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With Brody's body up close to mine, I could feel him breathing. His hands around my waist, I didn't feel right. Maybe that's because I have really only been with Finn, Jesse and Puck (if that counts) but this just didn't feel right. But before I could protest, Brody was kissing me.
"Stop! I can't do this" After saying this, Brody just kept going. I couldn't. It felt like I was betraying Finn yet I broke up with him.
"Brody Stop!"
"Rachel, why? This will be amazing."
"Brody, I just can't do this get away from me! I can smell the Alcohol in your breath"
"Fine but next time you won't get away that easily"
"there won't be a next time!" I stated almost screaming. I never knew someone who seemed so innocent could be this type of person.
"I think It would be best if you leave, Now" after Brody left I felt terrible. Like I did something wrong. After lying on my bed for a few minutes I decided to get up and wash away this whole evening with a nice warm shower.
Even after that shower I just couldn't get anything out of my head and one sad or bad thought lead to another and if I went through every bad moment in my life I would be here for a while.
"Rachel I'm home" The sound of Kurt's voice just made me so happy.
"Kurt thanks God your home!"
"Well I missed you too! What did you do?"
"I'd rather not talk about it"
"Rachel was it about Finn? Because I just got off the phone with him and he said he may be moving to New York but he would be going to NYU"
"What? How can I face him? Every time I see him I just want to cry. He was most of my high school experience. I was either with him or wanting to be with him."
"Rachel calm down. Nothing is set in stone yet but speaking of Finn, how come you still wear the engagement ring?"
"I don't know, I guess it's like a memory of him. I learnt today I'm not ready to forget him."
"As cute as that is, could you please get our magazine collection out from under your bed, I need vogue!"
As we were choosing which Vogue magazine to read I found a box.
"Kurt what's this?'
"Rachel, I don't know? Open it"
This was no magic box that just, magically appeared here. Someone put it there. As I was I was opening it, I saw envelopes. Each envelope had a letter in it. The First one said the letters were for me and that I had to read them in order to understand them. The most shocking part of this wasn't that a box magically appeared in Kurt's trunk of magazines but they were all for me, from Finn. The first letter read
Dear Rachel,
Your probably wondering why there are a heap of letters in here, well when I was gone, every day I was without you I would write you a letter pretending I was talking to you. My life sucks without you and I know you have probably moved on by the time you read these but know I will never stop loving you
Love Finn
I started to cry. It was filled with emotion. It was like no other letter I have ever read. I stayed up all night reading all of the letters and writing down the key parts
I love you
I will never stop loving you
I'm sorry I'm not calling you
I'm sorry I'm not there in New York, with you
I hope one day we do really get married
If we got married I would name our child Caleb
If it was a girl I would name it Lexi
After reading the last letter, I found myself on my computer buying a ticket to Lima. I didn't know what I was doing but all I knew was I had to see him.
On the plane I re-read all the letters carefully. But I find one I missed. I was the most heart –breaking
Dear Rachel,
I don't know how much longer I can do this, I don't know how much longer I can keep writing these letter without telling you that I have… had 5 strokes only one of them being life-threatening. That's the real reason I haven't come and visited earlier. I… I didn't know how to tell you. I have survived but the doctors are worried it can lead to something worse.
Love Finn
(P.S. I'm so sorry)
I could see the tears stained in the paper. What was I going to say to him? How was I going to confront him? I was so confused.
"Ladies and gentlemen, Please buckle your seat belts, the plane will be landing in a few minutes."
This was it, it was time and I couldn't have been more scared.