A/N: Hello! The first chapter is weird but all shall be explained later on, so bear with me!

Gigantic thank you to scooterwoof for beta-ing!

Italicis memories

{…} is the voice

The memory is word for word from the anime. It will be AU so all the characters will be OOC.

This will be YAOI so don't like, don't read!

Dissclamer: I own nothing. Nada. Rien. Niente. . Τίποτα.Ничего.

Chapter 1: Remembering

Everything is white.

I can't see.

It hurts.

Why does it hurt?

Everything is pain and more pain.

What am I doing here?

Do I deserve this pain?

Where is 'here' anyways?

{You are repenting.}

I don't understand.

Repenting for what?

If I'm repenting then I did something wrong.

{What don't you understand?}

Everything.

How can I repent, if I don't know what I'm repenting for?

{Then what do you feel?}

Pain and…sorrow?

Why do I feel sorrow?

Did somebody die?

{Yes.}

Who?

Why?

Did I kill them?

Is that why I'm repenting?

{Yes.}

Why?

{Search. You know the answers.}

Search?

How can I know the answers if I don't remember them.

{But you do. Search your memories.}

How?

{I will show you.}

I feel like screaming as I find my self in a different setting. The change makes me understand, but I'm too confused to do that. And besides, I don't think I could even scream. Do I even have a voice? A body? There are so many questions running through my head that I don't know which ones to ask. It's strange, I feel something. What is this desire? This urge to continue onwards? Why am I so rushed? It's as if I have something important to do.

I'm running down a hallway, checking every room, looking for someone. I suddenly remember something and head for the roof. I'm in a rush, and by the time I reach the roof, I'm sprinting. It's raining, so I stop at the door, just out of reach of the worst of the rain. I see him and give a sigh of relief. I can feel a few drops pass my shelter and fall softly on my skin. Ryuuzaki's face is slightly tilted toward the sky, letting the rain drip down his cheeks. It almost looks like he's crying.

"What are you doing there, standing by yourself?"

L lifts his hand to his ear as if he can't hear me. I'll give him the benefit of the doubt, the rain is loud, after all.

I raise my of hand and cup it beside my mouth, repeating myself. This time I speak louder and with clear pronunciation to make sure he can hear me. I don't like repeating myself.

He repeats the same gesture but with a small smile. I stand still for a few seconds, pondering whether or not I should simply abandon him there, but finally resign myself to getting wet. I raise my arm to shield my face from the worst of the rain, narrow my eyes, and walk towards him.

I let a small sigh make its way past my lips as I get in hearing range.

"What are you doing, Ryuuzaki?"

He had watched me approach with his big panda eyes but now he turns away.

"Oh, I'm not doing anything in particular, it's just…"

His voice is quiet and resigned, sad even. I don't like it when he's like this, I don't like it at all.

"…I hear the bell."

"The bell?"

Whatever I was expecting, it sure wasn't this. A bit of my skepticism creeps into my voice. I'm really starting to question his sanity now, or what's left of it, anyway.

"Yes. The sound of the bell has been unusually loud today."

His voice is getting quieter by the word. I look away, listening.

"I don't hear anything."

I'm sure he can hear the disbelief in my voice and he turns to look at me.

"Really? You can't hear it? It's been ringing nonstop all day; I find it…very distracting. I wonder if it's a church, a wedding or perhaps a…"

He turns around again and lapses into silence, as if he doesn't want to say the rest of his thought.

"What are you getting at, Ryuuzaki? Come on, cut it out; let's get back inside."

My voice his harsher than I had wanted it to be, the cold and wetness are making me impatient. He turns back to wards me, but looks at the ground.

"I'm sorry. Nothing I say makes any sense anyway. If I were you, I wouldn't believe any of it."

I tilt my head slightly to the side. What the hell is he playing at now? He looks so depressed that I sigh and soften my features, closing my eyes.

"You know, you're totally right. Honestly, most of the things you say sound like complete nonsense."

I let a bit of laughter enter my voice and open my eyes to find him staring at me.

"There'd be no end to my troubles if I actually took you seriously all the time. I probably know that better than anyone."

"Yes, I would say that's a fair assessment. But, I could say the same about you."

"Hmm? What's that suppose to mean?"

"Tell me Light, from the moment you where born, has there ever been a time where you actually told the truth?"

As he finished talking, we simply stood, looking at each other in complete silence. Even the rain seamed to silence it's self.

"Where's this coming from, Ryuuzaki? I do admit, I stretch the truth here and there, however, find me one person in this world who has never told a lie, it wouldn't be easy. Human beings just aren't made to be perfect; everybody lies from time to time. Even so, I have always made a conscious effort to be carful not to tell a lie that could hurt others. That's my answer."

He looked at me disbelieving before turning away again.

"I had a feeling you'd say something like that. Let's go back inside, we're both drenched. "

"Yeah."

I chuckled a bit, now he notices?

Was that, one of my 'memories'?

{Yes.}

I still don't understand. What was I doing there? Who is 'Ryuuzaki'?

{Disappointing. I would have thought you could figure that out yourself. I will give you more time.}

More time? More time to do what?

{Do not think of that. Think only of what you have just seen. Think, and remember, Kira.}

A/N: Sorry for the shortness! I really can't help it! :P The next chapy will be up soon.