Disclaimer: Don't own this show, or it's characters.

Note: Okay this will be a short story (I have too many fics to finish) . I have a few chapters for it, which I will be editing and putting up. It's just an idea I have always wanted to try out. Basically I love the thought of Bonnie meeting young version of Kai before prison world, and wanted to explore it.

So review and let me know if you like it.

Your past creates the future

Shit. No wait, double shit. I could not emphasize 'shit' enough when it came to my life as Bonnie Bennett.

My life that had become all about fighting and sacrificing. It felt like it was too late now, as we had lost the war with the Heretics. The heretics were a strange mixture of vampires and witch hybrid.

We had let them out because I was stupid enough to fall for Damon's lies to get his mother out of her icy prison world of 1903.

We got her out, and she found a way to break out her dangerous friends. From then on the heretics started to kill members of every town, including my home of Mystic falls. I tried to stop them. My expression magic was enough to put some of them down, but not enough to take on the strength of powerful witches with vampire speed.

It was during this hard time my best friend Elena decided to tell me Damon had not told me about Kai saving me. He had saved me on my birthday, when I was stuck in the 1994 prison world. I of course was full of anger and guilt upon hearing this. Yes Kai had hurt me, and I thought I had every right to trap him in the other prison world Damon's mother had been in. Even when he apologized to me and tried to make amends, I would not have it. I got my revenge and stabbed him, before I left him for dead. I thought it would cure my PTSD i had suffered when i broke free if the prison dimension, but it didn't. Especially when I found out about how he had saved me. The crazy deranged selfish warlock saved me, and not my own friends, how fucked up is that?

I was so disappointed in them all. The whole time I thought I was mad solely at Kai, turned out I was really mad at them. Kai was just another enemy that I expected the worst from. My friends on the other hand - I expected everything from. I thought they would do everything in their power to bring me back, like I had done for them. It turns out as soon as I risked my life to get Damon back, he and my friends did not make much of an effort.

They had a birthday in my honor, when I was not even there! I get the gesture, but that did not sit right with me. How can you mourn someone who still has a possibility of being alive, and not doing anything about it. No, it was 'hey let's light a candle for poor Bon Bon, stuck in that awful prison world! Here is hoping she gets out!'. After that I had forgiven them, but became distant.

Although that did not last long when we now had to deal with Heretics on our asses. Lilly had found a way to get them out, finding some other witch to help her. Now Damon and Stefan had to lock her up in their home, while we tried to deal with the heretic problem. I honestly became fed up with it all. I had not even been back long, and already I had to put my life on the line to deal with more mess caused by my friends.

I was fed up of my friends. Fed up of all these fucking enemies I have to fight, and fed up of always feeling like the world was resting on my shoulders.

I threw the grimoire in my hand across the dusty basement room. I was in my Gram's basement, where she kept most of her important Grimoires. It was covered in dusty old trunks filled with Bennnett things, along with spider webs and enough dust to cause an asthma fit. I heard someone coming down the stairs and immediately turned to face the door as it creaked. I had my hand out ready to use magic, before a blonde head popped through the door.

It was just Caroline. I sighed in relief that it was not one of the heretics.

"Gosh Bonnie, it's dusty as hell in here. When was the last time anyone cleaned in it?" She complained. Coughing and wiping away some of the cobwebs covering the doorway.

"When my Grams was alive, so a good few years back." I know I sounded pissed off. It happened when I brought up my Grams, feeling how unfair it was she was gone from this world.

I looked up to see Caroline's face was not as cheery-looking as it usually was. She, like myself, had been through a lot. She had lost her mother, causing her to turn off her humanity for a while. Then she had turned it back on, and now was fighting by my side to beat our new enemies. It was starting to drain her like it was draining me. There was only so much emotion you could go through. Although I was not happy she had hurt people when she turned off her humanity. I never got the chance to turn off my emotions. I had to deal with everything life threw at me, and did not understand why my vampire friends could not. Just like Elena - it ended up with them hurting people to heal their pain.

