I didn't know at the time what it was , but I would soon find out. At that moment I could think of nothing else except making love to Dyson. I began to move matching him stroke for stroke. I saw the look of surprise on his face.
I just smiled an grabbed his hair in my hand and flipped him onto his back.I began to ride him, up and down as I went down I would tighten my muscles around him. I knew I was driving him crazy. I decided to change positions wanting this to last as long as possible. I slid to the edge of the bed and he got up and slammed into me. We enjoyed that position for a while. Then he pulled out and flipped me over to take me doggy style. I couldn't get past the irony of this. He was a wolf after all. But damn it felt so good I didn't want it to end. But I could feel my climax coming.
"Dyson!" I screamed and then I felt his climax too. We came together and then we fell to the bed. It took a while for our breathing to return to normal. When we finally could breathe we looked at each other and that's when we we couldn't say it just yet. It was too soon. We just held each other and slept.
The next morning I got up to fix breakfast and coffee. When he walked in wearing only his boxers. I was looking at his body. Thinking how could I be so lucky to get someone like him?
"What are you thinking about beautiful?"
"You think I'm beautiful?" He came over to me, kissed me and said, "I have always thought you were beautiful."
"I was thinking how in the hell did I get someone as sexy as you?"
"You got me because I wanted you so much. I'm so glad I finally got you."
"So am I, Dyson, so am I."
We spent the next week enjoying each other every chance we got. I hated to go to work, but I so loved to come home. Dyson was always waiting for me with a glass of wine and a kiss. I loved being with him, but the time came for him to leave. I tried to stay strong and not to cry, I was doing fine until the last kiss then the tears started.
Dyson had went to put his bag in the car, I turned away. He came up behind me put his arms around me from behind and hugged me. Then he caught the scent of my tears. "Beautiful, what's wrong?"
"I'm okay Dyson."
"Tell me why you're crying."
"I just don't want you to go."
"Come with me then."
"Dyson I can't do that, I have a life here."
"Please come back with me Kenzi. I don't want to leave you here. I want you with me."
"Dyson if you still want me to come home with you in six months I will. My lease will be up and I can leave." Then I ran in the house and cried for hours. Why did it hurt so much to say goodbye? Then it hit me full force. I was copletely in love with him, but I needed to know he loved me.
When he got home he called me. I was still crying. "Kenzi are you okay?"
"Yes Dyson, I'm, I just miss you."
"I miss you too, beautiful I will see you soon. I will call you every day." I told him that I would love to be in his arms.
He said, "Baby that's what I want more than anything.
"I miss the feel of your skin under my hands, the beat of your heart. My bed is so cold without you, Dyson."
"I'll be back there as soon as I can. I have something in the works and if it happens I will be with you soon and for two or three months. Would you like that Kenzi?"
"I would love it, you know I would. Please let me know when your plans are set. I can't wait to have you here with me. It broke my heart to watch you drive away."
"I know my beautiful lady I didn't want to go."
"Please come back to me Dyson." He could hear the tears in my voice.
"Kenzi please don't cry. Baby, I will be with you again soon."
"Promise me Dyson that you will be with me as soon as you can."
"Yes baby, I will as soon as I can, I promise." He realized then that Kenzi was truly afraid he wouldn't come back.
"Kenzi you have my word I will come to you soon."
"Dyson I have something to tell you when you get here."
"Tell me now Kenzi."
"No you have to be here for me to tell you."
"Okay baby I will. Sleep well , I will talk to you tomorrow."
I tried to keep busy to keep my mind off missing Dyson, but each time he called it came back. I didn't think I could wait to see him. He was telling me he would probably be here by next week, but that was too long. I had arranged to be off work Thurs. thru Sun. So I was going to see him. I called Dyson and asked him if he would be at the Dal tonight, at about seven.
"Why?"
"I'm having something delivered to you there."
"What is it?"
"Nope you will have to wait till tonight."
"What have you done Kenzi?"
"Nothing bad I promise."
"Okay, I will call you when I get it."
"Okay, I'm looking forward to it."
I was getting so excited, the closer I got the more I couldn't wait to be there. I got there at five till seven, Dyson's car was already there. I could surprise him. I got out straightened my clothes and opened the door. His head turned to see who was coming in, I could tell he was surprised. He jumped up and ran to me.
"I told you I was sending you something."
"And what a surprise it is."
"Are you pleased?"
"I couldn't be more pleased."
"I want to take you home and make love to you all night, but first. Trick, I have a surprise for you."
"What is that?" Trick asked. Then I stepped from behind Dyson, Trick's eyes lit up, "Kenzi!"
He ran over and hugged me. "I didn't know you were coming home."
"I just came for a short visit. I have to go back Sunday."
"Well, come and have a drink."
Before I could make it to the bar Hale came in. "Hey lil mama didn't know you would be here." We did one of our handshakes and hugged. It felt great to be home. Dyson and I made our way to the bar. Just then Bo and Lauren came in.
"Hey Bobo what's up?"
"Kenzi what are you doing here?"
"I got a few days off so I came home. I have to leave Sunday."
"Good we can have some girl time."
"Yes, we can tomorrow, right now I need to rest."
"Where are you staying?"
"I'm going to get a hotel room. Now Bo, no objections. I will see you tomorrow." Dyson was looking like he lost his best friend. I hugged everyone and left. As soon as I got in my car I texted Dyson, meet me at your place. He told everybody he would see them later. I was waiting for him when he got to his apartment. He said, "I thought you were staying at a hotel."
"Dyson you know I would stay with you. I just had to tell them that so I could leave. Unless, you want me to go."
"You know I want you in my bed," he said. Then we went upstairs. I wanted to enjoy being with him.
We had hardly gotten in the door, when our clothes began to come off. We were kissing and touching and we couldn't get close enough to each other. It was so intense that I felt like we were catching on fire. But I had something I wanted to do. I pushed him onto the bed and slid his pants off. I started kissing him at his ankles and moved up his legs slowly. He was trying so hard to control himself, but I could see he was close. I touched his erection and he crumbled, but I wasn't done. I raised up with him looking at me, I opened my mouth and went down on hsi erection. He let out a gasp. I started moving up and down slow at first then faster, licking and sucking as I went. He was getting close and he warned me. but I stayed still sucking in every last drop.
Then I got him hard again. He pulled me under him and slid into me. It was the most pleasure I had in while. I grabbed his shoulders and clawed him all the way to his waist. I could hear the growls and I knew his wolf was at the surface. But I also knew that it wouldn't hurt me.
So I whispered in his ear, "Hello wolfy welcome to the party." I heard a howl and that's when the pleasure intensified. I hadn't realized how passionate his wolf was for me. He sat back on his legs and pulled me to him as he drove into me over and over, it felt almost like I would split into. Then he turned me over without pulling out of me. I got on my knees and felt the most pleasure I had ever felt in my life. I looked up and noticed the full length mirror. I looked into it at Dyson and his eyes were bright amber. That's when I knew I had my wolf. I just watched him for a few minutes, until I felt my climax rising and I thrust back against him. He looked up and I saw his eyes return to came together in a burst of passion neither one of us expected. We almost lost our breath.
As we laid there trying to breathe, trying to take in what had just happened. When I looked over to Dyson he was staring at me. "What is it Dyson?"
"I never imagined you could handle my wolf like that."
"I didn't know I could either. But I did a good job didn't I?"
He looked at me and said, "I have been afraid to let him come out, because I was afraid he would hurt you."
"I knew he wouldn't hurt me, because he is part of you. I have never had sex like that before, it was like fireworks inside me."
"Oh Kenzi, I knew being with you would be different, but you surprised me. I want to ask you something and I hope you will say yes."
"What Dyson?"
He reached over and took out a small box and then he took my hand. "Kenzi, I want you to marry me, please."
I looked into his eyes and I asked him if was sure.
"Yes Kenzi my beautiful love, I want you to be my wife, I love you."
As tears came to my eyes I kissed him and said, "Yes Dyson I will marry you."
He kissed me and told me that I had made him the happiest man alive. We laid there knowing that we would be together forever. I loved the ring it was a large sapphire surrounded by diamonds. I couldn't wait to show it off. But I didn't want to leave Dyson just yet.
After we showered we decided to go to the Dal, and meet with our friends. We walked in side by side. Bo was the first to greet me as we sat down, she said, "Something is different." I just smiled at her. Then Hale came in and then I was ready to tell them.
"Trick can I see you over here for a moment?"
When Trick got over to us I said," I have an announcement to make. I'm getting married." The three of them errupted in questions. Then they were silent.
They all looked at Dyson. "Did you already know?"
He smiled and said,"I should I am the man she is marrying." There were gasps and I looked at Bo.
"Come with me please, I need to talk to you. Please don't hate me , I know that Dyson is your ex, it just happened. Please tell me that we are okay."
She looked at me and smiled, "I'm not mad and I don't hate you. I'm happy for you. Dyson is a good man, you couldn't have done better." Then we hugged. We went back into the bar and Dyson looked at me. With a look I told him that it was okay. He breathed a sigh of relief and held out his arms to me. I went into them kissing him.
Then Trick said, "Drinks are on the house!"