He lounged on the window ceil in Shigure's office. He was there for another of Shigure's lectures most likely. It was the second time in two weeks that he was in Shigure's office. It had to be some kind of record, Shigure wasn't one to give out lectures very often, but maybe the reason Kyo was here, in his office again, was worth lecturing about.

"Kyo, this is serious." Shigure said, massaging his temples. "You need to understand that it isn't the end yet, you still have time."

'Time' Kyo mentally scuffed, 'Time had abandoned me, love hasn't even met me and, hope is a thing of the past.' He thought depressed.

"You're worrying Tohru with this silence bit, you know her she thinks it's her fault." Shigure said, sighing when he got know response. "You can leave if you're not going to talk back." He said, a hint of anger in his voice.

Kyo got up and went to his room. 'My hole. To rot in until I'm taken away to a new one, where I can rot till I die.' He flopped down on his bed and stared at the ceiling.

Kyo POV, Start flashback

I remember that day, I'll remember that day till I rot in hell. The day Hatori came over without even calling, he came and took me to the main house, to see Akito.

I had entered and sat on the floor, eye glued to my knees.

"My little monster." Akito said, running his hand though my hair. "My ugly, disgusting, lowly monster…" he whispered in my ear. I shuttered, I hate it when he touched me, with his disgusting, pasty hands.

"You still haven't beaten Yuki, hmm, how did I know, oh wait. It's because you'll never beat him, because you are inferior to my precious Yuki. My beautiful Yuki can never be beaten. And to think you actually thought that you could." He said and started to laugh hysterically. "And if I recall you made a bet with me, well you only have a year left and I've decided to withdraw my lots." He said casually.

"What! You can't do that!" I said, looking up startled.

"Yes I can, and I just did. You will be put in the cage to rot, just like all the other cats before you." He said laughing, "What? You thought you were better than all the other cats? No, if anything you are lowlier, you are the scum of the earth. To think I'm actually doing everyone a favor, locking you up. All you do is take up room, time, and money, what better way to be rid of you then lock you up in cage that hasn't been use in almost thirty years."

"No, you promised, you can't do this…"

"Stop telling me what to do." Akito hissed, kicking me in the stomach.

I hunched over, coughing. "No, please, Akito."

"What was that, 'please'? Well you said the magic word." Akito went the bureau beside his bed, and pulled something out, but I couldn't see.

He walked back over to me with it in his hands, "My little monster, I will make you pay for even existing…" He smiled cruelly and brought out a whip and hand cuffs.

My eyes widened with fear. "Please, Akito, don't—'

He grabbed my hair and through me against the wall. I fell to the ground, helpless to save myself from the Sohma god.

He cuffed my hands and the hung me on a hook on the wall, probably there for this very purpose, 'Sick bastard!'

"My monster…" He purred in my ear. "So helpless… At this moment you actually remind me of my precious Yuki." He stepped back, ripping off my shirt.

"Please don't…" I practically whimpered.

"Oh but I want to." He suddenly lashed out with the whip, hitting me as hard as he could, I didn't scream, with all my might I would refuse he the pleasure of hearing my scream.

He hit me again, and again, I could tell that he was getting annoyed, with the urgency with which his strokes came in contact with my back. One victory. One thing that I would have, silence. Pure Silence. And nobody could take that away from me.

I don't remember how I got home, I think that during the beating I fell unconscious.

End flashback

It had been two weeks ago, but it felt like only a few hours ago. He had missed school, being unable to walk because of the tremendous beating Akito had administered. Although now he could walk he still ditched, he didn't have the energy nor the patience to even want to have to face his classmates, he'd rather stay home in his hole.

A muscle spasm sent a shock of pain through his back, he clinched his teeth.

Shigure had talked to him, because Kyo had taken to not talking, not a word, grunt , or even an audible sigh. Not a sound. He had also taken to cutting.

'They don't understand, no one understands, and I don't intend to tell them, I don't intent to ever tell anyone anything.' Kyo smiled as his stomach growled, he wasn't about to go get something to eat, either.

He was going to slowly wait as he rotted away. The sweet agony. He couldn't remember when he first realized that he liked pain, maybe after all of the beatings he took from Yuki, it was to be expected.

There was a knock on the door. He ignored it, it was probably Tohru, she would just go away if he didn't get up and answer it.

"Cat!" The door was shoved open. It was Yuki. Yuki? That was new.

Kyo slowly turned his head toward Yuki, his face an emotionless mask.

Yuki closed the door, and sat on the floor next to Kyo's futon. "I want to talk." He said slowly, looking Kyo in the eyes.

"…" no response from Kyo.

"Will you shake your head 'yes' or 'no' at least?" Yuki asked, annoyed.

Kyo shrugged. Good enough.

Yuki looked down at his hands for a time, when he looked back up he had shed his mask of perfection, he had allowed he turn emotions to show. "Kyo I'm worried about you, stop this." He said tears brimming at the edge of his eyes.

'He said my name…' Kyo thought in wonder, 'What's going on?'

Yuki sat forward and grabed Kyo's hand and looked at the wrists, "Kyo." He whispered. And then he kissed the woolen and bloody cuts. "Kyo stop this." He broke down in tears.

All Kyo could do was stare at him, confused and amazed.

"Kyo, please come back to us, your so thin, you so withdrawn, please stop this, stop hurting my—' he sobbed, 'my Kitty." He leaned toward Kyo lightly brushing his lips in a chaste kiss.

'Does someone love me? Have I found love in the one I thought was my worst enemy? Or could it be a sick game?'

"Kyo you're breaking my heart, I loved when you would fight me. Now I don't even see you. Kyo I love you, and you're scaring me." Yuki kissed his wrist again, holding the palm of his hand to his face. "I love you."

"Prove it."

Yuki looked up startled to hear the slightly hoarse, but familiar voice.

"What?"

"I said, prove it." Kyo said, taking his hand back and turning around so that his back faced Yuki.

'He's beaten me again, he's broken the one thing I thought I had, Silence.'

Yuki came forward, pulling Kyo back onto his back, and then kissing him, full on the lips, with all of the passion he had stored up for so long.

"I love you, and I'm never going to let anyone have you."

Kyo couldn't stop, even if it was a lie, and cruel game, it felt to good to kiss Yuki, it felt too right.

"I…" Kyo hesitated, he couldn't bring himself to say anything, to break what was happening, to ruin it, he wanted it to last, even if in the morning Yuki would smirk and call him a faggot.

So he let Yuki kiss him, make love to him, and fall a sleep with him in his arms. Even if in the morning it all melted away, leaving him in an even deeper despair, he wanted it to last.