"Im sorry Lucy but can we break up?"
That text came out of nowhere, we were talking normally and then that.
Like the wimp I was, I didn't fight it. I gave a short reply of 'Yh, okay. If you want to' and shut my phone down.
My life has been crap since then. I saw him with a girl, a beautiful white haired girl. She was kind and they suited each other well.
Levy had gotten a boyfriend, a man named Gejeel. She tried not to mention him much because she didn't want to upset me but it only made it worse. She was piting me.
I spent a lot more time alone despite the amount of friends I had. I withdrew from social events just wanting to be alone.
The pressure from my dad for good marks didn't help either, it only made them fall.
I began to cut. For the reason that it made me feel something, anything.
I began to hate myself for feeling this way, I had no reason. My life was fine. I didn't have the right to be drepressed. So why was I?
Bad thoughts plagued my mind, every second of every day, every week.
You are doing this to yourself, you are pushing your friends away.
Natsu broke up with you because you are ugly inside and out.
Everyone pities you.
I scream for them to stop but they won't.
A black dog follows me around now, dragging me down.
I have became mearly a shadow of what I was. I look terrible and everyone can see this.
The black dog won't go away, it kepts following me. He keeps growing, it scares me.
I tried to tell my dad but he replied with 'strong people don't get depressed'.
That wasn't the answer I wanted to hear, I wanted, needed help.
Natsu hasn't talked to me since. I apprently don't exist anymore in his eyes. I'm not sure if that the same for everyone now. It probably is.
I went to the nurse she didn't care.
I didn't tell Levy, I didn't want to. I don't know what she would think.
'She'd hate you' The voices and black dog growled. That black was bigger than me now, he trampled me everyday and I have lost the energy to get back up.
That brings me here.
On the roof of the school, they had taken the fences down for a week to repair and replace them. It was my chance.
My change to ditch the voices
The black dog.
Natsu
My 'friends'.
My family.
My life.
So I jumped.