"You look as bad as I feel." She walked up to where I stood, sitting herself down.

Coughing and wiping away more of the dust that had settled around us. I really did need to clean down here, but I could never stomach seeing my Gram's belongings. It made me miss her even more. I was constantly trying to stay strong, but inside I felt the raw emotion of losing someone close to me every day of my life since she died, and I lost her again in the afterlife.

"Find anything in there?" Caolrine asked, her warm smile was back. As she nodded towards the grimoire I had thrown on the ground.

"Nope. Not something that would help our situation. Did Stefan track them?" I picked up another grimoire while I waited for her reply.

She nodded, but looked worried. Her honey blonde hair covering her face as she bit down on her bottom lip. I knew Caroline well enough to know she was hiding something.

"What is it Caroline? I know that look, that means it's not good." I scanned her face for any answers.

She turned away to avoid my gaze before answering.

"They managed to get out of mystic falls Bonnie. Stefan said alot of people have recently been killed in Georgia, so he thinks they headed there. They're not even covering their tracks Bon! They could expose all of us vampires at this rate." She threw her hands up in frustration, before rubbing her forehead like she was on the verge of a headache.

I felt like I was on the verge of one too. This was not good at all. This was bigger than the enemies I faced in the past, as at least I managed to defeat most of them within mystic falls. Now not only had they killed and destroyed here, they were heading out to cause global catastrophe.

"Shit. I thought Stefan and Damon were supposed to be making sure they didn't get out?"

why were my friends always so incompetent?

"Stefan tried, but you know we can't stop them. We have tried, and some of us almost lost our limbs doing it. I mean I know i'm a vampire with the strength of wonder woman, but they have magical powers Bonnie! No way we can beat them when they have magic and vampire strength." She looked guilty.

Caroline was right, I needed to find another way to stop them. As if by magic, the grimoire page in front of me turned to another page. I would have said it was the wind, but I probably had some witch ancestors hanging about in the house. Even though I thought after-life world crashed, but turns out magic always has loop holes.

I looked down at the dusty page in front of me. A spell for time travel appeared with a quote highlighted at the top:

If you don't like the future, change what you didn't like in the past.

I must have been looking at the words for longer than necessary, as Caroline tried to peek at what I was staring at.

"What does it say? Care to share?" She sounded as curious as I felt right now.

Those words awakened something within me. I saw flashes in my mind of events that led up to the problem we were dealing with. Damon guilt tripping me to bring his crazy bitch mother back from another prison dimension, me reluctantly agreeing. Then Kai's eager face popped into my mind. I could smell the food from the diner we had been sat in. Feel the sweat of my palms when I sat across from him, the feeling of uneasiness in his presence. The smile I had to hide when he joked about wanting to go back in time. Then finally the words that would seal our fate, resulting in me leaving him to rot in the old prison dimension of 1903. The words that made me feel guilty thinking about how eager he was to make amends for what he had done.

"I will go, if you go."

I could could not remember if they were the exact words. I had been replaying them over in my head since I had stabbed him and left him to rot. Sometimes I dreamed of our conversation going differently. That I had taken mercy on him, and warned him to back off and not go.

Yet that was not what happened, no taking it back now.

"Wow, time travel? Don't you feel suddenly feel like we're in a sci fi flick?" Caroline teased.

Her voice woke me up from my day-dream. I looked back down at the words, suddenly taking in and understanding their meaning. I needed to un-do what I had done. But steps had to be taken. I had seen enough time travel movies to know it's not something you can play around with. Hell, I had not even known it was magically possible till the grimoire basically opened up the possibility in front of me.

"We can do it Caroline. This spell allows me to time travel." I showed her the grimoire page.

As expected, she thought the idea was crazy.

"Look Bonnie, I have seen some crazy things these last few years. Especially when it comes to that magic mojo of yours, but time travel? This isn't Dr Who Bonnie! How could it possibly work?"

