Title: Tell Me About It
Type: AH/AU
Rating: M for paranoia, subject matter, and future citrus.
Summary: At 18 years old, Isabella Swan has never really been away from her home in Forks, but now she's off to college and dragging her best friend Jacob Black along. The start of college means a new begin and a painful look back. When the wounds are ripped open at their seems, will Bella's new neighbor be able to stitch them closed again, or will he to be nothing more than a new scar?
Disclaimer: I own nothing. If I did, I'd still be writing on here but not from my living room in my mothers house. Also that's the only time I'll say it.
Point Of View: Bella's for now.
Quote Of The Day: You'll Never Leave Where You Are Until You Decide Where You'd Rather Be. - Author Unknown
18 years here and I'm finally getting out. No more constant cloud cover, no more endless rain. I would miss the beauty of the luscious green and I would miss my friends, my family, and my home but it was time for me to move on. For now at least.
Besides, I at least get to take my best friend with me and Forks will always be here for me to visit.
"Are you finished packing yet Jelly Bean?" my best friend Jake called up to me.
I laughed as he came bouncing into the room wearing his favorite Madonna shirt and blue jeans with a rainbow studded belt. If that didn't scream queen in the small town of Forks, nothing would. Thankfully the people of Forks and neighboring reservation La Push were very accepting of Jacob.
"Does it look like I'm finished packing, Jake?" I asked him, gesturing around my half empty room.
"To be honest Jelly, it doesn't look like you'll ever be done packing."
I sighed and laid my head on his shoulder. He was right, as he often was. I would never be completely packed because as much as I wanted to, I couldn't take everything with me.
"Don't worry. The house and everything in it will still be right where you left it when we come back, Jake reassured me.
"Yeah, it's not like Charlie will go all Mr. Clean on me while I'm gone," I conceded.
"Sue might though," he laughed.
"Nah," I decided, "She'll be too busy with Seth to even bother with my room," I shot back.
As much as I loved my step-brother, he was a complete and total slob. A hazmat suit was a definite pre-requisite for entering his room.
"Oh God, she shouldn't even attempt anything with his room. She'd die of exposure and I love her far tom much for her to die such a cruel death," Jack said laughing his ass off. I could only imagine the images running through Jake's perverse mind right now.
I shoved a box of books that I could barely lift into his muscular arms and shoved him towards the door. "Put it in the moving van mister. Or would you like to crash here again tonight?" I asked, slapping his butt as he went.
I couldn't help but laugh at his quickly retreating form. Neither of us wanted to put this off any longer. We both knew if we didn't get out now we might never get out.
As I packed up the final box I would be taking with us, I finally started breaking down. The tears came fast and hard, not giving me a chance to prevent them.
Jake came upstairs silently, taking the box of knickknacks from my arms and set it on my floor. Without a word, he engulfed me in his arms, and more importantly, his love.
After holding each other up for 18 years through the worst shit in our lives. , we always know just what the other needs and right now, I just need a hug.
10 minutes later, Seth came bounding into the room wearing nothing but his running shorts. He was glistening with a light sweat so I doubt he'd actually run that far.
"I knew you weren't gay!" Seth announced. "You love feeling my sister up way to much."
I laughed and my tears fell from joy now, not sorrow. I would miss this life and my family but I knew I had to do this. Everything would still be here when we got back.
Jake, not to be outdone, said, "Come here big boy and I'll show you just how I swing."
I couldn't stop laughing as Jake stalked forward towards a scared Seth. Seth backed up until he bumped into the closet door. He scrambled in and locked the door behind him.
"Come on out big boy! You can't hide in there forever," Jake taunted.
When there was no response from Seth, Jake tried again, "Fine pookie, don't come out. But at least let me in. We can play 7 hours in heaven."
"I thought it was 7 minutes in heaven," I chuckled.
"Not the way I play it honey," Jake said deviously, winking at me.
I laughed a little more before picking up my final box and walking towards the stairs. I could hear Seth's screams behind me mixed with Jake's cackling laughter.
Paul, Quil, and Embry, were standing beside the moving van when I came out. Sam, Emily, Leah, Collin, Brady, and Jared were just pulling up.
"Hey boys!" I called out to them.
"Hey Bella!" They called back before Quil grabbed the box out of my hands and bounded over to the truck to put it in with the rest of Jake and I's garbage.
"Why is Seth screaming?" Embry asked.
"Jake must have got the closet open," I laughed.
"Ah…" was all anyone had to say. We all knew what it meant.
Embry came over and gave me the first of what was sure to be many hugs.
