Ok guys, so it just wouldn't leave me alone until I at least did the 1st chapter. So, now that this is out of the way, I am almost finished with the7th chapter of SOSD?! And it will be up in a few minutes as we speak! Bear with me guys, I'm getting the writing bug lately so more chapters are on the way! :) Please R&R! Thanks so much! :D
Chapter 1: The Last Day of My Life
*Present Day – September 23rd, 2005
Have you ever wished you could go back in time and change certain things, things you said or done, things that put your life on a path of loneliness and memories; one that you never wanted to go down? Well I have, my name is Paul Levesque, and this is my story.
I still remember that fateful day, just like it was yesterday. I remember where we were, what we said to each other, but one thing I don't remember is why I gave up. I gave up on everything we had, and it hurt. It still hurts since I know that I could have had the fairytale, the kids with the white picket fence, and the beautiful wife. I could have had everything a man ever dreams of, but I made a mistake, a huge mistake in letting her go. Now I lay here in this cold, empty bed and can't help but think what might have happened, had I not given up.
*FLASHBACK* 5 years ago - October 12th, 2000
"Paul, you can't do this. You can't walk away. We were meant for each other, don't you get that?" She stands by my locker room door, staring at me with those blue eyes, the eyes I get lost in every time I look at her.
"Stephanie, we both know this relationship will never work, it doesn't matter if your dad does give us back his blessing, this whole relationship will eventually go to hell, that's how my life works. My life never works out how I want it to." I sit down on the black, leather couch against the opposite wall and sigh. I place my hands over my face hoping she won't see the tears running down my face, but then again she knows me better than anyone, better than I know myself.
She walks over and sits down beside me, she wraps her arms around me and I let it out, letting the tears fall as I realize that this was it. This was the last time we would ever be this way. The last time I would get to hold her, the last time I would get to wipe her tears away. The last time I would get to look in those big, blue, beautiful eyes, right before I kiss her.
I look in to her eyes and I realize I need her now more than ever. If all of this is going to end; and I know it has to, than I'm going to end it by kissing the woman that I'm in love with, the only woman that has ever had my heart. I lean in slowly, making sure she wants the same thing before I jump to conclusions, but I think I may be moving too slowly for her liking. Because, the next thing I know she grabs the back of my head, and pushes it forward until our lips meet. They meet and it is like falling in love with her all over again, but then again that is how all of our kisses are. They're always so amazing and passionate, they're always so full of life, and neither of us ever wants to stop for air.
We sit for a few moments trying to kiss the pain away. But, that will only work for a little while, then we'll have to jump back into reality and we both will realize once again that I'm leaving and we're through. I back away slightly and look at the beautiful woman in front of me, her lips are swollen and her eyes are tightly shut, like she's trying to never let go of what just happened. Same for me, I wish we could stay in this moment forever, but we can't, because time doesn't work that way, it has to keep moving forward and so do we.
She finally opens her eyes and when she looks at me, I can still see the twinkle in her eyes, and it lets me know that for right now, she still loves me, and that makes everything else just that little bit better.
I stand up and step towards the locker room door; I stop myself from taking another step and turn back around. When I look back at Stephanie, she isn't looking at me, she is looking in the opposite direction and that hurts, it hurts like hell. I turn back around and start walking back towards the door, I pick my gym bag up off the ground, turn around one last time to make sure I haven't forgotten anything, and when I see that I haven't I turn back around quickly. As I open the gym door, I stop one last time and look towards her. The woman of my dreams, she's my everything and I am nothing without her. As I look at her I'm begging, pleading that she looks at me one last time, and she does. She looks up and there are tears running down her face, I want to run over to her and comfort her and never let her go. However, I know that I can't so I smile at her with that grin that she's always loved about me so much, and I blow her one last kiss. She smiles back at me and giggles, and then blows me a kiss back. I turn around and as I walk through the locker room door, I say the last thing I feel, "Stephanie, I love you forever and always." I step out of the room, and I can swear before I turn to leave, I could swear I heard her say, "I love you more!"
*END FLASHBACK*
*Present Day*
I sit up on my bed, thinking about that life changing day. It was a day of lasts for me. It was the last day I genuinely smiled, the last day I saw her, the last day I spoke to her, the last day I touched her, the last day I kissed her, hell as far as anybody is concerned, it was the last day of my life.