She's sitting in the front seat of her truck, she can't accept what's happened just minutes before. She doesn't want it to be her. She's terrified of having to let go of Bo so soon after she's met her, right as she's getting closer to her. "Why does it have to be her, anyone else would be fine so why her?" Her desperate whispers lost to the night.
"Sometimes, when I like someone I have to make them go away." Those words come back to haunt her, mock her, and it's happening again. The guilt, the pain, is a tsunami laying claim to your person. She can barely hold back the tears she's been fighting for so long. She just can't help her feelings for the succubus, no matter how hard she tries.
She had tried to deny it, to shove the feelings down, pretend they weren't what she knew deep down they were. She had to accept them now, no excuse could change the outcome of what was to come, the guilt making it even more real. You can't hide your feelings from yourself much longer.
She shouldn't be feeling like this, nothing good ever comes from her having these feelings. The last time this happened, the last time you thought you could be happy, that it'd be different, that you finally wouldn't have to be alone anymore. That maybe you could let down those walls you're so tired of having to hold up, having to rebuild and maintain, you had to say goodbye.
They tried to take her memories of the past from her, her punishment, but there's just some things you can't forget. The feeling that's been slowly building over the past weeks since you've met her, you've felt it before. It's not love, but she knows it's only a matter of time before it is. She's falling far faster than she thought possible. She knows that if Bo is truly chosen, she might not survive what lies in store for her. If that were to happen...the mere thought is all it takes for the tears to fall. She can't lose her.
"I can't lose her. I can't go through this again."
She can't. She doesn't know if she'll have enough strength in her to even try and pick up the pieces let alone put them back together, she's broken enough as it is, her heart's too shattered already.
She doesn't even realize when she got out of her truck, or when she started running, but she doesn't stop, she let's her heart guide her, her fears looming on the horizon.
She's standing in front of Lauren's apartment door, hand poised to knock. She's hesitant to knock in case the human's returned, but she knows even in her state she would have noticed, with that in mind she starts to knock. Her hesitance noticeable, the faint knocks growing louder in her desperation to see her and make sure she's still alright. Finally after what feels like eternity, the door opens showing a disgruntled Bo, sleep ghosting her features.
"What do you-Tamsin? What's wrong are-" She doesn't let her finish as she throws herself at the shorter woman enveloping her, crying into her hair.
You're relieved she's not gone yet. You know it's silly, she wasn't just going to up and die or disappear in an hour or so, the trials haven't started after all, but you had to see her with your own eyes.
Bo doesn't bother to question what's wrong she figures you'll tell her when you can, instead she just holds you, trying to comfort you. You can't even recall when someone last held you like this, can't remember when someone last..cared.
She knows then what she has to do, she won't lose her, she refuses to, especially when there's a chance for something more with the unaligned succubus, with Bo. So she reigns in the tears, takes a deep breath in, squares her shoulders, and pushes away from just enough to see her face. She's gotta be strong for the both of them, their future's at stake, their lives. She finds the strength she needs in Bo's arms, which hold her close. Looking into the other woman's eyes, her gaze serious, she starts her confession, her promise. "Bo, some real tough shit is going to go down soon, and I'm not completely sure it'll just be the dawning, but you have to promise me you'll survive, Bo please. I don't care what the fuck I have to do, but I'll help you any way I can to get you ready. I- I can't lose you Bo…"
The tears flow freely once more, but this time it's not just you who's crying.
She finally understands the severity of the situation.
A/N: I couldn't help myself. I'm sorry but this ship is taking over my life and I'm working on a fanart of them as well. There just needs to be more fics out there for this pairing damn it. Sorry for my crappy writing I'm rusty as hell .-. Then again I was never really good at it lol