This is my new one-shot/ songfic. Those who are reading my other story, don't worry i'm finishing that up too! Anyways, I own nothing but Roxanne :) Please enjoy!
The Break-up and Make-up of Roxanne and Troy
All to Myself - Mariana's Trench
I don't patronize
I realize I'm losing and this is my real life
After the break-up between Roxanne and me, I've never been able to talk to her. She'd always walk away from me or turn away when I would come near.
I'm half asleep
And I'm wide-awake this habit is always so hard to break
I walked into the caf to see her sitting with her best friend Jenna. I sat down with the rest of the Wildcats and kept looking at her.
I don't want to be the bad guy
I've been blaming myself and I think you know why
Ever since we broke up, I could see the sadness that has taken over her. She never smiled like she used to, and came to basketball practise with anger and sadness dancing in her eyes; and this was all because of who I decided I wanted to be.
I'm killing time (I'm killing time), and time's killing you every way that I do
She looked over to my table and frowned when she saw I was looking at her. She picked up her tray and stormed out as Jenna followed behind.
Did you say
Please just follow me
I thought you wanted me
Cause I want you all to myself
I can try and suck it up
I just can't suck it up
Make me feel like someone else
I got ready to get up and follow her myself until…
"Hey Troy." Gabriella's annoying voice said as she sat down beside me. "Where are you going?"
"Nowhere" I said as I sat back down; losing all the courage I just saved up.
Please just follow me
I thought you wanted me
Cause I want you all to myself
I can try and suck it up
I just can't suck it up
Make me feel like someone else
I knew Roxanne was calling for me deep down inside, to take away all the pain that I had caused her. She tries so hard everyday not to fall apart; and I can see that. I'd even heard through Chad that all she does is go home and cry her eyes out and Jenna spends countless hours to try to help her.
I'm under the gun
Feel like the only one just can't decide what I'm running from
"So Troy, any plans tonight?" Gabriella asked. I ignored her as I kept trying to get up again.
"Troy… did you hear me?"
This isn't what I wanted but
I can't keep my filthy fucking mouth shut
I finally got up and left the caf and followed the direction I thought Roxanne and Jenna had gone. I walked through the hallways to see Roxanne grabbing her stuff for her next class.
"Roxanne, please can I talk to you?"
It's not enough (It's not enough) it's never enough
And I wish I could breathe without it getting stuck
She stared blankly at me as if she didn't know who I was. She turned away and marched down the hall. "Jenna, I'm finished!" She called after her best friend. She treated me like I wasn't even there. It felt like I was about to stop breathing.
Can't focus it (Can't focus it) but I try it over and over again
"Roxanne, please!" I screamed after her. She kept the same pace as if she never heard me.
Did you say
Please just follow me
I thought you wanted me
Cause I want you all to myself
I can try and suck it up
I just can't suck it up
Make me feel like someone else
I walked back into the caf and grabbed Chad and dragged him out with me.
"What's wrong?" He asked.
"I want her back so bad, I need her, Chad. I need her!" I screamed.
"You need to talk to her, let her know how you feel."
"I've tried, she won't listen. She doesn't care; like how I didn't care…"
Please just follow me
I thought you wanted me
Cause I want you all to myself
I can try and suck it up
I just can't suck it up
Make me feel like someone else
I sat in my last two periods of classes as I thought of Roxanne at an alarming rate. Her smile, her touch, her voice; meant everything to me. Every girl in East High wanted me, and I wanted her. She left me in the dust, and I deserve every last particle that is stinging my lungs.
Na na, na na, na.
I walked into the gym for basketball practise to see the rest of the team warming up. I could see from every practise we had, that Roxanne used all the anger she had built up inside, she used it in every game we played.
Please just follow me
I thought you wanted me
Cause I want you all to myself
I can try and suck it up
I just can't suck it up
Make me feel like...
I needed to talk to her; I was going to talk to her. No matter what it takes. I waited for practise to end so we could talk.
The boys ran into the change room as Roxanne took her time going into the female change room. I walked up to her. "Can we talk?" I asked. She looked me off and started to walk away, again.
I grabbed her arm.
Did you say
Please just follow me
I thought you wanted me
Cause I can't stay with someone else
I'll try and suck it up
I just can't suck it up
I want you all to myself
She automatically turned around, surprised.
"Roxanne, I know you don't care what I have to say; but I'm gonna say it anyways. I know you hate me for what I did, and I hate myself for it too. I never fell out of love with you, I'll always love you. I need you Roxanne, you're what makes me what I am everyday. Every girl here wants me, and I want you. I just want you to want me too. I understand if you won't take me back, but I want you to know that I'm sorry."
I closed my eyes and swallowed hard, getting ready for her to walk away. I soon realized when I still felt her arm in my grasp, she was still there. I opened my eyes and saw her tearing up.
Did you say
Please just follow me
I thought you wanted me
Cause I want you all to myself
I can try and suck it up
I just can't suck it up
Make me feel like someone else
I stood there, shaking in my knees. Who would have thought Troy Bolton would ever feel this way? I watched as one single tear slid down Roxanne's cheek, and I grabbed her and pulled her into me. I wrapped my arms around her as I heard her start crying. Were these tears of happiness?
She pulled away and looked up at me.
"I want you so bad, Troy. You don't know how much you mean to me."
I placed my hands on her face and passionately kissed her as I felt her join in too.
Na-na na-na na!