Title-Almost
Summary-Companion fic to 'Maybe', but you don't need to read it to get this one. Sasuke considers what he's leaving behind. Chapter 181 spoilers.
Disclaimer-I own Sasuke...well, a three-inch tall plastic one, anyway. Not mine, not written or distributed for profit.
A/N-There's a tiny little bit of insinuated shonen-ai. Don't like, don't read. And this is a companion to 'Maybe', so if you haven't read that already, you should!
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I'm going to leave.
I'd like to go unnoticed. I'd prefer no one care about my absence. But they will. All those girls, Sakura especially, will be crying, moaning over lost 'Sasuke- kuuuuuun3'. I sound egotistical, but it's true. They all reveal their feelings so carelessly; it allows for them to be easily manipulated. To even have such a weakness-going crazy over someone like that, it just disgusts me.
But I cannot pretend I have no weaknesses. Itachi. If someone killed him before I could, if I couldn't avenge my family, I don't know what I would do. I never really gave that matter thought. Come to think of it, I never thought of what I'd do after I killed Itachi. Now that my goal doesn't look so far away, I ought to consider it.
Should I stay at Hidden Sound? Return to Konoha? I don't know if I'd be welcome here again, though I doubt they'll send hunter-nins after me. I don't know if I'd want to come back anyway.suddenly I'm not sure if I want to leave or not. Damn me for being so weak. I'm leaving in order to become stronger.
I remember when I was younger; my dream was to be like aniki-master of the sharingan, genius ninja, Anbu captain. I wanted to be as respected, loved, revered as he was. I wanted to be a great shinobi, just because it would make him proud.
And then I came home one day.and now my path is vengeance. I've lead a lonely life since then, and revenge is the only thing on my mind.
Almost.
I've thought about what my life would be like if my family was still here. I'd be different. I wouldn't have to be alone. I'd have friends. I was friends with Neji once, and Shikamaru. That was a long time ago. I doubt many guys will mind my absence now. Especially Naruto, the dunce. I won't be there to stand between him and Sakura.
He's strange, Naruto. He and I are like opposites almost. He's exceptionally loud, cheerful, and always displaying his emotions. I'm quieter, unhappy, and I'd rather keep my feelings to myself. Though I can't help but feel Naruto is more than meets the eye. I know he's been alone longer than I have, I know he doesn't know what it's like to have parents and then lose them. He's in a worse situation than I am. He's never known love, and the village hates him. Me, I lost my parents. I knew their love. The village likes me. I don't know how he stays so positive. I believe there is a side to him that only he knows. Like there is a side to me no one else knows. The side that just doesn't want to be alone anymore. The side that doesn't think Naruto is as much of a dunce as Outer Sasuke does. The side that denies aniki's existence. The side that wants to be happy again. The side that looks up to Naruto, because he can be happy after suffering so much.
The side that doesn't mind Naruto was my first kiss anymore.
Perhaps he and I aren't as different as I think we are.
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And that's the end of that. Want to see more? Want to tell me how much it sucked? Want to collaborate? Even if you answered no to all of the above, review anyway!
Summary-Companion fic to 'Maybe', but you don't need to read it to get this one. Sasuke considers what he's leaving behind. Chapter 181 spoilers.
Disclaimer-I own Sasuke...well, a three-inch tall plastic one, anyway. Not mine, not written or distributed for profit.
A/N-There's a tiny little bit of insinuated shonen-ai. Don't like, don't read. And this is a companion to 'Maybe', so if you haven't read that already, you should!
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I'm going to leave.
I'd like to go unnoticed. I'd prefer no one care about my absence. But they will. All those girls, Sakura especially, will be crying, moaning over lost 'Sasuke- kuuuuuun3'. I sound egotistical, but it's true. They all reveal their feelings so carelessly; it allows for them to be easily manipulated. To even have such a weakness-going crazy over someone like that, it just disgusts me.
But I cannot pretend I have no weaknesses. Itachi. If someone killed him before I could, if I couldn't avenge my family, I don't know what I would do. I never really gave that matter thought. Come to think of it, I never thought of what I'd do after I killed Itachi. Now that my goal doesn't look so far away, I ought to consider it.
Should I stay at Hidden Sound? Return to Konoha? I don't know if I'd be welcome here again, though I doubt they'll send hunter-nins after me. I don't know if I'd want to come back anyway.suddenly I'm not sure if I want to leave or not. Damn me for being so weak. I'm leaving in order to become stronger.
I remember when I was younger; my dream was to be like aniki-master of the sharingan, genius ninja, Anbu captain. I wanted to be as respected, loved, revered as he was. I wanted to be a great shinobi, just because it would make him proud.
And then I came home one day.and now my path is vengeance. I've lead a lonely life since then, and revenge is the only thing on my mind.
Almost.
I've thought about what my life would be like if my family was still here. I'd be different. I wouldn't have to be alone. I'd have friends. I was friends with Neji once, and Shikamaru. That was a long time ago. I doubt many guys will mind my absence now. Especially Naruto, the dunce. I won't be there to stand between him and Sakura.
He's strange, Naruto. He and I are like opposites almost. He's exceptionally loud, cheerful, and always displaying his emotions. I'm quieter, unhappy, and I'd rather keep my feelings to myself. Though I can't help but feel Naruto is more than meets the eye. I know he's been alone longer than I have, I know he doesn't know what it's like to have parents and then lose them. He's in a worse situation than I am. He's never known love, and the village hates him. Me, I lost my parents. I knew their love. The village likes me. I don't know how he stays so positive. I believe there is a side to him that only he knows. Like there is a side to me no one else knows. The side that just doesn't want to be alone anymore. The side that doesn't think Naruto is as much of a dunce as Outer Sasuke does. The side that denies aniki's existence. The side that wants to be happy again. The side that looks up to Naruto, because he can be happy after suffering so much.
The side that doesn't mind Naruto was my first kiss anymore.
Perhaps he and I aren't as different as I think we are.
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And that's the end of that. Want to see more? Want to tell me how much it sucked? Want to collaborate? Even if you answered no to all of the above, review anyway!