Chapter 1 Attack at the Dursleys
To look into the smallest bedroom at 4 private drive, in Surrey, Was to have been shocked at the sight of Harry Potter. He had gotten home 5 days ago and The Boy Who lived, or as Harry though thinks, The Bloody Boy doomed to die. He was so lost in this thought and blaming himself for the death of his godfather and Cedric that He had not left his room in five days other then to use the restroom. His Aunt and Uncle fearing the Order of Phoenix was bring him his meals. Usually just Sandwiches, not that Harry ate more then a bite or two of these.
So Harry looked rough, His clothes were the same ones he had worn home that dreadful day that he left his friends. His Hair was getting Greasy enough to match the Potions Professor's at Hogwarts. Harry didn't care he was spiraling down in Depression and when not Depressed he was in a rage that made the Weasley temper look like a walk in the park. Both were bad, Cause both seemed to follow the other and it was a cycle Harry needed to get out of. The few Minutes of clarity Harry had after the rage attacks He knew he had to plan on training No choice really. He wanted to live and to live he had to become strong enough to defeat Voldermort, or at least learn the power he knows not.
At the moment Harry was sleeping though. To see him, He was curled up in a fetal position. Harry was also whimpering. Not that his scare was hurting at all, no Harry was lost in Nightmares of his own Making. Voldermort would appear and kill Ron; then Lestrange would appear and kill Hermione then the Weasley family would get killed. Then Sirus and Cedric would appear and blame him for their deaths.
All of the sudden Harry sat straight up and then reached out grabbed his wand and glasses. The Glasses going on his face as he starts to scan the room. Harry sees He is alone expect for Hedwig. Harry thinks, God just a nightmare, just a night. Harry then raised and walked to his desk, were he sat down to think.
Now as Harry thought and remembered his dreams the Anger came. Harry Blamed Voldermort for destroying families even his own. Harry blamed Lestrange for taking Sirus from him. Harry Blamed Wormtail for taking his Family. Harry was so mad he got up and started to pace the room. To see Harry in this mode was scary. Harry's Magic started to build. His eyes were glowing with his limited powers; the air was crackling with the energy dancing around Harry. All the sudden there was a hoot, then another and Harry turned and looked at Hedwig and the snapped out of his anger when He saw Hedwig looking at him with wide eyes.
Harry says, "Sorry Hedwig, for scaring you."
Harry sat down again and then looked at the desk, while He was in control of his emotions he needed to write a few letters. He had to in his rage He would just rant, in his depression he would just not write. And Harry knew he needed help just not sure he wanted it.
Harry decided to make a list of people he could talk to if need be. It was a start and he just needed to start.
The List was, People I could talk to. Ron, Well I could talk to him but he doesn't handle emotion stuff well. Also not sure that he wouldn't be Jealous over not being in the Prophecy. But he does back Me up a lot and My best mate Hermione, well she would cry then want to go to the library and start to look up spells or ways for Me to defeat the Dark Lord, she is to stressed out over work thought to bring in on this. And she would tell Ron. Ginny, she would listen, but don't feel comfortable around here enough to share this with her. Neville, he could have been Me. And I do not think he could handle this yet, I will help him be ready though. Luna, She might listen, but do not want to drag her anymore into this then she is. Mrs. Weasley, she would luck Me up in her attic and never let ME out again.
Dumbledore, don't trust him enough anymore Mr. Weasley, Now he might let me talk and rant, but he has six children and doesn't need anymore. Lupin, Friend of Sirus, and my parents, best bet as He has helped me in the past and still not let me down him and Hermione. Hagrid, can't keep a secret very well, if you know he knows it. Other wise he would be one I could talk to.
Harry stopped there. He just still wasn't sure what to do. Harry was at a lost so he though he would write the letters he had been thinking the most about. Harry writes to Dumbledore and his friends.
Headmaster,
Sir I would like to say I am sorry for trashing your office. That was very wrong Of Me. I am also writing cause I need to get some things off my chest.
First, My trust in you in highly shaken, after what I found out about the prophecy, and that you kept it form Me for so long I am not sure how I could trust again. But sir, I know I have to trust you again, cause you are one of the few that Might be able to help. So give me time and I approach you when I am ready. Otherwise I am not sure what you could do to get my trust back.
Second, I need to either get out of her or get someone I could talk to. Sir I am going from depression to rage every day, I fear if I do not talk to someone, or get some outlet for myself I will lose it. Then I would do something rash, like go after Voldermort on my own, and you know I am not ready for that.
