Authors Note: I do not own any character's in this story except for Stacie. I don't own the themes of Vampires or Werewolves or Imprinting. I'm just a Twilight fan who decided to write a fan fiction based on the novels by Stephenie Meyer. Enjoy. (:
Okay so I thought keeping a diary would be fun, but now I've come to the dilemma of how to start it, I don't want to write dear diary so I think I'll just write "hey", well I guess I'll write it now. (:
Hey.
Okay so today we headed over to the Cullen's, to see Jacob and Nessie and all the vamps. We had formed a pretty close bond after Nessie had been wrongly accused of being an "Immortal Child" and the Volturi (vampire police) were going to destroy the whole Cullen Clan, and we stood by them, we had their backs. Contrary to our previous tribal beliefs we actually could co-exist side by side and as friends. So as I was saying we headed over to their place and a few of us just had a bit of a chat, Emmett and Paul were playing the X-Box, and Edward, Jasper, Carlisle, Embry and Quil were joking around and arm wrestling. I watched Jacob with Nessie, she was about 16 now, and they were so cute together. It hurt to watch them but I couldn't drag my eyes away, I was so jealous. I had that, just for a little while.
See, Sam had imprinted on Emily and some strange urge inside of me wanted to imprint too, so I found this girl who sat next to me all through high school and created the "lovey dovey" romantic story of our imprinting. Truth is I actually didn't have feelings for her at all, but I lead her along for a bit, I didn't tell her anything about the pack or vampires and one day when I came back from doing a run around the perimeter with the boys I found her in bed with some guy (who was only in town for a week anyways), I pretended to get pretty angry and she left and moved with him up to woop woop. I didn't want to know and didn't want to see them ever again. Even though I had no feelings for her I was upset, I had at least a fake form of love. Love was just something I guess I always longed for, so seeing Jacob and Nessie, I just wanted something like that.
Jacob saw me looking at them and said "Hey Jared, what's up?" I tried to pass it off as daydreaming but he knew me better than that, he left Nessie on the couch talking to Alice and took me outside to talk, we went a fair way away from the house so that we wouldn't be heard. I spilled out everything, Jake said that one day I would fall in love and I would just have to wait, he said there was a chance that I could imprint (well everyone else in the pack had), and that the moment would come. I did thank him for his advice but I really didn't want to handle this much more, so I went back to my place and this is where I am now. I'm pretty tired and seeing as my dreams are the only place where I can find love, I think I might head off to bed.
Jared (: