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Why was I like this?I had always felt cold and empty inside.I hated more people that I could keep track of,while my heart was as cold as ice and made of steel.I never really talked in school,and never had any friends.
I kept everything buried inside.I didn't have anyone to talk to,and it was better that way,because if I didn't have any friends,if I didn't open up to anyone,sure I'd feel alone and trapped inside,but at least I wouldn't end up leaving anyone. Because if that feeling I had was real,if my deepest,darkest wish were to come true,than I wouldn't even live to be seventeen.
There are several things that I am afraid of,even if they sound completly rediculous to you.I am afraid to live,to love.I am afraid of the past and the future,of reality and the unknown.I'm afraid of needles,nurses offices,docters offices,and hospitals.
I love the darkness,and horror movies. You may think that it sounds cruel,but I always laugh when people die in horror movies.I am in love with anime. Truly,it is the only thing that has prevented me from taking my life,or any one eals's for that matter. It brings me hope,that mabey,someday,I will be able to leave this pointless,empty world,and replace it with another.
I just want to leave this place,and all my unwanted memories behind,forever.
And little did I know,I would soon be getting my wish;both of them.
My alarm clock buzed loudly into my ears. My hand slambed into it,and the annoying sound imidiatly stoped.I got up from my bed and looked around my room.
My bed was queen sized,the sheets were black and the pillows a sea blue. My dresser was a deep mahogany,the walls and carpets were black,and the curtains hanging from my windows matched my pillows.I had a mahogany desk,with a black labtop setting on it. Thats my Toshiba. It,and my MP3,are my most prized possesions.
Well,those and the several anime posters that are rolled up and hid in my walk in closet.I don't want anyone eals to see them but me.
I walked into my closet and looked over my wardrobe. There was a lot of black,but it's one of my favorite colors,so I can't complain.
I picked up a black tanktop,black skinny jeans,red boots,a red and black checkered belt,and red fingerless gloves. Yep,this would be my outfit for the day.I love my goth/emo look.
I walked back into my room,grabed my MP3 from my desk,and walked into my own privet bathroom.I took a shower,changed into my new clothes,and listened to my MP3 as I brushed the knots from my long black hair. Than,I put eyeliner on and some black and red eyeshadow around my eyes,but not much.
I exited my bathroom,grabbed my school bag from the arm of the chair in front of my desk,slung it over my left sholder,and exited my bedroom.I went downstairs and into the kitchen where my gay ass little brother was setting at the table slurping down his cereal. He's eleven years old,and nothing but a pain in the ass. He has brown messy hair and brown eyes.
"Dakota,hurry up and get your shoes on,or your gonna be late" I told him.
"Make me" he bit back,"Moooom,come put my shoes on for me,I'm to tired to"
My mom than came into the room and proceded to put his shoes on for him. She had brownish-blonde hair,and brown eyes.
"Tyler!"I yelled up the stairs at my half 's older than me by five months,and is the only one in my family that I don't acually want to kill horribly.
He came stomping down the stairs as my mom put Dakota's coat and backpack on for him. Tyler is kind of...different. He likes anime like me,but doesn't let anyone at school know. He doesn't have too many friends and he spends most of his time reading. I love to read too,just not exactly the same things he does. He reads the Percy Jakson series,and stuff like that. He has dark brown hair,brown eyes,and is pretty tall. He's starting to grow a beard and mustache,he has side burns,and he would have a unibrow if he didn't shave it off. I think he got tired of me teasing him about it.
He had a green and white t-shirt on,slightly baggy jeans,and a green backpack slung over his shoulder. Tyler and I than walked out the back door and crossed our backyard with Dakota running after us.I looked back up at my house. It's a two-story house,with clean white paneling and bushes in the front. It was a really nice house.
The three of us walked through a small sliver of trees at the end of my backyard,over the traintracks imediatly behind my house,and over a small abandoned field. At the edge of the field sat a small,quaint cafe. It's paint was worn out,and the building had been standing here in the small town of Sedalia since the 1920's.