I really did not have the patience or energy to convince her, so she would just have to trust me. I was the one who had gotten my friends out of every fix they got themselves into. I wish they would have a bit more faith in me and my magic.

"Does it matter? We have to try. We have no time to mess around. They're going to slaughter people and come back to kill us if we don't. I'm not powerful enough to take on a whole bunch of witch-vampire hybrids with their power and speed. I don't want to die again Caroline, so we need to try this."

She looked down at the ground in sadness at my mention of 'dying again'. I knew she felt guilty for all those time she could not save me. I didn't blame her, I had put myself in those situations. I looked down and started thinking of ways this could work. I did not fancy dying again, so this plan would be worth a try.

"Bonnie?" Caroline's sad voice filled the silence around us.

"Yeah?" I felt bad I had got distracted and not even noticed her guilty look.

"I don't want you to die again either. I can't believe I was so selfish in the past. I didn't really ever do enough to help you, and I want to make it up to you. So we can do this thing together. Time travel like we're in some geek comic book fantasy. Just as long as it's not Victorian times please, I don't like the idea of a corset." She grinned.

I smiled back, and we both laughed at how silly the notion of time travel was. It was nice to diffuse the sadness that had wafted over both of us like a bad smell. The situation we were in just emphasized how we had never truly had a break since vampires entered our lives. It had become a constant struggle against powerful enemies turning up. I was hoping once this was done, I could take a long vacation in the state of California. Or anywhere that wasn't mystic falls. I knew Caroline and Elena would like that.

"Let's get started then. I just need to figure out which event we need to travel back to change." I looked down at the grimoire, willing it to come up with solution.

"How about before we got Lilly out? I mean she was the one who freed them, thanks to Damon neglecting to tell us how serious she was about her little friends ". Caroline was almost growling in anger at the mention of Damon.

I could not blame her, I felt the same way. I wish I had not been so quick to trust him and let Lilly out. I let out a monster than had killed over three thousand people, probably more than that. Yet I had felt so justified trapping Kai. Kai who was technically a reformed killer, and lesser of the two evils. It had taken me a short while after to realize some of my anger at him had been misplaced. Of course he deserved to be stabbed for what he did to me, but I had killed him previously with an axe. I would have been trapped in the prison world regardless, even if he had stayed. It was actually a good thing I didn't get stuck with the crazy bastard, but of course my anger just grew in my time there.

Whatever the case, I should not have left him there after he helped me out. I should have found a way to magically punish him without leaving him there to rot. It wasn't just about him, stupid Damon had neglected to tell me that I would have been responsible for killing his coven. His whole coven could have died because of that link, and it would have been my fault.

I thought of what Caroline said, but then knew it would not work going back to that event. I didn't know too much about time travel, but I remembered that you can't change or meet yourself back in time - as it would change the whole future. There was no way I could go back to that event without my old self being there, and my old self would have still done the same thing regardless. I could not get through to my past self without ruining everything.

The book page said that by changing the right past event, we could change our future we were in now. We would be in the future we set up through the past. We just had to make sure to avoid meeting ourselves when we went back to change it.

"Won't work Caroline. I think time travel rules state we can't meet our past selves, without messing up our whole future. We need to be careful."

She nodded in agreement, as we both went silent trying to come up with ideas. She suggested going back to change Lilly into a better person, which was not a bad idea. If Lilly was not who she was later, then she would never have killed those people and be in the prison world in the first place. Still, it went back too far in time. It was too much to change. I also did not know how it would affect Stefan and Damon.

"We can't Caroline. I don't know how it will affect them, and it's not fair to change someone's whole life without their consent. I don't really want to tell them about this. They will probably think we're crazy and that it will never work." I sighed.

I did not want to waste time convincing them. We did not have time, as the hybrids grew stronger with all the blood they were taking from dead victims they were killing.

"We could just do it Bonnie. They would have to understand, it's our lives at stake here!" She had a point.

