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I was never that little girl that always played with baby dolls and wanted to be a mom when she grew up. Even as I got older and started thinking about my life I never saw kids in my future. Being with Edward I knew it was impossible anyways and he always felt guilty for taking that away from me but I assured him that I never pictured myself being a mom. But as I stared down at the plus sign a million thoughts went through my mind. It was only one time. How is it even possible? What about my change, the Volturi? How am I going to be a mom? And the most important one, how will I tell Edward? I mean he never voiced about wanting to be a father but did he want it? The knock on the door brought me out my thoughts.
"We're back love"
We had just gotten back from our honeymoon when I started to feel off but I figured it had to do with the shift from being back home. We've only been back about 3 days but I've never felt this nauseous before so I had a pretty good hunch that I was and the fact that I was late and have never been a day in my life. I had somehow managed to hide it from Edward the past couple of days but now I know that I have no choice. Edward and the rest of the family had gone hunting today so I conveniently went to the drugstore and got a test so I could do this in private.
"Bella?" he asked
"I'm coming" I quickly wrapped the test in a paper towel and placed it in the cabinet behind some bottles
As I made my way out of the bathroom I felt cold arms wrap around my waist. I smiled contently thinking that in a couple of months he won't be able to do that.
"Missed you" he buried his face in my neck
"You were only gone a couple of hours" I laughed
"I know but still" he hugged me tighter "What did you do today?"
I quickly made up some plausible excuse that he would believe "Um... I unpacked a little more and I read some chapters in my book. Nothing fun. Did you have fun?"
"I guess so but I was kind of in a rush to get back to you"
"Well let's head downstairs" I grabbed his hand and lead him away, mainly from the bathroom
Emmett and Jasper were watching a football game, Carlisle was reading a book with Esme sitting in his lap. Rosalie and Alice were flipping through magazines. Oh crap, Alice! Did she see me take the test? Does she already know? Why isn't she saying anything? Maybe she doesn't know. Jasper looked up and gave me a weird expression, I just smiled hoping he didn't say anything about my mood change. Alice didn't make and sort of comment that she knew what was going on so that had me relaxing slightly.
"We were just going to watch a movie" Jasper said putting an arm around Alice
"Fun" I said settling in more on the couch
The rest of the night was uneventful and rather quiet. I wasn't the center of attention and no one asked me any questions, which is good because I thought I was acting pretty weird. Esme made some popcorn for me halfway through but I only picked at it, which was the only thing I got looked at for. After the film was over they went onto playing some games together but I was starting to get tired.
"I hate to be the party pooper but I am human the human one of the bunch. Goodnight everyone"
"I'll follow you up" Edward said standing with me
"No, you can stay down here if you want"
"Believe me I'd rather be with you"
"Edward, I'm hurt" Emmett mocked placing his hand over his non-beating heart
"I'm sure you are" he mocked back
He placed his hand on the small of my back and guided me up the stairs. He went to go turn down the bed as brushed my teeth, conveniently checking to make sure the test was still there. I felt like I had OCD with the amount of times I kept checking.
"That was an easy going night" Edward said as he got into bed, he had no idea how relived I was "Although I much rather be all alone with you"
"It was nice and I love your family you know that" I playfully slapped him "And we were alone the past 2 weeks. They missed us"
"Just watch, soon they'll be wanting to get rid of us"
"I doubt that" I muttered under my breath
Once we added a baby to the mix I don't think anyone will leave us alone. I can already see Alice showing up at the bedroom door as soon as the sun rises to kidnap our child. Maybe we will get some time alone while everyone else is in baby dreamland.
"Regardless, right now I want to cuddle with you in bed"
I climbed into his arms and pulled him close. He surprised me by kissing down my neck as his hands moved over and under my shirt. I knew where this was going and quickly grabbed his hand.
"Hey your family is downstairs" I whispered "I don't feel like giving them a show"
He groaned but rested his hand on my hip and closed his eyes.
"Fine, you win" he snorted "Remind me to start looking for our own place tomorrow. Maybe a place where we'd have no interruptions or chance of someone hearing us"
"And maybe a porch" I added
"Nothing too big though, I mean it's just us"
"For now" I said so low that I hoped he didn't hear
"What do you mean for now?"
Damn it. I tried to sift through my brain for a plausible excuse.
"Well if my mom ever comes up then I want her to have some place to stay" yeah that worked
"Wait" he sat up "You really want to start looking?"
"I guess. Does that sound crazy?"
"No I mean that's really exciting I just didn't think you'd be into it"
"Well I know we can't live here forever. How will Carlisle and Esme feel if we move out?"
"I think they'll be sad at first. I mean I'm sort of the first one to officially get married and move out completely"
"I thought Rose…"
"They are technically 'married' but don't have a certificate of any sorts and they still live with Carlisle and Esme so…"
"Technically we'd be the first"
"Yes" he laughed "But you're serious about looking for a house?"
