I feel so lost, so alone; I just don't know what to do. Ben told me I was to be a Jedi, but I feel like that can't possibly be the case now that he is gone. I am truly the only Jedi that there is left. That scares me. I didn't ask for this life, didn't want it, this was just some thing my father was, not what I am. All I want is to live a normal life. Han and Leia are getting closer, but I just feel more alone then ever. Sometimes, when I feel the force flowing through me, I just want to push it aside, push it away. I know a Jedi is supposed to find solace in the force, but I find it repulsive and alien at times. I feel like I'm a lonely traveler, with no real person to follow, just footprints in the sand. I didn't know the Jedi, just Ben, and even he I didn't know really well. Who were they, what did they do, what did my dad do? They say he was a war hero and a great man, but if he was so great, why did he get himself killed by Vader and leave me behind? What if I don't live up to who he was? Some of the old rebels still remember him. They saw he was good, and yet all the while look twice when I'm around. Did my father do something so bad as to make them look at me that way? I just wish there were someone, anyone, like me to ask questions and follow. I never thought I would be so eager and willing to follow someone if only I thought they knew what they were doing. I feel like none of them could possible understand me. Some of them don't really believe I'm a Jedi, they just say that I'm one of the impersonators, one of the thousands of others trying to bring the order back. Well, what if I am? What if there is nothing I can do here? I may have been the son of the great Anakin Skywalker, but I'm not. I'm just Luke, plain and simple farm boy Luke. That's all I want to be now. I would pay every keshel in the universe to be dusting crops with Uncle Owen or making dinner with Aunt Baru, but I know I can never go back to that. They are gone and dead and I am more then just a farm boy now, I am the last of the Jedi and I can no longer follow at Ben's heels, just footprints in the sand.