Chokehold.. New story.. Just read it.. and well tell me what you think.
I don't own Kim Possible or any disney related character. If I did I wouldn't be sitting here whilst writing this. I would be in my big ass villa and I would be drawing Kigo Cartoons.
Thank you.
Chokehold
It was black, cold and dark. The world seemed empty even though it was filled. A shivering breath escaped a pair of frozen dark lips. A Shiver ran down a spine, hands and arms desperately tried to warm the body that they belonged to. Without success, the body remained cold and almost completely numb underneath every touch. Every touch was icy, cold, a temperature that no human could bare for longer than a few minutes.
Though with will power and a strong mind, one could survive. Staying out of reach of the cold darkness that lurked around every corner. It was the one thing that could keep someone alive.
Shivering uncontrollably, breaths visible when exhaled and cold creeping into every bone. She didn't know how she ended in this situation. All she knew was that she had to push on, she had to fight her way out.
She took every chance she got, reaching for the warmth, feeling it on her skin as it lighted her dark world. She didn't know if it was just a state of mind. She didn't know if she was really caught in a dark place where loneliness threatened to consume you. What ever it was, it seemed never ending and undefeatable.
"Help." She croaked out in a hoarse barely audible voice. Yet darkness remained and nobody seemed to reach out to her. She seemed stuck, stuck for eternity in a dark and lonely place. She was desperate. Desperate to break free and the thought of succeeding was the only thing that kept her going.
Her once warm and fiery personality had been extinguished by the cold. Her fire at its brightest not bright enough to chase away the darkness. Only one person could save her from her cold, lonely and dark prison. Only one person was on her mind as she kept pushing herself beyond her limits.
That very person had left her in this state. Unaware of the dangers and the situation one could get stuck in once placed in such a state. It hadn't been conscious, every cold bone in her body told her that. She was convinced that the one, who had left her like that, didn't have a clue. So reaching out for that person was her only hope of returning.
Flashes of her past haunted her, holding her in a chokehold as they tortured her. The mistakes she had made the things she had done. All of them, they came back and never seemed to let go. With their somewhat ghostly arms they wrapped around her neck and held on.
It was after what seemed an eternity that she seemed to feel different. Unfamiliar warmth entered her body and light shone upon her. Afraid of what was to come but too curious to let it pass. She reached out and got swept away in a world opposite of the one she had been stuck in all this time.
Pulled out of her dark and lonely prison. Pushed into a warm and welcoming world for the first time in what seemed ages. A muffled and inaudible voice came to her ears. The voice started to become clearer after each second that passed. The voice was that of a young girl and it was filled with love. The girl seemed to plead and it was heartbreaking to hear it. Unable to withstand any longer she opened her eyes, blinking as they met light after such a long time.
Her vision was blurry and she couldn't quite make out what was going on. She heard the voice switch from sad to happy and almost relieved. She continued to blink and tried to focus on anything that was within her vision.
"I thought I had lost you." The voice clearly said to her. She looked up at its source and saw red. All she could see was a sea of red hair and nothing more. Her vision was still too unfocused and blurred to make out any details at the moment. Though she felt relieved that she was no longer surrounded by darkness.
"You saved me." She said finding her voice after what seemed an eternity for her. She felt a hand on her cheek and the hand guided her head. She took in a sharp breath when she came face to face with the red she had seen just seconds ago. This time it seemed near and seeing it from up close she realized she could focus her vision better.
She could make out a nose, lips and a pair of green eyes. Those green eyes looked at her intently and they held an emotion that she didn't recognize.
"C-come closer." Her voice trembled and the red blur obeyed. The green eyes became clear and the face to which they belonged followed soon after that.
She suddenly felt that chokehold again and gasped. Her memories came flooding back, her past haunted her at the very sight of that oh so familiar face.
The gasp startled the red head and she pulled back, turning into a blur within seconds.
"I'm sorry." She heard the girl murmur. She looked how the blurred girl turned away and all of a sudden she was scared. She saw how the blur started disappearing as she walked away. Desperately with unfocused vision she reached out and tried to stop the red head.
"Don't leave me." She whispered just loud enough for the other girl to hear. The girl returned to her side and the warmth returned with her.
"W-who am I?" Her focus on the red head became clear and what she saw made her smile. It was a happy and welcoming face, her green eyes sparkled and she wore a small smile.
"I used to call you Shego," The voice said. "Your real name is Selene." Shego or rather Selene thought about the names and came to a conclusion.
"I prefer Shego." She said and she heard the red head giggle a bit.
"I thought you would." Came as a reply and Shego found herself smiling for unknown reasons. Her smile, however, faded when she realized something. She didn't know whom she was talking to. The face she was looking at seemed very familiar. Yet she couldn't completely find the person in her memories.
"But who are you?" Shego asked gently and she saw the smile on the red head's face disappear slightly.
"My name is Kim Possible." As soon as Shego heard the name she found herself gasping for breath. She grabbed for her throat; her eyes squeezed shut and visions of Kim flashed by.
Kim pulled back, not knowing what to do. She grabbed Shego's shoulders and shook her slightly.
"Shego, calm down. Calm down, are you okay?" She repeated over and over again. As soon as they had come the visions disappeared and Shego slowly released her throat. She opened her eyes again and breathed slowly as she looked at Kim.
"I know you." Shego uttered in disbelief and Kim simply nodded.
"We used to be enemies, we fought all the time. That came to an end when your employer died. You stepped over to the other side and we became friends." Kim replied and a blush covered her cheeks. Shego cooked her head and looked at the girl intently.
"We're more than just friends." Shego said as she remembered subtle parts of her visions. She had seen them fight, she had seen them hug and she even seen them kiss. She was certain they were more than just friends, her visions told her that but her heart as well. She didn't know why she knew it; maybe it was the warmth that Kim brought. She didn't know.
"Yes we are." Kim said sweet and Shego found herself smiling yet again. She didn't know why, the reason was unknown and she didn't recognize the feeling either. She felt like it was unnatural for her to smile, as if she had never done it or never had been able to do so.
"Did I smile a lot?" She asked.
"Back when we fought you didn't. You always smirked and grinned but never really smiled. The first time you really smiled was the day you told me you loved me." Kim replied and Shego noticed that the girl was thinking about that certain day.
"Love you?" Shego asked.
"Yes, you know what that is right? It's that warm indescribable feeling you have deep inside." Kim explained and it was as if a door opened for Shego. Finally she knew what the feeling was that she couldn't recognize. She was about to respond when she heard someone entering the room. She looked up and saw another red blur standing a few feet away from her. Kim talked to the blur and Shego noticed that Kim was quite fond of the other red head.
"How are you honey?" The other red blur asked Shego getting closer to her. Shego looked up and blinked a few times at the sight in front of her. She felt like she was looking at an older version of Kim. She looked at the real Kim and blinked in confusion.
"You're Kim's mother." Shego said surprising herself and both of the red heads.
"You recognize me! That's very good that means you're doing just fine. Tell me Shego, how is your vision?" Kim's mother asked her.
"Ann.. your name is Ann…." Shego whispered in disbelief. She closed her eyes and prepared herself for another chokehold but it never came.
"Yes, you're absolutely right. How is your vision?" Ann asked again. Shego slowly opened her eyes again and looked at the older red head in pure disbelief.
"My vision…" Shego said thoughtful. "If you're close I can see you well, the closer you get the better I can see you." She said.
"Meaning that you can't see someone very clear once he or she is further away." Ann added and Shego simply nodded. Ann didn't say anything and simply put a hand on Shego's shoulder.
That very moment Shego felt a shock run through her and with a gasp she closed her eyes again. She grabbed for her throat and gasped for breath as visions flashed before her eyes. Her memories of Ann came flooding back into her mind and she coughed violently as they slowly faded again.
She calmed down and sagged against the soft pillow behind her.
"Are you okay?" Ann asked in a quite concerned voice.
"She had that a couple of times now, it really scares me. It looks like she's choking or something and suddenly everything goes back to normal." Kim explained. Ann nodded in understanding, knowing that Shego's disorder was mental and not psychical. It was a relief for her, knowing that it couldn't kill Shego despite the choke-like feeling she got.
"It'll fade with time, no need to worry. Her memories are just coming back to her. Everybody has different ways of getting their memories back on track. She'll be alright Kimmie." Ann said and with that she left the room.
Kim looked at Shego and let out a soft sigh.
"She's right you know." Shego said softly.
"About what?" Kim asked.
"Every time I go into whatever one would call it, I get visions. Memories, my past, it flashes by in short almost spastic visions. It feels like my throat gets closed of during those moments and I can't stop it from happening." Shego explained.
"You'll be alright, right?" Kim asked doubtfully. Shego simply smiled at her and reached for Kim's hand. She slowly entwined their fingers, her smile never fading as she did so.
"I'll be fine, I just have to relive my past whether I like it or not." Shego replied in a gentle tone.
"I'll help you whenever you need me." Kim added sincerely. This comment made Shego smile even brighter and she felt that warmth filling her again.
"You love me too right?" Shego asked suddenly. She had seen the vision of them sharing intimate moments. Though she didn't know if Kim really returned the feelings she had yet to discover.
"Of course." Kim answered honestly. Shego didn't really know that she loved Kim. The only thing she knew was that she had loved Kim when she knew what love really meant to her.
"I promise I'll discover what it means." Shego vowed and Kim simply raised an eyebrow.
"What do you mean?" She asked.
"You love me, I love you but I have yet to discover what this love means to me. I have to discover and relive what its contents are. I'll discover it, I promise." Shego said her face holding a seriousness Kim had never seen before.
"You don't know what it means?"
"I don't… I'm sorry." Shego replied sadly and her gaze shifted to the ground. Kim simply smiled at her and held her hand to comfort her before saying:
"You'll discover it eventually, don't worry."
Okay.. SO.. yeah.. I don't really know what I'm working on here right now. I actually have no clue whatsoever I just felt the need to write this. I don't know if I should continue, if I CAN continue and how I will continue if I were to continue. Help me out will ya?
If you think this sucks.. it makes things easy.. I can just delete it. That's simple for me so just tell me what you think, it would help me a lot =)
It started out a bit dark and stuff right? Yeah that was what I was going for! and I know you're thinking.. what the hell happened to Shego? Why did it happen and what the hell was that dark place? Dito! I have NO IDEA! XD
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Hope you uhm well yeah.. enjoyed this or something!
WPJ