O God, at this time I find myself
really up against the wall,
at the bottom of the barrel,
at the end of my rope.
There is no place to go but up.
Save me, O God, before it is too late. I can't even cry out any longer;
I can't even pray, so deep is my despair. O God, don't let me go down the drain.
Respond in your great love,
to my unhappy plight.
Raise me from the mire of despair,
the darkness of depression.
Deliver me from these human weaknesses
that beset me and lead me into defeat.
You know what they are, O Lord,
And You know the limits of my endurance."
"The Parents Left Behind
Forever mourning the lost child
Forever lamenting the lost dream
Forever facing the hole in the future
Forever feeling the hurt in the heart
Forever reliving the unbearable horror
Forever regretting the act not done
Forever searching for the reason
Forever seeking release for the love
In suicide, you may succumb (surrender) to the very troubles you take arms against, for you cannot kill your eternal spirit. You change your location but not yourself or even your underlying problems.
Please refrain from any type of sorrow, If you feel like crying save the tears for tomorrow. Because tomorrow will never come for me. I made the decision to end my life for no particular reason none at all, I just got tired of living. That's all. Life lost its flavour to me, Everything started looking so bland. It felt so pointless living in a world smeared with bullshit everywhere I walked I'd be stepping' in it. I feel that for myself death will be better than life, Suffocation better than breathe. I'm just tired of being ethical in a completely unethical world. I'm tired of being told to take the straight path, when I'm the most crooked person I know. I no longer want to live in a world where I'm afraid to love who I choose to love. I'm no longer interested in a world where war of skin colour is a bigger battle then WWI and WWII put together. I refuse to live in a world where trees are illegal and cigarettes Aren't, An herbal essence versus a pile of toxic shit. I refuse to live in a world where the government's oral recreation is a bigger deal then the poverty laying less then 420 ft from number 10 Downing Street. A world where millions & millions of pounds are shredded on a daily basis-now tell me what kind of sense does that make? A world where hate has become the basis for living, a place where happiness no longer exist. I can no longer live to die I'd rather just not live at all. With death I'm looking for a sounder way of living. Be glad foe me because I am no longer suffering. Be glad for me I have found complete peace by now. Live on and live strong. Let bravery stand across your chest since it missed mine Wipe your tears, I will b dead by the time you read this so your love is no use to me now
really up against the wall,
at the bottom of the barrel,
at the end of my rope.
There is no place to go but up.
Save me, O God, before it is too late. I can't even cry out any longer;
I can't even pray, so deep is my despair. O God, don't let me go down the drain.
Respond in your great love,
to my unhappy plight.
Raise me from the mire of despair,
the darkness of depression.
Deliver me from these human weaknesses
that beset me and lead me into defeat.
You know what they are, O Lord,
And You know the limits of my endurance."
"The Parents Left Behind
Forever mourning the lost child
Forever lamenting the lost dream
Forever facing the hole in the future
Forever feeling the hurt in the heart
Forever reliving the unbearable horror
Forever regretting the act not done
Forever searching for the reason
Forever seeking release for the love
In suicide, you may succumb (surrender) to the very troubles you take arms against, for you cannot kill your eternal spirit. You change your location but not yourself or even your underlying problems.
Please refrain from any type of sorrow, If you feel like crying save the tears for tomorrow. Because tomorrow will never come for me. I made the decision to end my life for no particular reason none at all, I just got tired of living. That's all. Life lost its flavour to me, Everything started looking so bland. It felt so pointless living in a world smeared with bullshit everywhere I walked I'd be stepping' in it. I feel that for myself death will be better than life, Suffocation better than breathe. I'm just tired of being ethical in a completely unethical world. I'm tired of being told to take the straight path, when I'm the most crooked person I know. I no longer want to live in a world where I'm afraid to love who I choose to love. I'm no longer interested in a world where war of skin colour is a bigger battle then WWI and WWII put together. I refuse to live in a world where trees are illegal and cigarettes Aren't, An herbal essence versus a pile of toxic shit. I refuse to live in a world where the government's oral recreation is a bigger deal then the poverty laying less then 420 ft from number 10 Downing Street. A world where millions & millions of pounds are shredded on a daily basis-now tell me what kind of sense does that make? A world where hate has become the basis for living, a place where happiness no longer exist. I can no longer live to die I'd rather just not live at all. With death I'm looking for a sounder way of living. Be glad foe me because I am no longer suffering. Be glad for me I have found complete peace by now. Live on and live strong. Let bravery stand across your chest since it missed mine Wipe your tears, I will b dead by the time you read this so your love is no use to me now