First Greys upload :) let me know what you think of the twist. Total fantasy for how one of the episodes in season 12 could have gone ;) no beta all mistakes belong to me.

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"Is it because of this", she points up to her face like she only knows it's there because she's been told.

Not knowing what it's like to look at her face everyday and see him. To know he is never coming back but now she knows me like him. I don't know how she is able to do that.

She's not him. She wears her damage like a soldier's gunny sack.

Derek must have been the cinder blocks around Amelia's flames their whole life.

He keeps the fire contained within.

As best he can.

I don't want to be thinking about Derek right now. I never want to forget him, but I need to be thinking about my patient.

"Is it because I remind you so much of him?"

What am I supposed to do with your sister now that you're gone?

Derek...

She's so much closer to me now, I realize I'm holding my breath.

"You afraid to get close"

I'm examining her face and trying to fain control of my breath. Her eyes are close enough to being the ones that wouldn't stop looking my way whenever we shared a room.

Just enough to remind me what's missing, not enough to being him back.

"Amelia.."

She pushes my buttons with little effort.

She is my trigger. I don't want to keep searching for him in her face.

"What Meredith? What do you want from me,?"

I'm dimly aware of the little level of privacy we currently have. It is night here in the hospital but sometimes a hallway will suddenly be clogged with staff transporting a disecting aorta, ruptured AAA, brain herniation..

She puts her hand up in exasperation, and leans back against the wall behind her.

She picked an empty room in icu with a glass wall view of the opposite side of the hallway, and an open sliding door.

Amelia is looking across at Penny monitoring my patient.

Derek would have picked a room with blinds at the window and a lockable door.

Even if we were arguing he would want a kiss before he left.

"The shrouded widow grey."

"Amelia.."

" she's fine.. no! .. What Meredith!? What pisses you off the most about me?!" She fusses at me-- "why don't you tell me what Derek would do so I can see if I can please you"

Glass walls be damned.

Before I think to stop myself, I move in to her space. I kiss her.

I can tell she is stunned, she hasn't moved since i did. Her lips are lightly parted and I feel them vibrate against my tongue as I push through the space.

I swallow her moan and press myself to her.

Both of my hands are on her face as I realize her lips are so close to perfect. I pull back to look at her but get drawn back in for another kiss.

It's slow and she is definitely kissing me back now. She bites down on my lip and then sucks it into her mouth and slides her tongue across it. My thumbs are swirling random patterns across her cheeks when I realize she's crying.

I pull back and she rest her head back against the wall. Her breathing is coming heavy and her eyes look like they can read my thoughts.

I don't know what I'm doing here so I leave.

I walk through the open doorway, past a steadfast Callie Torres.

Cut to Callie and Amelia sitting in on call room. It's night. Light is on.

"she acts like it's always me but she's no better! I lost my brother. Derek is dead and I get how that sucks for her. But Derek is my brother, Callie. And I miss him too"

"I know you do. I know you miss him.

.." Callie pauses for a moment.

Amelia has a way of inserting herself where she wants to be, but Callie is still wondering to herself, how she got to be in this position with the brunette.

She has Amelia in her arms and is lightly running her fingers through her hair to relax the woman. She missed Derek too and couldnt believe Amelia was his replacement.

She was brilliant after all, just like her brother but where Derek emotions were bridled, Amelia was all about her feelings.

"You must miss him so much."

"so much" it was barely above a whisper

And Amelia just grabbed on tighter to Callie.

She was enjoying Callie's comfort. Her arms were so strong around her.

Amelia was paying attention to the warmth of Callie's neck on her face. Completely content to be breathing callie. Every time she spoke Amelia could feel the vibration.

The two of them were sitting up on the bed, facing the door with their backs against the wall. The world going on around them through the window behind and the door in front.

Both of them were happy to ignore it for the warm embrace of comfort.

.. Callie's lips were almost as warm as her neck.

"Amelia, woah stop" Callie protested but couldn't withhold the gasp that escaped when Amelia cupped her cock.

Amelia had stopped kissing her but her lips were still on Callie's when she let out a gasp of her own.

"Callie..." Amelia had actually had her breath taken away. Where she expected to find a small soft sex, Amelia's hand had found an unexpected package. Callie definitely had a penis and ballsack in her pants.

"omg, Callie.."

".. mm yeah that's what happens when you grab groins Amelia. You find the unexpected."

"do you have a?.. .."

"a dick? Yeah. Intersex.."

"wow".. Amelia's hand still hadn't left Callie..

Callie could see the gears working behind Amelia's eyes but decided to let Amelia work this out since she wasn't too uncomfortable with the cool hand on her junk.

Seems like she's landed on something"Can I see?"

That threw Callie as she was truly expecting Amelia to hightail it out of the room but she should know to expect the unexpected from Amelia Shepard.

*guess I'm a science project today* Callie thouht to herself before she answered.

".. um.. sure." Callie pulled down the front of her scrubs to reveal her navy blue briefs similar to the color of her scrubs. Just a shade or two lighter. Her eyes were searching Amelias face and she felt like nerves we're pouring off of her. She let out a nervous laugh "Gah this feels like high school or something why am I so nervous" Callie said more to herself as Amelia didn't respond.

Her cock was sitting warm and happy inside her briefs with her scrubs waistband acting as leverage to create a sizeable bulge.

Amelia hadn't even noticed her breathing increase, but the sight and size of Callie shot pleasure straight through her.

She wasn't even thinking clearly. She just wanted to see her cock outside of the briefs..