I wonder….
Does anybody think of what life could be like… if this never happened….or that never happened?
I think like that all the time
My whole life, it seemed that there was always something wrong
Always something going on
I could never quite understand why things were happening
They just were
The arguing
The fighting
The bickering
The teasing
The harassment
The beatings
The constant moving
The threats
The cuts
The bruises
The blood
The tears
The screams
But as each day passes I understand more and more why things happen the way they do
Ive learned that things happen for a reason
Some reason may be understandable, and some may not
And because of my past and of my present day
I used to think that my life was horrible
There used to be days where I wished I could go some place and never return
And maybe….just maybe
It would all go away
I tried that
I thought that by going away all my problems would go away also
But they were there when I got back
That disappointed me
I tried numerous ways other than running away to get rid of my probs
Some of those ways just made the problems I already had worse
Others just made the pain go away for a little bit and then it would come back again
It seemed that no matter what I did there was always something in my way to make things better
Then after many, many years of suffering and anguish I learned a saying
"That which does not destroy will only make me stronger"
And to me that only means one thing…
If I can't run from the bad then I will just move forward
And hopefully my problems that I have now will soon loose track of me and be left behind