I do not care who you send as long as it isn't Snape or yourself.
Finally, I need to go to Diagon Alley, I have to prepare and I plan on buying books and some other equipment. Also I need to go to Gringotts to change gallons to pounds so I can buy some new clothes.
Thank you
Harry.
Harry sent that letter aside and then started on the next one to his friend Ron.
Ron,
Hey mate, sorry I had not written you before this, I am just not in the best place, I wish I was at your house so we could play chess and Quaditch. Though Honestly Ron, with what I found out, I am not sure I would really want to be at your house. Ron things are going to change all I can ask if you will still be my friend, no matter what happens.
Ron, I also was wondering if you could ask the twins to visit here. I need them to pick up something for me and I do not want people to know what it is. So thank you for asking them.
Oh and Ron I want to know how your really doing after the brains attack on you. I am sorry I could not help you much but there were to many of them for me to not lead them away from you. Please forgive Me Mate.
Harry.
Then Harry wrote to Hermione.
Hermione,
I hope this letter finds you well. I am sorry you followed me to DoM and got hurt. I wish it had been Me.
Hermione do not worry I am as well as can be here. I wish as I was anywhere but here, but Magic can't grant wishes.
Hermione, do you think I could borrow books on any advanced spells on charms, hexes and Transfiguration? I want to continue with DA and I need to make plans on what I want to teach them.
Hermione, I now seriousness, I know your going to be upset at Me, but I have to ask you to rethink your friendship with Me. You will see Hermione I am nothing but trouble and just maybe you should talk to Ron and both of you drop me from your friendships. I know I will need Friends but I do not want them to get hurt so I am going to try protecting my friends but not hold my breath.
Harry.
Harry then wrote to Remus, who had written him a few letters.
Remus Lupin,
I am sorry I have not written you before today. I miss Him Remus, I miss me him a lot and I am not sure what to. Sir you helped me with My Dementor problem in third year. Well with out Sirus here I need someone to talk about. Well talk about missing him and talk about other things. Sir I am still wearing what you saw me in last. I can't bring myself to care enough to go change my clothes. My hair could match Snape's. One-Minute Remus, I am so depressed I am just lying in bed. The next Minute I am stomping around my bed in a rage and wanting to go after Voldermort and his deatheaters. Rationality doesn't come to me that much, but when it does I know I need someone to talk to. Could you please press Dumbledore to send someone to talk to me?
I am sorry to dump on you. I have no idea how to deal with this and I am afraid that some of the things we need to talk about would cause the other adults in my life to want to lock me away and hide me till I was old enough to run my own life. Please I just need to talk to someone I am hoping that Maybe you could help me get over my grief.
Harry
Then Harry called Hedwig over to him and tied the letters to her and asked her to deliver them. Then Harry raised and went and threw himself on the bed. He pulled out Sirus wand. He started to just twirl around his fingers. His eyes starring at the ceiling.
Meanwhile, at Hogwarts, in the headmaster's office, Remus Lupin, Molly Weasley, Author Weasley and Ablus Dumbledore were talking.
Remus says, "Ablus, Harry needs to be with His friends. None of the house guards have seen him come out of the house. Those that have looked in haven't even seen him come down to dinner or any other meals the Dursley's have had. He seems to be doing nothing but laying in bed, and Ablus even you have to know that is not safe for Him to be else were Harry needs his friends."
Ablus responds, "I am know Remus, I know. I am helping to put More wards around some other places he can go. As soon as I can get them in place I will let Him move out of his Aunt and Uncles. Till then He has to stay, Remus."
Molly interrupts, "Ablus how can you leave him there were nobody cares for him or is even seeing he eats!?"
Author laid a hand on Molly, "Molly we promised each other that would keep our cool, and not shout at Ablus."
Just then Hedwig came into the room and landed in front of Ablus and extended her leg. Ablus took the letter then Hedwig hoped over to Remus and extended her leg again he took his letter from her.
Both read their letter in silence, and then look up at each other.
Remus says, "Ablus Harry basically asks if I can come talk to him before he falls apart. I am going to go Ablus no matter what you say but I want your blessing."
Ablus sighs and the three are shocked to see him looking so old then he says, "Yes Remus go to Harry and try to help him, and let Him Know I am sorry."
