A/N: I don't own anyone. The song is Breathe Slow by Alesha Dixon.
I'm running out of patience
'Cause I can't believe what the hell I'm hearing
And speaking of hell it don't compare to this heat
That I am feeling
I love you too much it shows
All my emotions go out of control
Good for you bad for me
When I can hardly see from the tears that flow
Selena threw them magazine down. She couldn't take it anymore. She wanted her so badly, but she couldn't believe what Demi had done again. On the front cover of the magazine was a picture of Joe Jonas and Demi Lovato looking at each other with love struck eyes. It was taken at their date a couple of days ago. A couple of days before Demi said she couldn't keep dating Selena in secret. That it was too much to bare. That they were better off as friends for now. Selena looked at it again she hadn't noticed she started crying.
Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten with my eyes closed
'Cause ladies take it in and get composure
Before I lose it get composure
I am gonna breathe slow
Count from one to ten with my eyes closed
'Cause ladies take it in and get composure
Ladies never lose composure
Selena closed her eyes and looked out the window of her bedroom. She took a deep breath to stop the painful beating of her heart. She counted silently in her head hoping to calm her nerves. She knew she had to relax and let it out without doing something she'd regret. She didn't want to lose herself so she breathed in slow again even though she kept crying.
Not gonna lie or even try
You've got my wheel spinning
And I ain't the one to shoot the gun
'Cause that means you will be winning
I love you too much it shows
All my emotions go out of control
Good for you bad for me
When I can hardly see from the tears that flow
Selena texted Demi from her position on the floor where she had been crying for the past hour. Take me back was the first thing she sent. Selena I can't the first reply she got. Why? I need you. She waited minutes later did Demi text back. I can't I'm sorry. Selena needed Demi so much. Please, I need you. She waited for a reply before texting her again. I love you, Demi. Another ten minutes passed before she got a reply. I'm sorry Selena, but I don't so please just stop. Selena shook as more tears spilled from her eyes.
Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten with my eyes closed
'Cause ladies take it in and get composure
Before I lose it get composure
I am gonna breathe slow
Count from one to ten with my eyes closed
'Cause ladies take it in and get composure
Ladies never lose composure
Selena couldn't live without Demi. She took another deep breath and tried to push away all the feeling inside. It was impossible so she kept forcing herself to breathe. She wanted to breathe normally, but she couldn't so she kept counting hoping her composure would be back to normal.
Somebody better hold me back
You're lucky I know how to act
So lucky I ain't gonna attack
I'm being calm and cool
But believe me you it's taking everything to just breathe
Breathe breathe
Selena was lucky Taylor lived a few minutes away and that the blonde would be over for movie night later. Demi was also lucky Selena could get guilty easily because if not Demi would be in the hospital. Selena kept a low profile for the next weeks. She made sure to live like she normally would. She saw Demi once or twice, but no one noticed how she stiffened. Or how she forced herself to breathe, no one did other than Demi.
Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten with my eyes closed
'Cause ladies take it in and get composure
Before I lose it get composure
I am gonna breathe slow
Count from one to ten with my eyes closed
'Cause ladies take it in and get composure
Ladies never lose composure
Selena was doing better. It had been two months since her break up. She was happy again and became the Selena everyone knew. Whenever Demi was mentioned she didn't break down. She just nodded her head and kept going. When she saw Demi she did have to force herself to breathe. Yet she breathed as more of a sign to Demi to watch out. Selena still counted to slow down her breath once in a while, but only when Demi stood to close. Soon she wouldn't need to. Because soon Demi would be the one who would have to breathe slow. Three years passed and Selena didn't have to breathe she was giving her heart and soul to someone who would never break her heart.
Can't forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten with my eyes closed
'Cause ladies take it in and get composure
Before I lose it get composure
When Demi saw the invitation to Selena's wedding she forced herself not to cry. When she sat with the rest of guests she forced herself to breathe normally. She even counted to ten. When Selena hugged her she held her breath and when she saw arms wrap around Selena's waist Demi closed her eyes and breathed out. Demi forced herself and looked at Selena and Taylor in the eye and congratulated them. She acted like a lady should no matter how much it hurt to see Selena with someone else. Demi breathed again asking if this was how Selena felt when they broke up.
I am gonna breathe slow
Count from one to ten with my eyes closed
'Cause ladies take it in and get composure
Ladies never lose composure
Composure