Life just wasn't fair. First, it was my mother choosing her jerk of a
boyfriend over me and then her abandoning me yet again. Now, my girlfriend,
the one girl I thought I could trust chose some guy she barely knew over
me. I tried to warn her. I tried to save her. I loved her. So much so that
I did everything in my power to save her from his grasp.
But a darkness stronger than love took over her every being. She believed Oliver. And soon, jealously drove Oliver mad, to the extent where he killed himself and put even put Marissa's life at risk. He loved her enough to kill. Ironic, seeing as how Oliver claimed he loved Marissa so much, but yet, who in their right mind would put the person the love at risk? Then again, he wasn't exactly in a right mind now was he?
Then it happened. Just as I knew it would. She tried to come back to me. She tried to have things go back to the way they were. But would I let her? No. I can't risk that again. Didn't she understand that things could never be the same? I opened up my heart once and I got burned, big time. I'm not willing to make that mistake again.
The one person I trusted with my heart betrayed me. She was the first person I ever said those three words to. I'd never heard them before. My mother, although she tried, couldn't love me the way a mother should love her child. She had too much crap going on in her own life to deal with me. My dad, I hardly knew him. And my brother, he was too busy getting stoned to give a shit about me.
But Marissa, she loved me. And I loved her, more than anything in the world. Yet she didn't see that. All she saw was my inability to deal with her having another male friend. It's not my fault I'm protective. I mean it's that whole alpha-male gene. It's the whole male-protector side that all guys have that kicks in once I see her being threatened in any way. Trey taught me to keep everything that was mine close to me so I'd never lose it. Maybe I kept Marissa too close. Maybe I should have just let her do whatever she wanted. Maybe it's my fault I lost her.
Trey was right. I'd never fit in here. This world's too different. Marissa, we are from two different worlds. And right now, I can't deal with having a relationship with you. My heart won't be opened again. Not for a long time. I can't take that risk.
But a darkness stronger than love took over her every being. She believed Oliver. And soon, jealously drove Oliver mad, to the extent where he killed himself and put even put Marissa's life at risk. He loved her enough to kill. Ironic, seeing as how Oliver claimed he loved Marissa so much, but yet, who in their right mind would put the person the love at risk? Then again, he wasn't exactly in a right mind now was he?
Then it happened. Just as I knew it would. She tried to come back to me. She tried to have things go back to the way they were. But would I let her? No. I can't risk that again. Didn't she understand that things could never be the same? I opened up my heart once and I got burned, big time. I'm not willing to make that mistake again.
The one person I trusted with my heart betrayed me. She was the first person I ever said those three words to. I'd never heard them before. My mother, although she tried, couldn't love me the way a mother should love her child. She had too much crap going on in her own life to deal with me. My dad, I hardly knew him. And my brother, he was too busy getting stoned to give a shit about me.
But Marissa, she loved me. And I loved her, more than anything in the world. Yet she didn't see that. All she saw was my inability to deal with her having another male friend. It's not my fault I'm protective. I mean it's that whole alpha-male gene. It's the whole male-protector side that all guys have that kicks in once I see her being threatened in any way. Trey taught me to keep everything that was mine close to me so I'd never lose it. Maybe I kept Marissa too close. Maybe I should have just let her do whatever she wanted. Maybe it's my fault I lost her.
Trey was right. I'd never fit in here. This world's too different. Marissa, we are from two different worlds. And right now, I can't deal with having a relationship with you. My heart won't be opened again. Not for a long time. I can't take that risk.