They all looked up but then a jewel On Ablus's desk starts to glow. Ablus leapt up to his feet and turned to the three Adults.
"Author, Remus please come with Me," Lifting the jewel, "This shows that the wards around Harry's house are down."
Molly grasps Remus and Author leap to their feet Ablus continues, "Molly take this portkey it will put you down at the back of Harry's house get in grab him then uses this key to get him to Grimmauld place. Were hopefully he will be safe." He turns and hands a paper to Fawkes who takes it and vanishes. "Remus, Author your going to help me stop who ever took down the wards, lets flow to Ms Figgs house."
Meanwhile at #4 Private Drive;
Harry was sitting in his room when he heard someone outside yell out, "Avada Kadavra!"
Harry jumped up and ran to his window. Dam down on the street was at least six Deatheaters, they were at least a few hundred feet from the house and one had just killed a muggle policeman. Harry thought bloody hell, He needs to get out here. Harry moves back to his trunk and throws it open reaches in and grabs his invisibility. What to do he thinks then yes he knows what to do. Harry goes back to his window and opens it. Harry points his wand down at the deatheaters.
Harry says quietly, "Stupefy, stupefy, stupefy." And watches his three spells go off. The lights fly down and hit three of the deatheaters they drop. The other three start to throw spells back at the window.
Harry ducks the sends Impedimenta and then the Perfection curse, then the boil curse. Harry keeps sending up throwing charms and curses out there hoping that they will do something for him and yes they are there is the first owl the second. Oh yes a third Owl from the department of Underage Magic. Harry then hears more pops and looks down yes in front of his house has come four Aurors to take Him in. Harry watch them spin and start to fight with the three Deatheaters.
Harry sighed he escaped the Deatheaters he hoped but now he would need to get away from the Aurors. Harry slips the cloak on when he hears his door opening. Harry spun around wand up and sees Mrs. Weasley entering his room.
Harry quickly uncovered himself and looked to Mrs. Weasley, "Mrs. Weasley what are you doing here?"
Mrs. Weasley, "Harry I have come to get you out of here, grab on to me."
Harry reaches over and grabs Mrs. Weasley and then she activates the portkey and is gone to the street in front of Grimmauld. Mrs. Weasley quickly moves Harry up and into the house before anyone could see them.
To look into the smallest bedroom at 4 private drive, in Surrey, Was to have been shocked at the sight of Harry Potter. He had gotten home 5 days ago and The Boy Who lived, or as Harry though thinks, The Bloody Boy doomed to die. He was so lost in this thought and blaming himself for the death of his godfather and Cedric that He had not left his room in five days other then to use the restroom. His Aunt and Uncle fearing the Order of Phoenix was bring him his meals. Usually just Sandwiches, not that Harry ate more then a bite or two of these.
So Harry looked rough, His clothes were the same ones he had worn home that dreadful day that he left his friends. His Hair was getting Greasy enough to match the Potions Professor's at Hogwarts. Harry didn't care he was spiraling down in Depression and when not Depressed he was in a rage that made the Weasley temper look like a walk in the park. Both were bad, Cause both seemed to follow the other and it was a cycle Harry needed to get out of. The few Minutes of clarity Harry had after the rage attacks He knew he had to plan on training No choice really. He wanted to live and to live he had to become strong enough to defeat Voldermort, or at least learn the power he knows not.
At the moment Harry was sleeping though. To see him, He was curled up in a fetal position. Harry was also whimpering. Not that his scare was hurting at all, no Harry was lost in Nightmares of his own Making. Voldermort would appear and kill Ron; then Lestrange would appear and kill Hermione then the Weasley family would get killed. Then Sirus and Cedric would appear and blame him for their deaths.
All of the sudden Harry sat straight up and then reached out grabbed his wand and glasses. The Glasses going on his face as he starts to scan the room. Harry sees He is alone expect for Hedwig. Harry thinks, God just a nightmare, just a night. Harry then raised and walked to his desk, were he sat down to think.
Now as Harry thought and remembered his dreams the Anger came. Harry Blamed Voldermort for destroying families even his own. Harry blamed Lestrange for taking Sirus from him. Harry Blamed Wormtail for taking his Family. Harry was so mad he got up and started to pace the room. To see Harry in this mode was scary. Harry's Magic started to build. His eyes were glowing with his limited powers; the air was crackling with the energy dancing around Harry. All the sudden there was a hoot, then another and Harry turned and looked at Hedwig and the snapped out of his anger when He saw Hedwig looking at him with wide eyes.
