Jump Chapter 1
Jay's POV
I'm still in shock, the events of the past few weeks stuck on a loop in my head, as I walk through our local farmers market with Hailey, on this humid June day. It started out just like any other week when we don't have an active case.
*Flashback to a few weeks prior*
I park my car in the district parking lot, and I arrive at the same time as both Upton and Atwater. I get out of my car, and walk over to where they stand talking, and I wrap my arm around Upton's shoulder, before we decide to walk into the district. The front lobby is buzzing, as Platt is yelling out orders to different uniforms. Some bringing in a criminal or two, the three of us just continue on our way to the bullpen. Atwater scans his hand, and holds the door open for us to walk through first. We walk up the stairs and are met with about 5 white shirts, along with other police I've never seen before, going through our desks, and the break room. The three of us walk over to where Ruzek, Burgess, and Dawson stand near Ruzek's desk, and that's when I see Lieutenant Woods, Deputy Chief Crowley, and two others I've never met before all in Voight's office, but no sign of Voight.
"What's going on?" I ask after a few minutes
"Voight's been arrested for police misconduct on multiple accounts, and now they're opening an investigation for the whole unit." Dawson answers and then the door to what use to be Voight's office swings open.
"Good I'm glad we're all here, I'm not sure if you've all been informed as to why we're all here, so just in case you weren't. Sergeant Voight has been placed under arrest for multiple counts of police misconduct. The department is suspending the Intelligence Unit, and placing each member under review until further notice. Leave your badges and guns on this desk here." She says pointing to Upton's desk, "and go home." She finishes. We all look at each other, before following our orders, leaving our guns and badges and leaving the building. We all walk to the parking lot, talking as we go.
"Man who would have ever thought he'd ever actually get caught. Tonio and Jay I guess you guys were always right for going against him." Kevin says as we cross the street
"yeah I guess so." Both Antonio and I say at the same time
"It's for the best." Ruzek pipes in
"Hey why don't we all go get something to eat together? Get our minds off this, even if just for a little bit." Kim says in a singsong voice
"Yeah that sounds like a good idea to me, you know I'm always hungry, and I'm sure she is too." I say sticking my thumb out towards Hailey, and she punches my arm hard, I play hurt, before throwing my arm around her shoulders again. We all get into either Kim or Kevin's car before driving to a diner near the district. We talk and laugh, in between bites, completely pushing this ordeal out of heads for the time being. All of us except for Adam, and upon noticing how quiet he is sitting to one side of me, with Hailey sitting on the other side, I nudge his arm with mine, before nodding towards the door. He gets the hint, and leaves the circular booth. Hailey notices, and grabs my arm and gives` it a gentle squeeze and I turn my head back to her, and give her a small smile.
"Hey what's going on Adam?" I ask him as soon as I get outside
"None of you deserve this." He says quietly
"No but hopefully we'll all be cleared, and be back to kicking ass in no time. Right?" I say to him trying to lighten the conversation. He just gives me a huff in response
"Look man I don't know what's eating away at you, but we all knew Voight was dirty, and while it sucks that the unit is under review, I think this is just proof that things have a way of working themselves out, we have nothing to worry about." I say to him, putting my hand on his shoulder, and he nods at me, before I turn to go back into the diner
"It was me, I was the one who ratted him out, and now we all had to turn in our badges because of it." He says to me so quietly I almost miss it, but yet it was so clear at the same time, and I turn back around to look at him, but he's looking at his feet
"He blackmailed me, said he knew about what I did for my sister when she got in that accident with my nephew. I couldn't let her go away for that." He continues, and I walk back over to where he's standing
"Hey Adam, no one, and I mean no one would blame for that. If it was any one of us, we would have done the same thing for family, and no matter how dirty Voight may be, if he was right about anything, it was that this unit is a family."
"Yeah I guess you're right, thanks Jay." He says with a small grin
"I'm always right Adam." I say which causes him to chuckle
"Now can we go back inside and eat."
"Yeah." He says
We rejoin everyone at the booth, and jump right back into the conversations as if we never left. The weeks to follow, passed in a blur, as each one of us went to the ivory tower to stand in front of the review board, and clear ourselves, as well as the rest of the unit.
