The problems left behind
I made this 'cause I noticed that in all (okay I don't know if all but in most) fanfics that have Ichimaru in Huecho Mondo Izuru is normally the one that leaves to join him so I decided to change it up a bit, instead of Izuru having the only one having a option I decided that so did Ichimaru... Hmm... I wonder which one will leave and stay with the other... I thinks its obvious, but maybe it's because I'm the one writing the story... Anyways, can you guys just tell me if the idea I have sucks or something. Oh yeah, I know I won't be doing Ichimaru's accent right so just correct me whenever I mess up and mpreg. First time writing a mpreg story.
Full summary: Before he left the Soul Society they were lieutenant and captain... and lovers, but when he leaves it shatters Izuru. How did he feel? When he left did it hurt him as much as it hurt Izuru? One night he finally cracks. Gin goes to visit Izuru, but is shocked to see his former lover puking. What could be wrong with him? What Ichimaru learns shocks him. What will he choose; go to Huecho Mondo or stay with Izuru? If he to Huecho Mondo he will have to fight old acquaintances... and see Izuru get hurt, but if he stays he can help Izuru and help the Soul Society defeat Aizen. But Gin isn't the only one with an option to choose, so does Izuru. Will Izuru go with Gin to Huecho Mondo or stay and face the consequences of his actions? What will happen if Ichimaru goes back to the Soul Society? Will they accept him back? Will that affected Izuru's chose?
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Ichimaru's POV
The look on Izuru's face when I told him I was leaving has haunted me since that faithful day, the day I left. He begged me to stay, told me that he needed me, why didn't I listen to him? Oh, yeah, because Aizen would've hurt him, but now that I think about it I don't think Aizen knows about my feelings for Izuru, but it's best if I don't cross that line. I sighed causing Aizen to finally notice that I was deep in thought.
"What's wrong, Ichimaru?"
"Nothin' jus thinkin'," I replied, my usual smile plastered on my face.
"About what, may I ask?" Dammit!
"Ya know, 'bout the usual stuff."
"Hm?"
"'bout fightin' against the Soul Society and destoryin' the human world."
"Ichimaru, if you go back I will hunt you down and force you back here."
"Wha makes ya think tha I'd leave?" His threat didn't bother me. My well being no longer mattered to me, I just didn't want to see him on that battle field getting hurt.
"If that wasn't what you were thinking about than what was it?" He ignored my question.
"How we're gonna defeat 'em." That's a believable response.
"Hm... Well don't think about it too much, I'll be making the plans."
"Yes, sir. I'm gonna go for a walk." That was out of nowhere, but I couldn't stay here anymore, I need to see Izuru!
"Alright, but come back." Aizen's voice was threatening, but I didn't care.
"Don' worry, I'll be back." And with that I walked towards the door that lead towards the desert. The instant I was outside I began walking as fast as I could without attracting suspicion. Once I was a reasonable distance away from where Aizen and the espanda's are, I opened the doorway to the Soul Society and had one thought in mind: to find Izuru.
Izuru's POV
I sighed as I leaned back on my chair. Another day filled with paperwork, finished. That's all it's bee since he left. How long has it been, 3, 4 months? It feels longer. I sighed again.
"Are you okay?" I jumped at the voice, my hand instinctively covered my stomach, where a small bump was.
"Don't freak out, it's just me." I relaxed once I recognized the voice, but my hand never left my stomach.
"Hisagi, it's only you," I said.
"Yeah. Are you okay? The reason I'm asking is because for a few months now you've been visiting the squad four barracks weekly and Captain Unohana has requested that you stay out of dangerous situations and refuses to sate why." I scowled. Yes, Captain Unohana is the only one who knows of my... condition and agreed to keep it a secret.
"Yes, I am. I'm sorry for worrying you."
"Alright, if you say so. Do you need help with anything?" I laughed.
"You're a little late. I was just about to leave."
"Then I'll walk with you."
"Okay." I slowly got up and stretched. Then I remembered, my stomach! I immediately put my arms down. Hisagi was staring at me. You're just being paranoid,I told myself. It's not like he could see my stomach, no, I was just being paranoid.
"Well, are you coming or not?" I snapped out of my daze and followed Hisagi out of my office and outside.
Outside it was already dark, signaling that it was night. The sky was cleared of clouds, leaving the shining stars and bright moon to be let in the open. It looked beautiful. Could Ichimaru be seeing this same sky? No, I told myself, he's not. He's in Huecho Mondo, there's no sky there. Those words stung, even if they were my own. Why couldn't he have stayed? Why didn't he? Because he doesn't care about you. A voice inside my head whispered.
