this is what i feel when i read new moon every time... when i put myself in bella's place this is what comes out...that is one of the reasons i have re-read new moon the least out of the series...makes me sad and i hate jacob...let me know what you think...
Everything is dark
Everything is dark.
Simply dark.
All beauty is gone.
Never to return.
I should have expected this.
I always knew.
I was never enough.
Not beautiful enough.
Not graceful enough.
Not enough.
I shouldn't have expected to have him.
I shouldn't have called him mine.
It wasn't my fault though.
Not my fault.
I was dazzled.
I was dazzled into believing in love.
I loved him.
I love him.
Always will.
He was the star, the brightest thing in my world.
Now, all stars are going out.
One by one.
Everything is dark.
Without light.
Without life.
Without purpose.
I have no purpose if he is gone.
I should have known.
I was never enough.
I shouldn't have hoped.
I shouldn't have hoped he would love me anyways.
Hope.
Hope will kill me.
Where the universe failed hope will succeed.
Everything is dark.
My star has faded.
I have no purpose.
It's all dark.
Very very dark.