"I think I could be up to it but I want to pick out the right one. Something small but nearby"
"Well there's no rush. Don't worry about it now"
"Good because I'm exhausted"
"Then go to sleep my beautiful wife"
That night I dreamed about our beautiful baby in our beautiful new house.
When I woke up I was happy to not be running for the toilet since that probably would've given me away. Edward wasn't in bed but I could hear everyone talking downstairs. I groggily made my way out of bed and ran to the bathroom to make sure the test had remained untouched. I got nervous when I saw some towels laid out but thankfully the test was still where I put it. I made my way downstairs and over to the empty space next to my husband.
"Good morning love" he smiled placing a kiss on my cheek
"Good morning" I intertwined our fingers "Hi everyone"
Don't get me wrong I loved living with the Cullens but we were newlyweds, and I at least wanted my own space. Especially if there was going to be a baby here soon. That house was sounding better and better. I had decided that I wanted to tell Edward alone, somewhere far away where the family wouldn't have hopes of overhearing. I wanted it to be a special moment between the two of us and nothing was more special than our meadow. I had to find a way to ask him that wouldn't seem too obvious. But luckily Carlisle asked of everyone's plans.
"Em and I are heading to the field to hit some balls" Jasper said
"Rose and I are going shopping of course" Alice cheered "Bella would you like to come?"
"Actually I was hoping we could go to the meadow?" I looked up at my husband
"Sure. It might be a little chilly but we can go for a little while"
I smiled warmly at him "Great. Let me go get ready and then we can go"
I hoped off the couch and quickly threw on some jeans and sweater. I made my way to the bathroom and grabbed the test, trying to discreetly hide it in my back pocket. Edward was waiting for me at the bottom of the stairs
"Coat" he said holding it in front of me "And breakfast"
"Thank you kind sir" I slipped my arms through and took a bite of the banana
"Would you rather take the car or run?"
"The car" I didn't trust my nausea right now
He easily helped me into the car and we were off. He was right about it being chilly out because I could see the trees blowing in the wind so running would've been a little chilly.
"So what made you want to come to the meadow?"
"I wanted to be alone with you"
We made our way over to the patch of grass where purple flowers covered the field. I made sure to sit a foot away from him as I tried to work up the courage to tell him.
"I forgot how beautiful it was here, we should come here more often"
While he was staring mindlessly into the field I sat up on my knees and prepared to tell him the news that would forever change our lives. If I didn't do it now then I would chicken out.
"Edward?" I said nervously
"Yes?" he turned towards me
"I have something that I need to tell you and I'm not sure how you're going to take it but…"
"You know you can tell me anything" he smiled sweetly
"I know but this is… serious"
"You're scaring me now. What is it? Is it bad?"
"I don't think so but you might think differently"
He reached out to grab my hand but I recoiled back quickly. Instead I reached in my back pocket and pulled out the pregnancy test that now felt like it weighed a thousand pounds.
"Your heart is beating so fast, Bella what is it?"
He turned his head to the side curious as to what I was holding. I took a deep breath before handing it over to him. Once it was in his hands I knew there was no going back now. He flipped the test over in his hands and then gasped placing his hand over his mouth. It took a minute before he could talk and in that time I tried to keep my breathing even.
"Am I reading this right?"
"Yes" I tried to keep my voice strong
"How?"
"I…"
"I know how" he stopped me "I mean how is this possible?"
"Your guess is as good as mine" I shrugged wiping a tear
"I...I don't know what to say"
"You're shocked I get it" I mumbled suddenly sad that he wasn't jumping for joy "Believe me so was I"
"Extremely shocked, yes. When did you find out?"
"Yesterday. I went out to get a test while you guys were hunting"
"Why didn't you tell me yesterday?" he sounded hurt that I kept this from him
"Because I was trying to find the best way to tell you. I didn't want the family barging in"
"I can't argue with that"
"Look, I get it if you don't want this. I mean we never talked about having kids since it wasn't really an option. I never pictured us as parents and maybe there's a slight chance that the test isn't right but I haven't felt right the past couple of days and I'm late…" I realized I was talking to myself and he wasn't listening
I was nervous he would react this way, scared. I was just as surprised and confused as he was, maybe even more. The more I thought about the more I was growing on the idea. I could picture Edward holding a tiny baby in his arms while humming a lullaby. I think I wanted this. I looked at his face and saw the corners of his mouth lift up into a smile as he stared at the test in front of him.
"And I didn't think it could be possible to love you anymore" he whispered
I sighed in relief feeling the weight of the world had been lifted off my shoulders.
"You're happy?"