No! He does, he had a good reason. I reasoned.
What was the reason?
Shut up! How pathetic do I sound? Fighting with myself. I shook my head, tears beginning to collect at the edges of my eyes.
"Are you okay?" I heard Hisagi whisper. How many times has he asked me?
"Yes, I'm fine." I almost sighed in relief, my voice hadn't quivered. The rest of the way we walked in silence as we gazed up at the starry sky. The comfortable silence was broken when we reached my home.
"Izuru, you know you can tell me everything, right?" Not everything.
"Yes," I lied.
"Good then you know if something's wrong I'm here for you."
"Yes."
"Okay, with that understanding, I'll take my leave."
"Good night."
"'Night." As I watched Hisagi walk off my stomach began doing flips and I could feel something began to make it's way up my throat. I hurried inside and ran towards the bathroom, where I began to vomit. About mid-way I felt a warm, comforting hand rubbing circles into my back followed by a, "'Zuru, are you okay?" I didn't pay much attention to it until I was finished, when I turned around, to tell whomever it was that I was fine, that I finally noticed who it was. Gin Ichimaru. I stared at him before I burst into tears.
"I'm insane! I've gone crazy!" This can't be true! He's here! No, I must be going insane! He wouldn't come back!
"'Zuru wha tha matta?" He asked as he moved closer towards me. " Why ya sayin' tha yer insane?"
"Be-b-because yo-you aren't r-r-real, be-because you'll n-never c-come back!" I cried as I struggled against him, he had wrapped his arms around me, I cried harder.
"Ma 'Zuru, ya not dreamin', I'm really 'ere." I stopped struggling and clung to him, sobbing into his shirt. I missed him so much! All my worries were temporarily forgotten; I didn't worry about being caught, I didn't worry about what would happen if I did, I didn't worry about how everyone would react, and I didn't worry about having to face everything on my own. All I cared about was the man I was clinging to, sobbing into his arms... my former lover, Gin. As I sobbed into his arms he rubbed small circles into my back and held me and whispered to me that everything was going to be fine.
Once I stopped crying I pulled away and looked at Ichimaru's face, my hand reaching out to caress his cheek as if to make sure he was real. His hand covered mine. "It's really you," I whispered as I looked into his almost closed eyes.
"Of course it's ma. Didja expect someone else?" His voice sounded so real, so reassuring. I smiled, my eyes watering. I pulled Ichimaru into another hug, enjoying the feel of his arms wrapped around me.
"'Zuru, 'ave ya gained some weight?" I tensed at his question. I didn't think he could feel the small lump beginning to grow bigger each day.
I pull back so I could look at Gin's eyes, I took a deep breath before saying, "Ichimaru, I have something to tell you," I took another deep breath before continuing. "I-we-are...um... going to be parents." there was a moment of silence before Gin said something, his eyes were wide open with shock, revealing his pale blue eyes.
"Wha? Wha is ya sayin'? That... yer pregnant?" His expression showed disbelief and shock. I look down at my hands, to ashamed to look at him anymore.
"Yes," I whispered.
Gin's POV
"Yes." Once that one word left Izuru's mouth, I felt a rush of emotions. Shock, happiness, excitement, and fear. I was shocked because I hadn't expected him to be pregnant. I mean of all things, pregnant! But I quickly got over it and I felt my smile widen, if that's possible, and my eyes, once again, closed into narrow slits.
"We're gonna be parents!" I exclaimed as I lifted Izuru up I my arms, He seemed shocked.
"Wha-what do you mean? Does that mean you want... to help raise it?"
"Wha do ya mean? Of 'course and tha baby isn't an 'it' it's a baby!" Izuru seemed relieved, but confused.
"Does that mean you'll stay?" I tensed and put Izuru down. "Ichimaru? Is something wrong?" I could tell by his voice that he was worried... and afraid.
"I don't now if I will be able to stay," I said.
"Oh." There was a moment of silence before there was a knock on the door, followed by a "Izuru, are you all right? I didn't feel comfortable the way we left things earlier." My blood ran cold as I realized who was on the other side and got up.
"I'll take ma leave," I said coldly.
"No don't! I'll tell Hisagi that I can't talk right now. But, please, don't leave!" I heard the desperation in his voice and on his face. I chuckled.
"Don' worry, I'll be back." With a quick kiss, I left, glancing over my shoulder once last time to look at Izuru. He and I are going to be parents. How would we raise our child together? I don't know, but we will. Suddenly the thought of coming back to the Soul Society came back to me. The idea was a good one and tempting.
But would I be accepted back?
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So, did it suck? Bad grammar? Needs something more? Just give me a review and tell me how it came out, please?