Don't ever look back
When every life meets another something will be born
You look at the mirror, examining your body. Your red streak hair, your slim body your black converse.
It's been two months since… that happened. That painful event right before spring break.
Flashback;
You and your boyfriend Logan were on the way to the mountain lounge. That was because spring break starts tomorrow.
Thing is that... you were slowly losing feelings towards him, but yet it seems like he loved you till infinity.
It's better to explain now... then to hold it in forever you thought.
"Hey...Logan"
"Yes (your name)"
"Do... Do you love me?" you stuttered.
"Of course ... I'd die for you no matter what..."
Your heart instantly broke... Logan was always serious.. he does commit to everything he says .
Its started to pour.. the view from inside the car started to get foggy.
I don't LOVE HIM ANYMORE.
"LOGAN I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE"
He turned to me with a serious face.
"YOU GOT TO BE KIDDING ME! WHAT ABOUT ALL THE CRAP WE BEEN THROUGH. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME (your name).. ?!"
You looked at him.. tears filling up your eyes as he continues to drive up…
"Its over" you whispered.
"YEAH ITS OVER" he yelled as he drove off the road into the dark forest his anger taking control of him... taking you as prisoner"
He was right…. He would die for you.
You survived the crash... but Logan died on impact... You cried... You screamed when the police came to the scene… why did you act like this LOGAN?!
FLASHBACK ENDS
If we haven't had argued, he would still be here with me... just as friends. You touched the necklace he gave you on your 17th birthday... you never tooked it off. Was it your fault? Was it your fault that he's now dead?!
You looked back at the mirror before you broke down crying...
You cried your soul out...
COME BACK LOGAN IM SORRY...! You screamed.
*Knock*
You whipped your tears... and whispered..
Come in..
There stood your best guy friend Kendall Schmidt. He was also good friends with... Logan.
Since the accident he always came to your house... Sometimes to spend the night…He was always there when everyone else basically disappeared from your life.
He saw you... crying... he saw you emotionless... Kendall ran to your side.
He crouched down and pulled you in a tight hug... whispering "Its ok (your name) its ok (your name)" rocking you back and forth.
"IT WAS MY FAULT KENDALL! I KILLED HIM! IT'S MY ENTIRE FAULT!" You screamed... trying to get out of his grip but failed... he's too strong.
Kendall explained; "Oh my god! Its can't be your fault (your name)... you didn't know he was drunk... He wasn't HIMSELF. HE DIDN'T EVEN LOVE YOU."
You interrupted him; "Correction He did love me." You raise your arm revealing the scars from that accident.
I still have nightmares
I still have bad memories.
Kendall pulled you up and kissed you.
Your eyes widen as he broke the kiss...
"If he had loved you... he wouldn't have left you..."
"B..But what was that .. You.. Me.. " you blushed..
"Youre not alone girl" was all he said.
Bet you didnt notice.. first time your heart was broken.. you called me up and we talked till the morning ;*