I do not own Twilight ot any of its characters. Stephenie Meyer owns it all.

This is my first fanfiction. I hope you all enjoy. My writtings are quiet disturbing sometimes so I would like to warn you all now if you don't like self harm, cuttind, piercings, foul language or tattoos then please do not read this stroy. I do not apologise for any content written in my stories.

Just one last note, I am Australian ans so I will use Australian English. I have no problem with writing with American English but it is easier if I use Australian English. If you do not understand our slang than please comment and I will be happy to explain in the Authors Note for the next chapter.

It has been three months since Edward has left and boy have things changed. I remember what he said to me in the woods just outside my house. H told me that he didn't want me anymore, that his family would be moving away, he wanted a clean break. Well things have certainly changed since then.

Jacob came around a lot once Edward left to make sure that I was coping. He kept trying to force himself on me, trying to make me think that he would be the only person able to help me through the tough times. He was so wrong. Although Jacob was my best friend and although we used to play together when we were children, I kept thinking to myself that I had grown up from that time and I didn't want to be pulled into a relationship right after the love of my life had just walked out of my life. I told Jacob that I didn't want him coming around anymore and I wanted him out of my life. Jacob was angry but he got the idea when Charlie told him that maybe it would be the best for me. I haven't seen him since that day.

Renee died three weeks after Edward left and so now I am spiralling out of control.

I am different now; I am not the little breakable Bella I used to be. No I am now something worse. This has now become a fact about my life, I get into fights with people who look at me the wrong way, I have been sent to the principals' office on more than five occasions and I just don't seem to give a shit about the world anymore. I am what they call emo. I died my hair black one week after I found out that Renee had died in a car accident. I have never cried. On that same night I started what is now part of my new life. My arms are covered in cuts, I cut myself when my life seems like too much or when I get angry. It takes the pressure off my life, giving me a chance to fight back.

I now have a lot of piercings. I remember the day I came home and Charlie had gone ballistic at me. I had gotten both my monroes done and also my belly button pierced. He yelled at said that I need to take them out now or I am grounded. That tipped me off the edge; I told him to fuck off and leave me alone, just as I walked out the house and slammed the door. Charlie doesn't see to care now; he has gotten the picture that this is the new me and the old Bella is not coming back.

I like the new me, I have attitude and I couldn't give a shit anymore. I now have a new wardrobe. Black, black, black, black a little red and white and then back to black. The old Bella used to wear cloths that were plain and normal. Well that's changed. I like to wear more tightly fitted cloths these days like, tank tops, short mini skirts, skinny leg jeans, and hoodies, stuff like that. But no matter what I wear I always have my gloves on, they go all the way up to my elbows. There black and they didn't hide my fingers. They just cover my palms and arms. I know that many people think that I am a massive emo slut that thinks she owns the world, but they can't be more wrong. If people ask me about what is happening with me, all they get is a mouthful from me.

I don't give a shit anymore and although it took a while for people to finally understand that they ended up getting it. I am not the old Isabella Marie Swan anymore she died when they left. I am a nightmare walking. A reminder of what happened.

Hey guys I hope you all enjoyed the first chapter. I just wanted to give you all an idea of where Bella is in her life at the moment before I go into day to day living with Bella.

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