AN: This story is between Emily and Alison of pretty little liars. This takes place 2 years after Alison dissapeared and in what I hope will happen in season 4. A little angsty so just giving you a heads up if you don't that then don't read.

Disclaimer: I do not own Pretty Little Liars or the books by Sara Shepard. All rights go to the creators all I take credit for is the story idea.

Parts of this story will have lyrics from the song Half a heart by One Direction. Hey don't hate it's a good song!

(Emily P.O.V.)

"So your friends been telling me, you've been sleeping with my sweater and that you can't stop missing me. Bet my friends been telling you i'm not doing much better, Cause i'm missing half of me."

(Flashback)

"Ali! Are we ever going to leave to go see the other girls you've been in the bathroom for a half an hour!" I yell at Alison who is in her bedroom bathroom 'doing her makeup'. I swear the girl takes forever to do everything.

"Don't get your panties in a twist Em i'll be ready in a minute." 'which usually means an hour' I think with a frustrated huff.

Thirty minutes later and a lot of begging I finally got Ali to finish up putting on her mascara. As always Ali looked beautiful. She always does, She knows she does. Besides her cold and bitchy attitude I can see through that and find her insecurities. I can see when someone calls her a bitch that it truly hurts her. I catch the little flash of hurt in her eyes before it's gone in a second replaced with her usual cold self. I always learn new things about Alison everyday and it amazes me what new things I learn.

Every time Ali opens up to me it just opens up another corner of my heart for her to fill. She makes me feel so loved. But she hurts me too and I can't bring myself to hate her. I love her too much.

I think Alison realizes how much I love and care for her because at one moment she'll be the sweetest girl and the next she plays with my feelings like i'm a rag doll. I don't know why I put up with it, hell why would anyone put up with it. I've just been drowning in my love for Ali that I don't see how much it hurts me every day.

Honestly, I don't know how she does it. I cannot think of even once person would do something as cruel and manipulative as what Alison does to me. Maybe everyone was right, Maybe she's just as big of a bitch as everyone said she is. I can't bring myself to not love her, it feels…wrong, impossible even.

(End of flashback)

"And being here without you, is like i'm waking up to. Only half a blue sky, kinda there but not quite. It's like walking around with just one shoe. I'm half a heart without you. Half a man at best, with half an arrow in my chest. I miss everything we do, I'm half a heart without you."

(Emily P.O.V. present day)

It's a beautiful day in Rosewood. The sun is shining the birds are flying…. but something seems… off. I can sense something is very wrong nearby. Being my worried self I rush over to my phone sitting on my bed and find Hanna's contact.

Hanna answers on the third ring sounding groggy from sleep. "Hello?" Hanna croaks out.

'Well hello there sleeping beauty how are you?" I ask sarcastically with a smile on my face. Hanna was always the one out of us four that was the laziest. "I was fine ti'll I was rudely awoken from my beauty sleep." I hear hanna's smart ass reply. I chuckle, "I was just calling to see how your doing? Today just feels very… Odd. More odd than usual of course. I feel like someone is watching me, waiting for me." Hanna was silent through Emily's talking but she understood what she meant.

"Em, I know what you mean. I think all of us always feel like there is someone watching but we just assume it's A. It feels different in a way. Like it feels like a different person." I was nodding all through Hanna's confession understanding what she meant. "So what do you think I should do?" I ask a little warily. I heard Hanna sigh and heard ruffling in the background. "Honestly Em, I just think it's A being their pervy self. Just go spend some time with Paige to get your mind off things." Paige, Just her name brings a smile to Emily's face.

Finally having ended the call I got dressed and applied light makeup. Texting Paige asking if she wants to hang out I got a quick reply telling me to come on over. I grab my keys and my favorite black cardigan and I head out the door yelling to my mom telling her I was going to Paiges. Hearing her mumbled response that sounded somewhat of a yes I head out the door and to my girlfriends house with a smile on my face.

"Forget all we said that night. No it doesn't even matter, Cause' we both got split into two. If you can spare and hour or so we'll go for lunch down by the river. We can really talk it being here without you is like i'm waking up to, Only half a blue sky. Kinda there but not quite, It's like walking around with just one shoe i'm half a heart without you. Half a man at best, with half an arrow in my chest. I miss everything we do. I'm half a heart without you."

(Alison P.O.V.)

I sit by the bedroom window infuriated at what i'm watching. Paige acting like she's the most innocent and sweet girl to Emily when secretly Pigskin is just a lying bitch. Before I 'disappeared' I told Paige to take care of Emily for me not go out with her! I didn't lie when I told Emily she was my favorite, I always did love her the most. Even though it's taken me four years away from Emily It only took me a minute away from her to realize how much I truly missed her and still do.

It took me a little longer to realize I was in love with her. I didn't truly start noticing until I seen her and Paige together. It made me sick to my stomach to watch them kiss and hold each other. It made my chest have a painful unfamiliar feeling to it. I knew there was something that was always different about Em. Who knew it was the fact that I was in love with her.

When she gave me her letter four years ago it broke my heart a little. I never knew Em cared for me so much I just thought she was being her normal kind self. Hearing that I put her in so much grief made me hate myself more and more. I wanted to desperately to make things right between us. I knew though that if I ever went out with Emily, my reputation in Rosewood would be shattered.

Looking back at my old self I snort in disgust. Back then power was like a drug to me. Being mean and in charge of the girls was the only way I thought I could be in charge. Now I truly understand what power is, and I definitely don't have it the way I used to.

Looking at Emily smiling through the window I feel the familiar pain in my chest at seeing her happy. Seeing her happy without me. I wanted so badly to tell Em how sorry I was and that I'd never be mean to her again. With my luck, that never happened. Hegot to me before I could do anything.

I remember the feeling of being strangled, pushed, and beaten. The memories are still as clear as they were four years ago. Remembering how I was thrown into that stupid hole. I hated having to hide from my best friends,but it was for their own safety. It's selfish of me but sometimes I watch Em for a little while. Seeing her from afar is better than not seeing her at all. I just wish I could see her for real. I'd have to do it very quiet and in a secluded location. The kissing rock that's it!

Having made up my plan I slip as quietly out of the tree as I can. Once I reach the ground with a soft 'thunk' I pull my red hood over my long golden locks. Looking once back up at the bedroom window I sigh and turn to leave back into my hideaway.

" Though I try to get you out of my head, Truth is I got lost without you, and since then I've been waking up to. Only half a blue sky, kinda there but not quite. It's like walking around with just one shoe. I'm half a heart without you. Half a man at best, with half an arrow in my chest. I miss everything we do i'm half a heart without you.

AN: Soooooo? Let me know what you guys think and if you want more! Happy new year! And if you wouldn't mind it would mean a lot if you guys can review. Thanks everyone.