*End of flashback*
I smile, as I look down at my badge hanging around my neck, and at the fact that each one of us was cleared earlier that day. My smile is short lived, and disappears as I hear a familiar voice to the side of me, and my heart starts to beat so hard and fast I swear it's going to burst out of my chest. I thought my feelings for her were gone, but now hearing that beautiful raspy voice again, I feel they never went away or weakened, they were just buried somewhere deep down, waiting for their moment to resurface.
"Erin?" I say as I walk closer to where I heard her voice come from, and that's when she turns around, her hazel eyes meeting my green blue ones for the first time in over a year.
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Erin's POV
My body stiffens involuntarily the second I hear his voice say my name, and at first I think that I'm dreaming, but then I turn around, and our eyes meet, and I know I'm not dreaming, because even in all the dreams I've had about him in the last year, those eyes, his eyes have never had that same sparkle in them as they do in real life. We stand there for what seems like hours, just staring at each other, taking in the changes each of us has gone through in the last year. He has a thick scruff neatly wrapping around his jaw, and lips. I feel the familiar pain take over my lower abdomen as I inappropriately think of how his occasional facial hair felt against my skin when we played scrabble when we were together. I shake my head, and clear my throat, trying to control my thoughts. I feel as if he's even more muscular than he was before, or maybe his tight white t shirt, is the reason I can see every defined line on his chest and abdomen, I can even see the v, that disappears into his shorts. His arms look so big, that I'm pretty sure if he flexed, his sleeves would rip, and fall off. It's as if he gets sexier and sexier with age, and he makes 33 look incredible. I bring my eyes back up to meet his again after taking him in.
"Jay?" I say as more of a question, and he walks a little closer so we're only a few feet apart
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Jay's POV
I take her in the same way she is me, and I notice that her face is sunken in, and she carries dark circles under her eyes, they must be working her hard at the FBI. She's also lost weight, being even thinner than before, and she's let her hair grow out past her shoulders, and it actually looks a lot like how it was back when we first became partners. Her appearance has changed, but one thing that hasn't, and never will is her eyes, the ones that I've dreamt about so many times I've lost count. She still just as beautiful as before. Her voice breaks me from thoughts
"Jay?" She says, my name coming from her lips, pulls me closer to her
"Erin." I say again "Have you been here….been here this whole time? I thought, well Voight told us that you went to work for the FBI in New York?" I ask
"Well no I haven't been here at this farmer's market for the last year." She says with a chuckle, assumingly trying to ease some of this tension but I just continue to stare at her with a straight face, and the small smile that was on her face falls
"I was in New York, just not for the reason Voight told you, I-" She says before getting cut off by Hailey waddling over to us.
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Erin's POV
I was just about to tell him, why I had gone to New York, when I hear Hailey's voice call out his name, and then I see her, and I can't help the tears that form in my eyes and threaten to fall at the sight before me. I watch her slowly waddle over, and stand next to Jay with one of her hands rubbing up and down her pregnant belly. I expected him to move on, and when I left I told myself that he deserved better than me, I guess I was right, but I would have never expected for him to be having a baby. I'm happy for him, for both of them, they're going to be amazing parents, but I can't control the sadness that takes over, or the sinking in my chest. I clear my throat for the second time in the last ten minutes, this time to try and swallow the lump thats building up there.
"I um, well it was good to see you Jay, and you too Hailey, and congratulations. Umm I'll see you guys around." I say with my voice cracking, before turning, and quickly walking away from the farmer's market, and away from them. I walk at the same quick pace for a while, trying to get as far away, as quickly as possible. Once I feel I'm at a safe distance, I stop and rest against a wall outside my favorite coffee shop that I missed so much in my time in New York, I then go in, and order my usual, before going to my spot, I sit facing the wall, and I let the tears fall. We both needed time and space last year, and we both gave each other that, and now he's got someone so much better than me, and is expecting a baby with her, and I'm alone, we have what we deserve. I'm happy he's happy, but sad that I'm not the cause for his happiness anymore, and I haven't been for over a year, all because I jumped when someone told me to jump.
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A/N: Again sorry for any and all mistakes. I'm already in love with this story, and I can't wait to see what you guys think of it. Please review, and I'll try to update asap. Thanks