People are constantly telling her she's weird just because she's different. Just because she questions things and speaks her mind. She likes to pretend it doesn't get to her but it does. She starts believing what they say. The imagine of herself that is pushed upon her. And soon she becomes unstable. She needs ways in which she can deal with this judgment. A way she can help her understand herself and all that she may be.
She was originally quite carefree. She could withstand what the world threw at her. She could deal with the pain of loss and keep her happy-go-lucky front. But over time erosion started to wear through. She started to self destruct from the inside out.