"Be safe angel," he whispered in my ear.
"You'll find her one day. Just be patient. Love has a funny way of sneaking up on you," I whispered back.
Paul came up next, hugging me with nearly bone crushing force.
"Come back to us some day tiger kitten," he whispered in my ear.
"Don't sweat the small things and don't lose your temper. Life's a series of ups and downs. Your going to get back to the top eventually," I told him.
Quil came back over to give me a hug and a soft kiss on my cheek.
"Go show the world just what your made of. Never let the big city bring you down baby girl. You're stronger than they'll ever know," he whispered quietly.
"Take care of Claire. She needs you more than you'll ever know," I whispered back giving him one final squeeze.
Sam walked up 6'7" and scary as hell if you don't know him. He wrapped his arms around my waist and picked me up, hugging me close. He was always the father of our little group.
"Be good and don't break too many hearts," he chuckled in my ear.
"Take care of my bun in the oven. That baby is worth twice his or her weight in gold," I giggled as he tossed me up before catching me.
Emily came up next. Her marred face pulled up in a still beautiful smile. Her scares were long and cruel. A testament to the bear that attacked her.
"My precious angel. You're all grown up. Take Chicago by storm baby girl," Emily whispered. If Sam was the father figure, Emily was definitely the mom.
"I will. You're beautiful. Never forget that. And your baby will be beautiful too," I told her, wiping the tears from her face.
Emily went to stand by Sam once again as Collin and Brady rushed towards me. They sandwiched me between them and I could quickly feel my lungs begging for air.
"Can't…breath…" I choked out.
"Eat a deep dish for us!" The said together.
"Go cliff diving as often as you can for me," I laughed.
Jared came up next, tentatively hugging me. I laughed and held him tight until he relaxed.
"Don't forget us," he sighed.
"As long as you don't forget me," I told him, kissing his nose, which I had to climb half way up him to reach. Freaking giants…and I'm the midget.
Finally only Leah was left. "Still hate you," she muttered.
I laughed hugging her as I whispered, "Still hate you too."
Leah and I have always had a unique relationship. Sister or not, I would always love her. But when we first became sister, lets just say hate doesn't real cover what we felt for each other.
I walked over to stand by the rest of the boys as Seth came running out of the house with Jake hot on his heels.
Seth ran and hid behind Leah, his strong as nails sister.
"Hand over the boy and no one gets hurt," Jake growled towards Leah.
"Touch the boy and you'll spend your life as a eunuch. Got it?" Leah hissed back.
"You win this one, but I will be back some day. Just remember that," Jake told Seth through Leah's chest.
"If you're done torturing my brother, we should get gone," I chuckled.
"Oh I'll never be done but you're right, we should go," Jake sighed.
Jacob went through his goodbyes as I took one final look at the house I'd spent my first 18 years. Where I lost my first mom, found my true mom, and had the best and worst childhood a girl could have. Charlie tried but bad shit still managed to find me.
The day Renee had walked out of my life, I'd cried. But the day Sue walked in, I never looked back. Walking out when I was 5 was the best thing she could have done for Charlie and I. Sue, Leah, and Seth made our lives complete. Renee sent the odd Christmas and birthday card every now and then but it was never consistent it was always full of bullshit lies.
"Let's go, shall we?" Jake suggested.
I climbed into the cab of the truck as Jake started the engine. As he put the car into drive and pulled away, I felt my heart lighten and the adrenaline rush my system. I was finally free. Well…like 3000 miles closer to free anyways.
It's gonna be a long ride. I propped my feet up on the dash and sighed.
"How far do we have to go?" I asked Jake as we passed Forks High School and the past flew out the window.
Jake laughed and said, "About 2200 miles princess."
"Ugh," I groaned.
5 minutes later and Jake started singing, "East bound and down, loaded up and truckin'! We're gonna do what they say can't be done. We've got a long way to go and a short time to get there. I'm east bound, just watch ole bandit run."
A very long ride indeed!
A/N: So…this is the first chapter. It's pretty different from what I normally right. I am only going to say this once so don't forget it m'kay? My Jacob is gay because I want him and Bella to have a non-threatening relationship. This isn't going to be an all sunshine and roses story, so expect pain, sorrow, and people to fuck up. No I don't have a plan or an outline. I write what's in my head and heart. I'll write chapter 2 as soon as possible. This doesn't mean the end of Things Remembered but I need a break from all of it. So tell me what you think. : ) As in REVIEW! Outfit's are on my Polyvore. Link is on my profile.