Broken (Strum und Drang)
" Wandering somewhere between darkness and light, between dream and reality through the cold night I watch the last light of life fade away, as on this stormy path, yet of calmness I stay."
Once my life was bright. But now my life is dark, very dark. To say it clearly, I will use a metapher. Once there was a Porsche 911 Turbo, that blinded me with its full beam. But now the car had went around the bend and everthing went black. My eyes were blinded by the light, now I can't see anything that is as beautifull as this wonderfull yellow Porsche 911 Turbo. Bella was this car. And when Bella left,or,to be more specefic, when I left her, she took the reason of live with her. Now I were wandering between dream and reality. Even if I can't sleep, I dream of her (and of that Porsche...between you, me and the bedpost I've not choose this car without a reason for this metapher...). All in one every thought I thought since I left her refer back to Bella. I watch the last light of life fade away. The last light of life was hunting Victoria, so I can be sure, that she cannot attack Bella once more.
"Frozen eternal I'm cursed with this blight. For I'll never again see the light!"
Yeah...I definitively will never again see this light of that porsche...too bad. I wonder how fast this car...oh I get off the subject...Naturally I mean that I would never see Bella again, but it was my own fault. Who was the one, who left her behind? Crying and in pain? Right. It was me. Oh, what a stupid fool am I?
"Time will destroy me so slowly. Broken forever and ever. Never again will the sun rise on this sky. My wings of steel like a dry autumn leaf. I am broken!"
I could imagine how sappy this must sound to you...but this is exactly the way I feel. I'm not myself without Bella... Even if time does'nt matter much for vampires, it could destroy us, maybe it'll not kill us, but it makes our life harder. If you found someone you love more than your own life, you would die for him, but that's easier said than done if you were an vampire...