"Very shocked and confused, but very happy yes"
"That's good" I laughed "I thought you would be mad"
He scooted over to where I was sitting and pulled me into his lap facing him. He placed his finger under my chin so I was looking at him.
"How could I be mad? You've given me again- something that I thought I could never have"
"What was the first?"
"You" he placed a gentle kiss on my lips "Do you want this? I don't want to pressure you into doing this"
"I never pictured myself as a mom but I think I want this. The baby is half me and a half you, how could I not want it?"
I pulled him into a hug and he wrapped his arms around me. I felt so safe and comforted in his arms and I couldn't wait to start this journey together. After a while I pulled back and laughed.
"What?" he reached up to stroke my cheek
"I'm still not believing it" I admitted "That there's a baby growing inside me"
"I'm going to be a father" he placed a hand on my stomach "I'm just so happy"
"Yeah this is pretty crazy but like I said it was only one test and I'm not a hundred percent sure…"
"Then we should have Carlisle check you" he tried to pull me upwards
"Whoa hold on there I don't want to tell the family just yet, although I'm sure Alice already knows"
"Well she hasn't been hiding her thoughts from me and why would you want to wait?"
"Well I think we should go to another doctor, maybe in Seattle to make sure that I am pregnant and then I want to find a creative way to tell them"
"Creative huh?"
"Yes maybe hand them a sonogram picture or just casually bring it up in a conversation and see if they catch on... I don't know"
"We'll worry about that when we get there but right now let's just enjoy this moment"
He rolled me over so he was hovering above me and started placing kisses along my face and leading down to my shoulder. I relished the feeling of his kisses on my skin.
"So how far along do you think you are?" he asked
"I don't know I started to feel sick the day we left the island"
"I didn't notice that anything was different"
"I didn't either, I thought maybe I was just getting too much sun"
"Okay so if you started to feel sick then…that would only make you a little over 2 weeks"
"That's it?" it felt like I was further along
"Well if the baby is half vampire then you might be moving along more quickly than a normal pregnancy"
"So I might not be pregnant for a whole 9 months?
Was I only going to be pregnant for a couple months then have to give birth? That wasn't going to be easy to explain to my mom and Charlie. They'll think that the only reason we got married was because I was pregnant.
"I don't know. It may be a couple months or the baby's growth may slow down to a normal pregnancy. This is the first time I've heard about a vampire/human baby so I'm not sure what to except"
"But you do have three medical degrees so…"
"I don't have the knowledge of prenatal and OBGYN, which is why I want Carlisle to be our main doctor since he knows more about our kind. He can better take care of you. Let's make an appointment with a doctor in Seattle then go from there okay?"
"Okay" I placed my hands on my stomach
Our day at the meadow was cut short because it got really over cast and I could feel droplets of water hitting my face.
"Okay come on" Edward stood up brining me with him "Let's get you two home"
"I like how you said 'you two'" I was starting to get all giddy on how protective he was being already
"Okay let's go"
I lifted my hood over my head as the rain was starting to pick up as we walked back to the car. He pulled me closer to him in an attempt to shield me from the droplets and make sure I didn't fall. My vision was becoming blurry so I trusted him to guide me to the car.
"Here we are" he opened the door
Once he turned the car on I cranked up the heat and placed my hands in front of the heater. This was one of the things I hated about living here. It could be sunny and hot one minute then cold and rainy the next.
"Wow the house is quiet" I smiled walking in
"I guess everyone is still out"
He helped me take off my wet jacket and I plopped down on the couch wrapping a blanket around me. I hated being cold and wet.
"Cold?" he asked
"Just a little" I smiled "I'm going to go throw on some dry clothes"
He helped me off the couch and over to the stairs.
"I'm going to call the obgyn office in Seattle and see if I can get you in tomorrow morning okay?"
"Okay"
I walked into the bathroom and threw on some cozy sweatpants and a t-shirt. As much as I hated this weather it had its perks. There was nothing better than getting all cozy and lying in bed with your super sexy vampire husband. I was so happy that this was happening and Edward and I were in this together. What if when we went to the doctor tomorrow we find that I'm not really pregnant? Would I still want to have a baby? Or will I feel relieved?
"Okay they can get you tomorrow morning and 9 am so we just have to keep it to ourselves till then"
"Okay" I took a deep breath
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing, this is all just new to me. It's a lot to take in one day"
"I know love but we'll get through it"
"I think Alice already knows"
"Why do you think that?" he laughed
"I don't know, just a thought"
"Well let's not jump to conclusions okay?"
He climbed into bed and pulled me on top of him so he could look me directly in the eyes.
"So are you ready to go through with this? All the morning sickness, the swollen ankles, a big belly, labor?"
"You know, I'm not sure but we'll take it one day at a time" I kissed him "Are you ready to deal with mood swings for 9 months?"
"We'll take it one day at a time" he laughed