Harry says, "Sorry Hedwig, for scaring you."
Harry sat down again and then looked at the desk, while He was in control of his emotions he needed to write a few letters. He had to in his rage He would just rant, in his depression he would just not write. And Harry knew he needed help just not sure he wanted it.
Harry decided to make a list of people he could talk to if need be. It was a start and he just needed to start.
The List was, People I could talk to. Ron, Well I could talk to him but he doesn't handle emotion stuff well. Also not sure that he wouldn't be Jealous over not being in the Prophecy. But he does back Me up a lot and My best mate Hermione, well she would cry then want to go to the library and start to look up spells or ways for Me to defeat the Dark Lord, she is to stressed out over work thought to bring in on this. And she would tell Ron. Ginny, she would listen, but don't feel comfortable around here enough to share this with her. Neville, he could have been Me. And I do not think he could handle this yet, I will help him be ready though. Luna, She might listen, but do not want to drag her anymore into this then she is. Mrs. Weasley, she would luck Me up in her attic and never let ME out again.
Dumbledore, don't trust him enough anymore Mr. Weasley, Now he might let me talk and rant, but he has six children and doesn't need anymore. Lupin, Friend of Sirus, and my parents, best bet as He has helped me in the past and still not let me down him and Hermione. Hagrid, can't keep a secret very well, if you know he knows it. Other wise he would be one I could talk to.
Harry stopped there. He just still wasn't sure what to do. Harry was at a lost so he though he would write the letters he had been thinking the most about. Harry writes to Dumbledore and his friends.
Headmaster,
Sir I would like to say I am sorry for trashing your office. That was very wrong Of Me. I am also writing cause I need to get some things off my chest.
First, My trust in you in highly shaken, after what I found out about the prophecy, and that you kept it form Me for so long I am not sure how I could trust again. But sir, I know I have to trust you again, cause you are one of the few that Might be able to help. So give me time and I approach you when I am ready. Otherwise I am not sure what you could do to get my trust back.
Second, I need to either get out of her or get someone I could talk to. Sir I am going from depression to rage every day, I fear if I do not talk to someone, or get some outlet for myself I will lose it. Then I would do something rash, like go after Voldermort on my own, and you know I am not ready for that.
I do not care who you send as long as it isn't Snape or yourself.
Finally, I need to go to Diagon Alley, I have to prepare and I plan on buying books and some other equipment. Also I need to go to Gringotts to change gallons to pounds so I can buy some new clothes.
Thank you
Harry.
Harry sent that letter aside and then started on the next one to his friend Ron.
Ron,
Hey mate, sorry I had not written you before this, I am just not in the best place, I wish I was at your house so we could play chess and Quaditch. Though Honestly Ron, with what I found out, I am not sure I would really want to be at your house. Ron things are going to change all I can ask if you will still be my friend, no matter what happens.
Ron, I also was wondering if you could ask the twins to visit here. I need them to pick up something for me and I do not want people to know what it is. So thank you for asking them.
Oh and Ron I want to know how your really doing after the brains attack on you. I am sorry I could not help you much but there were to many of them for me to not lead them away from you. Please forgive Me Mate.
Harry.
Then Harry wrote to Hermione.
Hermione,
I hope this letter finds you well. I am sorry you followed me to DoM and got hurt. I wish it had been Me.
Hermione do not worry I am as well as can be here. I wish as I was anywhere but here, but Magic can't grant wishes.
Hermione, do you think I could borrow books on any advanced spells on charms, hexes and Transfiguration? I want to continue with DA and I need to make plans on what I want to teach them.
Hermione, I now seriousness, I know your going to be upset at Me, but I have to ask you to rethink your friendship with Me. You will see Hermione I am nothing but trouble and just maybe you should talk to Ron and both of you drop me from your friendships. I know I will need Friends but I do not want them to get hurt so I am going to try protecting my friends but not hold my breath.
Harry.
Harry then wrote to Remus, who had written him a few letters.
Remus Lupin,
I am sorry I have not written you before today. I miss Him Remus, I miss me him a lot and I am not sure what to. Sir you helped me with My Dementor problem in third year. Well with out Sirus here I need someone to talk about. Well talk about missing him and talk about other things. Sir I am still wearing what you saw me in last. I can't bring myself to care enough to go change my clothes. My hair could match Snape's. One-Minute Remus, I am so depressed I am just lying in bed. The next Minute I am stomping around my bed in a rage and wanting to go after Voldermort and his deatheaters. Rationality doesn't come to me that much, but when it does I know I need someone to talk to. Could you please press Dumbledore to send someone to talk to me?
