Well…

All the ides were fresh in ma head. But I had stupid exams and short term memory to boot!!!

So this idea is new. Fun, but not as fun as the first… If only I could remember……………..

Nope nothing. Drat it!!

Well here's how it goes.

Each chapter starts with a diary entry. (Read a book like that. It was so cool! But my entries are funner.

It's written in Bridget Jones style. Lol. Hilarious.)

Please enjoy and give reviews.

First post so PLEASE be nice.

Chapter One

Diary,

Don't believe it. Stupid Vamp went and found himself a stupid stupid human!

Doesn't matter that I'm human. I not stupid… Well moot point. But stupid pale human not suit vamp. Vamp too sex for pale idiot girl who trips over air and extremely flat surfaces. Should talk sense into vamp. But too scared of vamp grinny face. Happy vamp so scary.

*shivers in boots*

Loraine's Diary, February 6, 2007.

Had to leave. Sorry, no amount of money or chocolate ice cream, was worth me staying and suffering. I suffered enough watching him alone. Now I have to watch him with HER.

Raine.

Jasper crumpled the paper and walked over to Alice.

"She really did leave." He muttered to her.

"Rain needs time alone to think. You know better than anyone what she's been going through." Alice looked up from the scrap book she was pasting pictures in.

"Yes. But still I've always told her to stop and face her problems. Not run with tail between legs." He growled.

Alice raised a brow. "Jazz… hasn't she suffered enough?" Alice asked calmly. "I know you miss her but she needs this."

"What are we to tell Esme and Carlisle?"

Alice sighed and turned back to the pink frilly scrap book that she was mounting prom pictures in.

"The truth. She went home for a little break."

"I'll like to break someone." Jazz mumbled.

"Try to behave. She doesn't want him to know."

Jazz scoffed, scrunched up the paper and went to sit by the window.

"If he hasn't realized, he's the dumbest man on this planet."

Alice decided not to comment and concentrate on her scrap booking.

Lorrain was family. But Jazz was always closest to her. Maybe because he was the one that had found the lost little girl. She was like a daughter to him and he was protective of her the way a father was of a daughter. He hurt more that anyone when she was sad.

Not just because he could feel her pain. But because he loved her and he was the one she had called daddy for years. He was the one she'd run to when she had a nightmare. The one who she'd tease mercilessly and the only person she had actually told what she felt.

He was her friend, her family and he was hurting because Lorraine was hurting. Alice looked over at him and sighed, She knew when Raine would be back but she wasn't gonna tell him. He needed to realize she was no longer a child and needed space to do this for herself.

She needed to grow up. And she couldn't do that with him around.

AT THE SAME TIME

Somewhere in California.

"No. I don't want that I want the Hawaiian! It's tacky. Gross to a fault. I want the Panama shorts. It's way more subdued." The short black haired girl was saying to the vendor at the fair.

"But the Hawaiian would look so much better on you."

The girl sighed and closed her eyes for a moment. Shadowing her almost black eyes then opened them to look at the vendor again.

"Please. I just want the Panama. I know you want me to but the Hawaiian because it's more expensive but I don't want it." He voice was calm and icy, almost frigid.

The vendor handed her the shorts and the girl paid also giving her a huge tip, and then hurriedly shuffled off to the beach. She hadn't been to the beach in years. And never a public one. She was looking forward to it. She quickly changed into the bikini suit she had bought for the occasion and hurried out onto the beach. She got her chair. Her shades and a book from her car then headed back to the beach.

Putting the lounger in a sunny spot she laid back to soak up the sun. She looked around and saw several people putting on sun screen. She didn't need it. With her colouring she could stay I the sub for hours and only get slightly chaffed.

She sighed tired and lied back on the lounger. Her glass was on the bridge of her nose and she appeared to be sleeping. After a few minutes a shadow fell over her. She cocked open one brow and saw a man standing over her. He was handsome and big.

"Hello." He said with a smile.

Still with one eye she smiled slightly. "Hello."

"I'm Dave." He knelt by the side of the lounger and extended his had. The girl took it. Her hand looking extra dark in his pale one. "Lorraine." She mumbled.

He smiled and she smiled back. She needed this she thought. She needed to felt like a woman again She needed to know she was wanted and that she was beautiful. The latter she was always told was 'obvious to even an idiot.' But one idiot hasn't paid me any attention, she mumbled under her breath.

Dave chatted with her for a while then she got bored and told him exactly that. He stomped away almost angrily and Raine laid down on her lounge again. Just as she was family asleep her cell rang. She sighed and sat up ruffling through her bag for it.

Only a handful of people had her number none of which she wanted to talk to. She looked at the caller ID. Especially him.

"What do you want?" She mumbled.

"Where are you?" The voice on the other end was sweet and made something in her soften and harden at the same time.

"China. What's it to you?"

"We're all worried. You haven't called to check in a few days." He said with a small sigh.

"I've only been gone two days." She growled.

"You usually call everyday. At lease twice a day for Jazz. You haven't even called him once."

Raine counted the specks on the horizon and then took a breath. "I explained everything to Jazz. Okay. Do you have to be so nosey?"

"I'm not nosey. Just worried."

When do you find the time she wondered and said out loud. "I'm touched."

"Will you please come back home. Or at least tell us where you are."

She sighed and fell back on the lounge. I'm not ready to come back yet. Nor do I want to tell you where I am." He definitely missed the emphasis on the you part. He always did.

"Your being childish."

"No what I'm doing is trying to grow up. I can't do that when I'm being sheltered by all you vamps."

He was silent, then, "At least call Esme and let her know your okay. She's been worried."

She sighed and nodded then remembered she was on the phone. "I will." She said.

"Good. I hope you come back soon Raine. We miss you."

Raine felt like crying because he missed her. But not her as a woman, she was just a kid sister to him and she wanted so much more. She was running and she felt like continuing to run forever because seeing him with her hurt more than anything she'd ever felt.

"Bella says 'hi'."

Raine almost choked one her tongue. She sat up quickly. "T-tell her I said the same. I-I ha-have to go Edward. I'm being… attacked by men." With that she hung up and dropped the phone in the sand.

No tears would come. Her eyes were dry. She was not going to shed another tear over him. She hated that place now. She would hate it forever. As long as he was there and she with him.

She'd hate anywhere he was. And she'd be anywhere he was. She was almost close to accepting that he wasn't he'd never been hers.

He was Bella's.

And if she went back now. She never would. Her decision was made. She was never going back to forks.