The three of us stood out in front of the cafe,where the bus would be coming to pick us up. I looked up at Tyler and thought about our father. Our dad and his mom got into a car accident when we were three years old and died. Thats why he lives with us. If his mom were still alive,he would most certainly want to live with her.
The bus pulled up as I shoved the headphones for my MP3 back into my ears. We baorded the bus,and Dakota,being a middle-schooler,had to sit in the front,while Tyler and I,highschoolers,got to sit in the back. As I sat down,one of my favorite songs, Cute Without the 'E',came on.
I leaned against the window,my knees pulled up against my chest,and hummed softly to the music as I watched the scenery pass by. I loved the bus ride to shool. I could just listen to music peacefully,and I could watch as the sun rose. It was also very quiet on the bus in the mornings. In the afternoons,it's horribly loud,which is why I walk hom from shcool and refuse to take the bus.
But,more than anything,it really just gave me more time to think. I think all the time;on the bus,laying on my bed in the dark for an hour befor I go to sleep,and walking through the woods on my way home. In between those times of thinking is school,anime time on my Toshiba,and sleeping. I'm not really an active person because I don't like it when people watch me run. I guess it's just a pet peeve of mine.
I was looking at an ambulence driving into the 'emergency' part of the hospital as the bus drove by,when a familiar pain filtered into my chest. I groaned softly as I helt my stomach. My lunges,heart and stomach hurt,but it was a pain that I had become accustomed to. I have never told anyone of my pains,because knowing my luck I'd have some horrible desiese that I could die from,and probably will die from. I would have to go to the hospital to get it treated,and there is no way in hell that i'm going there. I'd rather die slowly and painfully from a bullet to the lunges,than go to the hospital and live. I've never been too keen on life anyways. Acually,I'd much rather prefer that the world ends in 2012,and get death over with so we can all move on.
But enough of my morib thoughts,I thought as the bus pulled up in front of the high school. The door opened,and everyone rushed out while I waited paciently for everyone to get off. As usual,I was the last person to get off. I walked to the cafetiria,where students were supose to eat breakfast and just hang out befor school stated. I walked over to the darker side of the building and sat up against the wall. I pulled out a book from my bag and began reading it untill we were dissmised to go to our first hour class.
For me,that would be my math class. As always,it was boring and I understanded everything was art,which wasn't so bad becaused I loved to draw and paint. Than there was science. Yawn. I have a straight A in every class,but science was the one that chalanged me. God,it was so boring. After that was academic focus,than P.E,next was one of my favorites,my liturature class,than history,and than finally,spanish.
I listened to 'Dance with the Devil' by Breaking Benjiman as I walked through the woods after school. I really loved that song. But after that song was over,my all time favorite came on. It was 'Sophomore Slump or Comeback of the Year' by Fall Out Boy. I couldn'd help but sing along.
As I finished singing,I made my way out of the woods and was face to face to with a rapid river. I had always had to pass through the deep river by jumping from the gient rocks that suck up in the middle,so I didn't think twice about jumping my way across. The water was a little deeper than usual because of a hudge thunder storm we had a few days ago. I love thunder storms. And the rain. And the dark. But that's completly off topic,so ima gonna stop rambling now.
I was in the middle of the river. I jumped to the next rock,but my foot slipped. I fell back,and my head slamed into the rock that I had been previously standing on. Blood gushed from my head,but I didn't really notice as the rapids pulled me under the water. My mind was fuzzy,and even though I was still concious,still able to move my limbs,I didn't strugle. I allowed my self to be pulled down further into the darkness. I couldn't breathe anymore,and I watch the crimzon color of blood swirl around as my eyes slowly fell.
As I slowly died in the freezing cold rapids,blissfuly awaiting what would come next.
Well,here it is. Chapter one. I know it sucked,but it will get better...hopfully...
Anyways,most of the things in this chapter are based on my real life,so it's really made-up. Somethings are different,but mt general thoughts and feelings are the same. I highly recomened listening to the songs mentioned in this chapter ^^ they're epic!
Please reveiw! I love hearing wheather this story is good or not. It puts me in a good mood,and when I'm in a good mood I write. So if you want a second chapter,reveiw!