I am sorry to dump on you. I have no idea how to deal with this and I am afraid that some of the things we need to talk about would cause the other adults in my life to want to lock me away and hide me till I was old enough to run my own life. Please I just need to talk to someone I am hoping that Maybe you could help me get over my grief.
Harry
Then Harry called Hedwig over to him and tied the letters to her and asked her to deliver them. Then Harry raised and went and threw himself on the bed. He pulled out Sirus wand. He started to just twirl around his fingers. His eyes starring at the ceiling.
Meanwhile, at Hogwarts, in the headmaster's office, Remus Lupin, Molly Weasley, Author Weasley and Ablus Dumbledore were talking.
Remus says, "Ablus, Harry needs to be with His friends. None of the house guards have seen him come out of the house. Those that have looked in haven't even seen him come down to dinner or any other meals the Dursley's have had. He seems to be doing nothing but laying in bed, and Ablus even you have to know that is not safe for Him to be else were Harry needs his friends."
Ablus responds, "I am know Remus, I know. I am helping to put More wards around some other places he can go. As soon as I can get them in place I will let Him move out of his Aunt and Uncles. Till then He has to stay, Remus."
Molly interrupts, "Ablus how can you leave him there were nobody cares for him or is even seeing he eats!?"
Author laid a hand on Molly, "Molly we promised each other that would keep our cool, and not shout at Ablus."
Just then Hedwig came into the room and landed in front of Ablus and extended her leg. Ablus took the letter then Hedwig hoped over to Remus and extended her leg again he took his letter from her.
Both read their letter in silence, and then look up at each other.
Remus says, "Ablus Harry basically asks if I can come talk to him before he falls apart. I am going to go Ablus no matter what you say but I want your blessing."
Ablus sighs and the three are shocked to see him looking so old then he says, "Yes Remus go to Harry and try to help him, and let Him Know I am sorry."
They all looked up but then a jewel On Ablus's desk starts to glow. Ablus leapt up to his feet and turned to the three Adults.
"Author, Remus please come with Me," Lifting the jewel, "This shows that the wards around Harry's house are down."
Molly grasps Remus and Author leap to their feet Ablus continues, "Molly take this portkey it will put you down at the back of Harry's house get in grab him then uses this key to get him to Grimmauld place. Were hopefully he will be safe." He turns and hands a paper to Fawkes who takes it and vanishes. "Remus, Author your going to help me stop who ever took down the wards, lets flow to Ms Figgs house."
Meanwhile at #4 Private Drive;
Harry was sitting in his room when he heard someone outside yell out, "Avada Kadavra!"
Harry jumped up and ran to his window. Dam down on the street was at least six Deatheaters, they were at least a few hundred feet from the house and one had just killed a muggle policeman. Harry thought bloody hell, He needs to get out here. Harry moves back to his trunk and throws it open reaches in and grabs his invisibility. What to do he thinks then yes he knows what to do. Harry goes back to his window and opens it. Harry points his wand down at the deatheaters.
Harry says quietly, "Stupefy, stupefy, stupefy." And watches his three spells go off. The lights fly down and hit three of the deatheaters they drop. The other three start to throw spells back at the window.
Harry ducks the sends Impedimenta and then the Perfection curse, then the boil curse. Harry keeps sending up throwing charms and curses out there hoping that they will do something for him and yes they are there is the first owl the second. Oh yes a third Owl from the department of Underage Magic. Harry then hears more pops and looks down yes in front of his house has come four Aurors to take Him in. Harry watch them spin and start to fight with the three Deatheaters.
Harry sighed he escaped the Deatheaters he hoped but now he would need to get away from the Aurors. Harry slips the cloak on when he hears his door opening. Harry spun around wand up and sees Mrs. Weasley entering his room.
Harry quickly uncovered himself and looked to Mrs. Weasley, "Mrs. Weasley what are you doing here?"
Mrs. Weasley, "Harry I have come to get you out of here, grab on to me."
Harry reaches over and grabs Mrs. Weasley and then she activates the portkey and is gone to the street in front of Grimmauld. Mrs. Weasley quickly moves Harry up and into the house before anyone could see them.