p style="margin: 0in; font-family: Calibri; font-size: 11.0pt;"I'm a mistake. I'm just an overbearing amount of faults and lies. I'm still human. I don't feel human. Why don't I feel human? It scares me, knowing my own inferiority, knowing I'm one small chess piece in the worlds chess game. I bet I would be the least significant of the pieces too. The King. I'm sure some of you disagree about the King being the least important, but not in the sense I mean. I mean that the king can fail it's life long mission to survival and "die" instantly. That's my plan too. It wouldn't be suicide, it would be justice. The path of righteousness is ending those who get in the way of everyone else's lives. I get in everyone else's lives. People plead to me that I am wrong. Sometimes you just have to shake your head and agree. Sometimes you can't. My solution is to treat everyone as if they are an inferior child. It doesn't exactly help my case to pretend that I'm the smartest human alive. I'm not smart, I'm not funny, I'm not cool. I'm just annoying carbon copy of others. I have no personality. I ceased to exist long ago because, now I'm only the small bits of others I picked up. I wonder if those people are happy? They're probably happier than me. As if it takes effort to be happier. My problems barely constitute problems, all that has happened to me is myself. All of my thoughts are just to avoid downing the alcohol or pills. Oh, and that knives are for cutting steak. No one else sees it, only those inanely close to me. They're the only ones who see it. I'm frail. I'm broken. You wanted to see me? Well now you've got it. I'm a lost soul. I tried being someone else but, everyone complained about me not being myself. Now you want to complain about myself? That makes you more of a hypocrite than I am. Well, that's asinine but, it does make you Hippocratic. If you want to see someone just make sure what you wished for next time. If you're afraid of me, annoyed by me, angry at me. Trust me you are not a first. Why else would I be parts of you? Maybe that is the annoying part? Seeing your own inferiority scares you? Seeing the parts of yourself you thought were secret in me? When I said I wasn't smart it was a lie, I know what will scare you to see, but it isn't because I want you to be in fear of me. I want you to distance yourself from me. I'm not a mistake. I'm just an overbearing amount of faults and lies. Your faults. Your mistakes. The accidents you made. I use them because all I am is a saviour. Not like some peoples God. Heavens or Hell no. I'm only an accidental hero. Why, you ask yourself from behind your screen? Well, apologies for break the so called fourth wall but, it's because I am your faults. I make you want to change. I make someone who may have oh so many faults hate me and change everything. This is why it wouldn't be suicide, because I am already dead. You aren't. I'm a walking part of shame and disappointment. You aren't. You can become something better. All I can be is a disappointment. Now, if you'll excuse me, I have to go find a bottle of pills. It was fun being you all. If you do remember my futile existence, I choose you to remember the last closing sentences. I'm not a mistake. I'm just an overbearing amount of faults and lies./p