"But what about Stefan? You love him and he's with you, this could mess up your whole future together. We don't know how much their mother changing would affect him, do you want to risk changing Stefan's whole life?"

She did her 'guilty look' she had perfected since she was younger. Looking down at the ground, looking like a lost puppy. Placing some of her honey blonde hair behind her ear, she looked back at me and nodded in agreement

"You're right. I don't know what I would do without Stefan in my life, after everything. But if we can't change any of them, and can't meet ourselves, what past can we change?"

She had a point. I looked down at the spell. It did not really give much away in terms of instructions. Just the spell words in general, and a little note about making sure not to meet your past self. I directed the question in my mind at the book. Praying that some of my dead ancestors might hear me, or the book itself helped me with the answer I sought.

All of a sudden I felt a cold breeze wrap itself around me. Nothing happened with the book this time, but Kai's face popped up in my mind. I could hear his words loud and clear in my mind. Like he was there speaking to me.

Haven't you ever thought of time travel?

Come on! It could be fun.

I felt I was going crazy reminiscing about his voice, that had despite me not wanting to admit it - made me a little giddy inside at the time. His voice was a mixture of sweetness and sultry mixed into one. Now it was haunting me, making it clear what I needed to do.

"Kai," I whispered.

Caroline wouldn't have heard me had not it not been for her superior vampire hearing.

"What? Kai? What does he have to do with anything?" She fired questions at me.

I was not sure how to explain it to her, other than Kai was the key to changing all of this mess.

"Don't you see Caroline? If Kai had not been desperate to use me to get out of 1994, or stabbed me, we could have avoided all this. I never would have left him behind to let Lilly out. It would have been different when I got trapped in the prison world. Everything would have changed."

I was still working it all out in my head, but was glad when Caroline nodded, taking in what I was suggesting.

"So if we go back and change Kai before he became a deranged child-killer, we can change the future? No heretics?" She asked.

I nodded. It was making more sense now. If we changed the event that made Kai who he was, the circumstances that caused the heretics to get out would be changed. It was strange how Kai factored into a lot of what was now my doomed fate. If we had met in the prison world and he was not- well Kai I had known, then things would have been different. Even if he had not killed his family, I was sure his father was sending him to the prison world. Kai may have lied about a lot, but he didn't lie about what an evil bastard his father was. His Dad was just better at hiding it, but I knew he had a big part in why his kids ended up with trauma scars. Kai especially, was damaged by him. Plus I knew Grams helped build the prison world, way before Kai said his coven had sent him there. So there was no doubt regardless of the event, that he would have been sent there eventually.

Also I needed them to send him there, as it was Gram's plan to save me. The world was built for Kai, and it just so happened to save me when the other side crashed. I might not be able to change Kai getting put there, but hopefully I could stop him going crazy and killing his siblings. If I met him and hopefully convinced him, we might actually be friends in a future where I get sent to his prison world and need help.

"It's our best chance Caroline. I mean Kai isn't really tied to us personally, so changing his past is easier than changing the Salvatore's. Plus it means we won't run into ourselves. I wasn't even out of diapers when he was younger, so no chance of getting caught. Plus Portland far from mystic falls, which means no chance of running into anyone we know."

She grinned, loving the idea. We both finally had a sense of hope in this situation we were facing.

"Great idea Bon! All you got to do is convince him to not go all crazy sociopath killer on us, and it means none of this horrible future stuff would happen. He won't hurt you in future, which means no you getting angry and making the rash decision to leave him there to get Lilly out. Bingo, no horrible hybrid heretics!" She did a little happy dance on spot.

Her enthusiasm for the plan was catching, and I felt myself smile in triumph.

"Okay then, let's do it." I smiled.

We high-fived each other, before I held her hand and started to whisper the latin words. Causing the spell to take us over. I felt myself drift off into what felt like a peaceful sleep. Like water was pulling me down and drowning out all sound.

Everything went black, and I felt the ground beneath us move.

We drifted off into what felt like space and time. Where everything was calm, not knowing where we would end up.